writer & aspiring artist. feel free to send asks or tag me in things regardless of whether we're mutuals. tech enthusiast interested in cyberpunk worldbuilding. avid lover of nuance.
#heart-thief valentine
valentine myśliwiec | 33 | corpo techie | nonbinary (she/he/they)
former Arasaka employee with complicated feelings about the company that molded her and then tossed her out. loyal enough to help Takemura accomplish his goals and cynical enough not to trust any of Hanako's promises. skilled in getting things done but not in combat. willing to help anybody but herself.
#the damn things overlap
longfic covering the game's events from Valentine's POV after doing Hellman's and Evelyn's quests in Act 2, with some canon divergence and a vastly accelerated timeline. caught between her determination to help Takemura in his plan for revenge and her decision to let Johnny have her body, all the while avoiding the question of her future, which is growing shorter by the day. a story about becoming a martyr, the dangers of success, and the art of avoiding difficult problems.
ships:
#twin human highway flares - goro/valentine
#a pair of open graves - johnny/valentine (neither romantic or platonic but some secret third thing)
#nothing gold can stay - abernathy/valentine
smut fics:
the binds that tie
valentine ties up and soft doms goro
everything where it belongs
valentine/goro domestic fluff with a dash of forbidden relationship
when her edges soften
johnny/valentine post-game bonding activities. combative. homoerotic. johnny is borrowing a body based on a deal that clouds made with alt while valentine is back working at arasaka.
cwe 755 - improper handling of exceptional conditions
victoria/valentine corpos vying for control at work. what if the relic could be used for some... recreational stimulation?
thread-safe
valentine/goro au where everything is worse. goro refused all of valentine's advances and pined from a distance. after a stint back at arasaka, she fled with johnny, kerry, rogue, and alt to las vegas. goro is sent to retrieve her. contains two story branches based on whether he succeeds.
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other tags of note:
#cyberpunk meta
#felix talks tech
wip wednesday
#art!!
#my art
#my fic
and of course:
#felix is a hater : when I get annoyed at cyberpunk worldbuilding
last note: I do have most virtual photography filtered, because quite a large percentage of it has people looking into the camera or close-ups on faces and having so much of it on my dash was stressful and exhausting. If you are a mostly vp-focused blog I may not follow or may be low on interactions, and that's why. It's nothing personal– unfortunately this is the best solution I've found to keep myself sane. If we're mutuals feel free to show me stuff or tag me if you'd like me to take a look at something cool :) And thank you to all who have tagged things as #eye contact cw or #scopophobia because I do like to peek at things from my mutuals from time to time and its helpful to know what I'm in for.
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"I was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get my fill of it - - to be fed so much love, I couldn't take it any more. Just once."
Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood
I always thought it was crazy when blogs I followed would be like "I'm trying to find that thing I made but I think I lost the file like 2 years ago and trying to search my own blog sucks soooo bad" but here I am looking for a thing I made that I think I lost the file like 2 years ago and trying to search my own blog sucks. like so bad.
The key to writing good fanfiction is to harbor a deeply humiliating desire, and the trick there is that even pretty basic and societally-accepted desires like “being held” and “being wanted” CAN and WILL be humiliating if they’re intense enough. Become so estranged from human connection that the idea of someone playing with your hair fills you with yearning so deep you feel like you’re going to throw up and you will write some banger fanfiction. It might have some other consequences too but idrk about that.
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One of the big topics I thought about when developing Valentine was obviously her cyberware: how much cyberware does she have? what does it do? how does she compare to other employees in similar positions?
As I continued brainstorming, one particular question came up: to what degree does Arasaka have direct and total control over her cyberware, including her cyber heart? Put another more pointed way: Do corporations put fatal kill switches in their employees?
Before I dive in, I think it's important for me to say: there is no single right answer to this question. Anyone who knows me well can probably predict me saying it depends, and it does depend! But in this case, as in all cases, the journey is as fun as the result because we can dive a little deeper into the world. Personally, this is how I end up doing most of my worldbuilding or solidifying headcanons when branching into stuff that is not explicitly covered in canon (and occasionally as part of deciding why to discard bits of canon that conflict with the kind of story I want to tell).
Observations in Canon
Throughout the game we observe characters that are killed (or badly injured) more or less at the flip of a switch, via their cyberware. The examples that I can easily think of: the council in the corpo beginning, T-Bug, Evelyn Parker, Brigitte & her netrunners (depending).
You could count anyone V kills using certain quick-hacks: I won't go much into that, as I personally view gameplay builds & functionality as non-canonical for my world-building. Why? Short version: shooting someone in the head is fun in-game. But if I'm writing a story I wouldn't generally expect anyone to survive 1-2 shots directly to the head (the thing that canonically kills V) and still be returning fire. A similar idea applies to quick-hacks.
