Metanoia

The journey of changing one’s mind, heart, self, and way of life.

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• Cullen Vasileve: A skittish and sickly looking man with a love for model trains.

• Anastacio 'Adonis' Nicolo: A well off but standoffish person who claims to have grown up with old money...

• Jules Autry: A young widow with a heart of gold, she seems fairly taken with you!

• Kakena Kamau: A suspicious nurse who wonders into the depths of Plywood more often than advised.

•  Play as gay, straight, bi, aro, or ace and romance four love interests: One male, one female, and two nonbinary.

•  Play as an MC with a semi-selectable past and a fully customizable appearance and personality.

•  A free to play story with a revamped demo coming: tbd.

•  Solve the mystery of Plywood Asylum or sink into the darkness that threatens to swallow you whole.

Metanoia is a game with mature content and may contain the following: 

• Explicit language and content 

• Drug mentions and use

Apologies for the out of the blue ask 😓

https://www.tumblr.com/hpowellsmith/772827898642071552/please-share-im-going-through-a-ton-of-wip?source=share

Ahhh, looks like this is the final push I need to finally fully shift to Twine. Best regards to Don for the service he's provided us, I know there's been some struggles in the past with keeping the domain up(?).

I was recently thinking about you and the game, good to know you're back ❤👀

haha, aww!! <3 yeah, I appear every once in a blue moon... like a curse uwu

//what's this?? a post on the metanoia tumblr?? answering asks after disappearing for nearly a year?? yes. that's correct. I hope you enjoy this anon! Sorry, it's so everywhere -- writing romantic adonis isn't something I've had to do in full yet lol

thantophobia   –   the phobia of losing someone you love

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They do not fear death. It's something inevitable and something necessary for life to go on. They are content to just live in the now, alive and well. Hmm, maybe "well" isn't the best way to describe things. Especially not now. Adonis was 'well' yesterday, their love was 'well' yesterday -- but today? Something was off. First, it was a feeling, something akin to dread that they could not pinpoint the source of, followed by his partner drifting in and out of awareness. They tried to keep near them, worried for their wellbeing but that proved impossible between their appointments.

They suppose they should have tried harder, but how were they to know what would happen a mere two hours after lunch? God. God! It all went to shit fast. Too fast.

And now, their love lies motionless on the ground, seeping blood and gore across the cement floor, and contorted grotesquely. They are, without a doubt, dead. Dead... That's not something Adonis had ever thought they'd use to describe their partner. 'Dead'. Huh...

They take a seat beside their lover's body, hardly registering the ooze now clinging to their skin and clothes. They hope it's a dream, that this is all some stupid nightmare.

But it isn't.

Was it their fault? Was this punishment? For what?

They gently place their calloused hand on their partner's cheek. They're still warm, not even two minutes dead, and it's agonizing. They feel alive. They should //be// alive. They savor the heat of their skin, one last intimate moment together. Their thoughts swarm like angry bees.

"Do you wish to try again?" A voice like shattering glass and the sharp hum of the cicadas' song breaks through the tense atmosphere. Adonis can hear shuffling -- perhaps one of their friends, perhaps not. The voice isn't familiar. "One final attempt?"

Adonis looks up and out into the encroaching darkness. There's a figure there, dark like shadows and dancing like the static on a TV. "What?"

"Yes, one final chance. A last attempt at getting this right, finally."

And, like the sound of air being sucked out of a room, the figure is gone. Adonis looks down, perplexed, but curious. Beneath their fingers, wounds heal and bones return to their correct position. It's horrifying to behold and yet it's something the Adonis longs for. A mere moment later, their lover's eyes flutter open.

myötähäpeä   –   the feeling of shame you experience on the behalf of another person or a character when they do something stupid or embarrassing + Adonis

‘Ah...’ they think, ‘they're an idiot.’ Adonis watches as the person claiming to be their friend (more like pain in the ass) attempts to overcome the large fence enclosing Plywood from the swamps beyond. Sadly, and in front of everyone, they don’t quite manage to gain a foothold and fall flat on their ass in the thorn-bushes lining the fence. Their accompanying yelp of pain and surprise gains a few chuckles from other patients while nurses stand by in the distance watching with looks of complete disdain. A hot feeling of shame washes over them, the feeling of guilt (and embarrassment) by association imbedding itself in him like the thorns from the bush in MC’s skin.

torpe   –   to be desperately in love, but unable to admit your feelings or approach the person

“It shouldn’t be this hard,” he thinks as his eyes trail over the distant figure of his friend -- or maybe they’re only kind of friends? He’s always had a hard time figuring out where he stood with people, sometimes he’d misunderstand and think they were close when, in reality, they were not. Was that the case now? Cullen heaves a sigh, his perpetually sleep-bruised eyes darting down to look into the plastic of the cafeteria table. “It’s just three simple words... I like you." So why does looking into their eyes, having their gaze see every part of him that’s lied hidden for so long, scare him so badly? What does he have to lose? 