All those people killed in that way, however, are not being killed directly by their own corporations or organization - most of them are not even corpos. They are killed or disabled by hostile netrunners.
We do observe a handful of corpos who are fired or escaped, and experience various consequences as a result: Corpo V, Goro Takemura, Anders Hellman, and Hasan Demir. All of them are privy to company secrets and/or intelligence. What happens to them?
Corpo V: Immediately loses access to Arasaka feeds, bank account, housing, becomes physically ill -> implied to be because of stress, stims, and hormonal implants, though never fully explained
Goro Takemura: We never see the exact moment Goro is fired, but we may assume he loses access/functionality immediately. Even wounded, he is able to fight off and kill pursuers.
Anders Hellman: Leaves Arasaka for Kang Tao of his own will and appears in good health and with cyberware that works well enough for him to analyze V and the Relic. Was additionally able to smuggle out proprietary info.
Hasan Demir: Walked out of his employer with a prototype actually installed in his head. Appears in fine health other than physical injuries from other sources. Unclear how much other cyberware he has and what the state of its operation is.
What does that tell us? People that corporations would have a good reason to kill to prevent from causing trouble or spreading secrets do not appear to have any cyberware which would allow their corporations to instantly kill them. ☝ But! Those who are kicked out and thus have no prior warning still seem to suffer some interesting consequences. And there's no reason we can't think about kill switches in general. Why wouldn't a fatal kill switch be available in these situations? Why are they disabled but not dead?
Threat Modeling
Let's set aside the Doylist explanation: if these characters were dead there wouldn't be much a story. While true, it's not very helpful to exploring in-universe reasons that might bring up more interesting questions about the inherent risks to implanting cyberware and how this effects individuals, organizations, and the choices they make.
The method I like to use for this is a sort of informal threat model. What's a threat model? It's when you analyze anything from a whole system down to a specific piece of functionality, and ask: what could go wrong? If you google this you'll find a lot of scary, verbose ways to accomplish this, but we're not being paid to certify a product or anything so we're just going to pants it. Three things we're going to cover:
What is a kill switch? What is a fatal kill switch?
How would it work?
What could go wrong?
What is a kill switch?
Generally speaking, the kill switch is what you throw when you want a thing to STOP. It is not a gentle shutdown. In this context, when I think of a kill switch I think of something a corporation can press to disable an employee who has gone rogue, is in danger of revealing company secrets, is endangering someone important, etc.
A fatal kill switch would ostensibly kill the person, rather than just disable them to make for easier pickup. Bob from accounting is about to sell your financial secrets to Militech? Explode Bob's heart.
How would it work?
Fear not! We do not need to know all of the technical details of how cyberware or technology works. Please behold my professional mockup of how a hypothetical corporate employee might use a kill switch on another hypothetical corporate employee:
Okay, okay, we probably need just a little more than that. Aside from this extremely complicated dashboard on the corporation's side, we would have to also intuit that the target of the kill switch must have cyberware AND that the cyberware must be able to receive some kind of signal from the corporation.
You might have picked up on the fact that we've already identified a possible problem: we can't explode Bob's heart if he's in an underground bunker with no cell signal. Of course this, like anything, is not necessarily a show stopper. Maybe Bob is claustrophobic and would never go underground. Maybe Militech has found a way to beam wifi through three feet of concrete. Maybe your story gets its tension from Bob hiding out until he can find a heart surgeon that does house calls.
One last piece: a kill switch designed to disable or slow down an employee might simply shut off cyberware or broadcast its location. Fatal kill switches must be able to kill. We could hypothesize how this works: if the cyberware blows up, turns itself off, poisons the user, drives them into a homicidal rage, etc. I leave this as an exercise to the author, as it's not really important to this discussion.
What could go wrong?
Always my favorite section. I'm going to break this up loosely by categories which you could use for future threat models but really you can do anything you like here. Examples here are broad but non-exhaustive. There are almost certainly some I've missed!
It doesn't work:
There's no clear signal between the switch and the cyberware and the switch fails
The cyberware receives the signal but ignores it or responds incorrectly (hardware failure or tampering could apply here)
The operator refuses to send the signal or pretends to but doesn't (human element)
Scenarios where the switch should trigger automatically fail
Accidental trigger:
An update to the corporation's software triggers the switch on all employees everywhere
Updates to an employee's cyberware triggers the switch
Damage to the cyberware triggers the switch
Misuse or Malicious Behavior:
A netrunner gets into a corporation network and finds the kill switch dashboard and uses it on one or more employees
An operator triggers the switch on someone they dislike or have been paid by outside parties to target
Netrunners find a way to send the signal directly to cyberware without access to the dashboard
An employee triggers their own switch to avoid being retrieved and interrogated
It's important to note here again that the implementation details themselves don't matter that much when doing this kind of modeling. We're also not interested in whether kill switches are good or bad. All technology has its tradeoffs, after all, and now we have a much clearer idea of why or why not a corporation may use kill switches.