Cullen lifts his gaze again to look once more at his maybe-kinda-friend, and watches as they joke happily with Jules, Adonis taking the time to make comments every so often. That should be him... He should be the one they feel eager to approach, he should be the friend, the potential partner, that they take time to visit with. Why can’t it be him? Why can’t he be brave like them...?

🪞 How does your OC perceive themself? Do they believe themself to be attractive, unattractive, or average? Does their view of themself affect their self-esteem, or are they unbothered by their physical appearance? (If your OC does have things they’re confident or insecure about, what are they?)

Kakena -- Doesn’t think they’re attractive but (I) others beg to differ! I’d rank them more above average but not drop-dead gorgeous like Adonis. A little insecure about being on the thinner, more broad shouldered side of things but has a fondness for their eyes and smile (even if it doesn’t always look like a smile)! Not overly confident in general, but they fake it for their patients and colleagues -- better than Cullen, however!

Cullen -- The least confident of the ros and very much not a fan of his gangly limbs, immense height, bruised skin, and overall somewhat messy appearance... sadly, he can’t conjure up the energy to change it. He doesn’t know it but his smile and height tend to be his most attractive features! Sees himself as average on his good days and below average on his bad days. 

Adonis -- Knows they’re attractive and has very high self-esteem for the most part! They, perhaps, spend the second most amount of time getting ready for the day, even if their signature style is just ‘rolled out of bed’!! Very confident about their facial features but a little insecure about their height -- they’d like to be a bit taller. 

👄 What is your OC’s smile like? Is it bright and wide, or thin and reserved? Does your OC wear any lip-gloss or lipstick? Do they chew their lips?

Kakena -- A black lipstick covered, gentle tilt of their lips. It doesn't quite look like a smile, almost like an unsure, reserved wince. v shy about it!

Cullen -- Chews his lips and the inside of his cheeks. His smile is hesitant and small -- not quite noticeable unless you're really looking at him.

Adonis -- Wide, tilted smirk. Their lips are always hydrated, rarely dry or cracked and occasionally covered by some cherry flavored lip balm they borrowed from Jules.

Jules -- Beaming, a little too bright with, perhaps, too many teeth! It's always happy rarely sad and tinted with soft red lipstick -- sometimes covered with lip gloss too! Her lips are often dry and crack very easily (drink more water, bb)

💇 What is your OC’s hairstyle? How do they maintain their hair? Do they wash it and/or cut it regularly? Have they ever dyed their hair?

// won't lie, I was v confused and alarmed to see eye emojis in my inbox adsasd

👁 What is your OC’s eye color? Do they have any eye-related habits, like winking or rubbing their eyes? Do other people tend to notice their eyes?

Kakena -- Rich, brown eyes the color of mahogany. Most don't notice their eyes as they aren't anything a-typical but they are noted for narrowing their eyes when they're deep in thought.

Cullen -- Has pale brown, almost hazel, eyes, almost as if the color were being sucked out of them. His eyes aren't notable, and he tends to pull gently at his eyelashes but never/rarely pulls them out.

Adonis -- Also has hazel eyes but more on the darker side. Doesn't do anything noticeable with their eyes, and their eyelashes and eye shape are more notable than their color.

Jules -- Green eyes. No strange eye habits, rubs her eyes with her palm when she's tired! She has a very stunning shade of green eyes, very noticeable!

👀 What is the first physical feature people notice when they see your OC? Why?

Kakena -- Their height! While not the tallest of the ROs nor of the other Plywood residents, they still seem to tower over people in a way that's chilling and awe inducing. This might be due to their height, stature, and the way they carry themself.

Cullen -- His pale, translucent skin. People often think he's sick because he's so pallid and tired looking -- that mixed with the fact that he bruises easily often draws people's attention to his blue-green tinted patches of skin. Why does is this notable? Have you ever encountered someone who looks like a paranormal reject? I didn't think so... sorry cullen

Adonis -- Their sharp, blocky features. They have rather broad facial features that are sharp and striking -- they are attractive and they know it, with a wide jaw line, high cheekbones, and soft looking curly hair. Their the type of person you see on the street and stop dead in your tracks because, "damn"!