So what's the takeway? That's up to you! Do you think all corporations use kill switches? What kind?
For my purposes, I arrived at this conclusion: Arasaka does use kill switches, but they are intended to disable and not to outright kill. The reason they do this is because the risk of fatal kill switches outweighs the benefits. The 0.01% possibility that a netrunner kills employs is not acceptable, when a disabling kill switch can still remove access & ability, while allowing for retrieval (and in cases of accidental/malicious use, recovery). We see this play out when Goro survives the kill switch, which is obviously bad, but imagine a hacker had managed to trigger it instead, and he still had to protect Saburo? In many other cases, other tools can be used to keep employees in line (as with V, loss of money, home, and power) without the same kind of risks.
One thing I have left out from this threat model is the discussion of risk mitigations or acceptance. What does that mean? It means that once you know what can go wrong you can think of safeguards to solve or reduce a risk. In my example above, Arasaka mitigates the risk of accidental or malicious trigger by choosing only to disable an employee rather than kill them outright. Not every risk can be mitigated, and very few can ever be fully avoided. Some, like the loss of a signal between switch & cyberware, simply have to be accepted!
Further Contemplation
This post is incredibly long already and if you've made it this far, I hope you've been enjoying yourself. This is one of my favorite things to do with existing worlds and I hope it's useful, or at least that this write up was entertaining.
By now you should also have picked up on the fact that I like asking questions. :3 This is the technique that allows me to figure out the most interesting questions to ask myself when I'm writing and developing, which derive naturally from the very broad and simple path we've followed so far. Such as:
What kind of precautions did Anders and Hasan take before leaving their employers?
Corpo V is a white collar worker and Goro is Saburo's personal bodyguard. Are there other Arasaka employees which might be considered more disposable?
Do corporations lie about whether they can and do kill employees this way? Even if they don't, is it considered a useful tool to keep people inline?
How might the risk appetite of corporations changed regarding kill switches over time? Did they used to be used more often? Was there a point where netrunners did hack in and mass trigger this type of switch? Are there rumors or evidence of something like that happening?
How does all of this change how employees might act or think about their employer? Their own autonomy? Whether they agree to certain cyberware upgrades or are forced into them?
I'd love to hear from anyone who has thoughts about the process, whether it's useful, whether you wish this was in another format, whether you're worried about Bob.... (he's fine, probably). And of course if I've missed any other characters who would fit into my earlier examples (So Mi jumped to mind as an interesting character who is neither exactly fired, or escaped, but in an interesting kind of limbo for most of PL) let me know!
goro x v. ~1500 words. not explicit.
goro runs into valentine in an unexpected place. post-ending, arasaka loyalists.
When Goro entered the executive gym on the sixty-third floor he had expected it to be empty, as it was well past two in the morning. But when he emerged from the locker room into the common area, he was surprised to find the pool in use by someone doggedly swimming laps. He paused to observe through the glass, only to realize in a rush of surprise that it was V.
She was oblivious to his presence, which meant she wasn’t tracking interfaces as she normally did, or else was too distracted by exertion to pay attention. He opened the door to the pool, the warmth and smell washing over him. His decision to come here had been unplanned, and the plain black clothing he wore underneath his combat gear clung to him like a second skin in the humidity, his sandals finding little purchase on the wet floor.
V finished another lap, her upper body bobbing up from the surface of the water as she grabbed the side of the pool. She spotted him and he watched shock turn to pleasant surprise as she slicked back her hair and flashed him a grin.
“Fancy meeting you here,” she said, with a quick glance around, as if to make sure he had not brought in other spectators. “Figured I’d have the place to myself.”
“I thought the same,” he said. “Why are you here so late?”
It was true that he was also here at a strange hour, but he had implants which allowed him to operate on a much shorter sleep schedule than the average person. V had no such implants, and in fact had been advised to rest as part of her continuing recovery. He also knew that reminding her of this was one of the quickest ways to start an argument.
“Prefer having the place to myself,” she said, her clipped tone. It was not an admonishment but a distracted, almost shy admission. The corner of her mouth lifted in a crooked smile. “Away from prying eyes.”
Her attempt at deflection did not distract from her discomfort. He should have guessed without asking why she might be swimming at a strange hour in an empty pool– her flat chest marked her as aberrant in Arasaka’s eyes. She had resisted “correction” during her reinstatement, and been granted a very begrudging exception, solely on the basis of her partial integration with Silverhand– a condescension that did not shield her from the judgments of her peers or her superiors. It was not a matter she enjoyed discussing.