4. How easy or difficult is it for your oc to forgive people in general?

4a. Do they believe it's better to forgive someone or that it is healthier to cut ties forever?

Kakena -- Forgives fairly easily and believes it is better to forgive but knows that sometimes you need to cut ties in order to have a healthier relationship.

Cullen -- Forgives easily but remains wary, doesn't think cutting ties would help so he'd rather fix the problem instead.

Adonis -- Doesn't forgive easily and makes it known. You have to earn their trust back. Is willing to cut ties if need be but prefers not to!

// I didn’t quite answer these correctly, but I hope you like these!! <3

2. What acts of kindness or affection are your ocs most likely to perform for another? How do their methods or ideas differ from each other?

2a. What would prompt them to show this kind of generosity to someone?

Kakena -- Gift giving, words of affirmation. Prefers to let their friends, family, and SOs know verbally that they love them but also enjoy giving homemade gifts! Is also willing to go out of their way to help a friend build or fix something, or pick them up and give them a ride if needed!

Will have a moment where they feel overwhelmed with sudden affection and will channel all their energy into letting their friends and family know they love them! Might also be prompted by another person being kind to them without needing anything in return!

Cullen -- Would love to give words of affirmation but he’s just so shy. Isn’t too physically affectionate but he tries to fight through the burning heat on his cheeks as he clasps a hand on their shoulder or hovers nearby! 

Being a true and genuine friend to Cullen will prompt him to show more affection or go out of his way to do something for someone!! Is happy to help someone understand the model train in the rec room or accompany them on a walk through the yard!!

Adonis -- Gift giving. They aren’t much of a word person and saying, “I love you” can be like pulling teeth! They do, however, enjoy buying things for their friends and family (well what’s left of it)! They usually buy expensive and hard to replace gifts -- something that’s hard to forget and really ‘proves’ that they enjoy their friends company!

Spurred on by nothing and everything. Won’t admit that they enjoy dotting on their friends and will simply say, “I just saw it and decided to buy it. No big deal...”

Jules -- Words of affirmation and physical affection! As much as she’d love to be able to buy or pay for something for her friends, she’s not really making a whole lot of money right now. Instead, she’s happy to wrap her arms around a friend or place a kiss on their cheek! Tends to think that friends should show affection to one another because love is love, no matter what form it takes (platonic or romantic)!!

She’ll be hit by a sudden feeling of affection and simply seek out her nearest friend to share the feeling with! Could be prompted by someone saying they love her or being “just the super best friend ever”!

12. How does your oc decide what to give someone as a gift?

Kakena -- Bases gifts on the person’s interests and sentimental value. Will not buy something that will be easily tossed away or forgotten!

Cullen -- Buys gifts that are cheap but well made, tries to go by what the person likes, but he gets anxious and ends up having to guess!

Adonis -- Something expensive and hard to replace, wants to be remembered as That Friend lol!!

//*pats cullen's head* this boy can hold so much affection! (not me, misusing secondary school asdasd sorry yall...)

😱 Write your character describing one of their most embarrassing memories.

Cullen totally called one of his teachers mom/dad in front of his whole class. Everyone laughed it off but man, was he mortified!!

😞 Write your character describing one of their saddest memories.

His father also loves model trains and spent quite a few years building a 'perfect' model and track for his son! Little Cullen was fascinated by it and was quite sad to find out his dad had accidentally dropped the carefully put-together train and it broke into pieces...

⛱ Write your character describing one of their happiest memories.

Cullen’s history is nothing to write home about, typical family, typical schooling, typical everything... until he hit the age of nineteen and decided to live on his own. After nearly a month of living on his own, he became a recluse, his family finally deciding enough was enough when they found him in his unkempt apartment in the middle of a panic attack. Afterwards, Cullen was sent to Plywood to rehabilitate and gain the help he needed to integrate properly into the ‘real’ world.

Cullen is often described as being a bad mix between anxious and antisocial, usually preferring his own company to that of others. While he can be friendly, it’s hard to get him out of his hard shell and open up properly to the people around him... but he tries his hardest. Cullen is a gaunt figure, bordering on worryingly thing, with sharp cheekbones, sunken cheeks and eyes, and messy, unbrushed red hair. His skin easily burns having not seen much of sunlight in the last few months, and is often decorated with bruises and bumps -- he doesn’t know where they come from either. He has thin, drawn lips that are often cracked and peeling. Cullen wears loose sweaters or shirts, comfortable slacks (sometimes pj pants) and his Plywood issued, thin slippers.