“Am I prying?” he asked, cautiously.
She cupped her hand in the water and he had to sidestep to avoid a spurt of water aimed at his shins. Her expression had relaxed into mischief, bright gray eyes shining despite the dark circles underneath. “Not if you join me.”
His heart flipped in his chest. They were playing a dangerous game, one that risked their positions and in V’s case, her conditionally granted freedom. Scandal could easily turn Hanako’s favor. But there were no cameras here, no supervision, no prying eyes. Not on this floor. Not here.
“I do not swim,” he said, shaking his head. He had once, before he had had such extensive prosthetics. He still possessed the ability, but his lack of buoyancy made the exercise tedious and so he preferred to stay on solid ground. “And I am not properly dressed.”
V scoffed, hauling herself out of the water and padding over, looming over him as she dripped water onto the slippery floor and his feet. She had filled out since her dance with death, added some padding to stomach and the curve of her hips that made his hands itch with the longing to touch. But there was a weariness to her that still lingered. He wished he could feed her properly, add some protective bulk to her tall frame and soften the hungry lines of her face.
Regardless of her troubles, she was still handsome. She set her shoulders back under his gaze, bare chested and skittishly proud. He found himself sinking into a strange mix of lust and jealousy at the youthful skin of someone still in her thirties. She had scars, but they were minor– a shiny stab wound under her left collarbone, a small puncture on her neck no bigger than a fingertip, a faded bullet wound in her thigh, and a line along the right side of her rib cage so expertly tended it was nearly invisible save for the fact he knew it was there. The seam where her left forearm turned from pale skin to brilliant red chrome was smooth and flawless.
“You could always take those clothes off,” she said, in a low voice.
He gently grabbed her jaw, watching her pupils dilate almost imperceptibly. “It is very late for you to have such energy.”
She pressed her left hand against the small of his back, cool wet fingers leaving behind a perfect imprint as she urged him a little closer. Her eyes danced but her expression was guileless. “Can’t sleep unless I burn it off.”
Goro opened his mouth to reply, but a loud chiming sound made them flinch and startle apart. It quickly became clear it was only the clock on the wall announcing the hour, for the benefit of any gym member who’d turned off their notifications and lost track of time. V threw her head back and laughed, the loud, brassy sound echoing through the room so he could hardly resist joining in. Then she wrapped her arm around his shoulders, holding him close as she dragged him backwards into the pool.
The impact was a shock, cold water engulfing him from head to toe. Tangled together, they sank like a stone until his shoulders settled on the bottom of the pool. He opened his eyes to find V looking down at him with a grin on her face before she released him and kicked upwards for air.
He righted himself into a crouch and then launched himself upward, breaking the surface easily and anchoring himself with one hand on the edge of the pool. V’s laughter greeted him, and a generous splash of water in her face only increased her mirth. He pulled himself out of the pool, sending a small wave out that washed back around his hands as he sat down on the edge, water pouring out of his clothing and weighing down his hair.
He pulled his shirt off to wring it out, as V dove again, retrieving his sandals from the bottom and setting them down by his side. She put one hand on his knee to hold on to as she lazily tread water, letting it reach her chin as she studied him. He wasn’t self-conscious about his body– it had served him well, and he’d made the decision to keep the layer of organic skin around his torso as an emblem of that appreciation. But he was old and covered in thick, ugly scars, and it still baffled him to see her naked interest.
“I should have guessed…” he grumbled, as he finished wringing most of the water from his shirt and turned to toss it onto the nearest chair. “…that I would become drawn in by your schemes.”
“Schemes?” V repeated, in fake outrage, before her expression suddenly became sly. She grabbed his other knee and hauled herself out of the water until they were face to face, her elbows locked to hold her in place. He dug his heels against the wall of the pool to maintain balance as she rested her weight on his legs. “What if I make it up to you?”
He pretended to consider the offer, enjoying the way her grip tightened on his leg as she waited for him to answer. Patience had never been her strong suit. “What do you propose?”
In response, she leaned in and kissed him. Her lips tasted like chlorine, soft and warm from her exertion. That warmth washed through him, making him fantasize about hauling her closer and– V pulled back gently, exhaling in quiet amusement at his expression.
He hummed. “Is that your proposal?”
“To start,” she said, and he suppressed a shudder. When he ran his thumb over her cheek, she closed her eyes and tilted her head back, exposing her throat.
“You tease me,” he grumbled. She grinned, and in a flash of irritated inspiration he picked her up under the shoulders and tossed her easily back into the water.
V’s head went under and she came up sputtering, her laughter interspersed with a cough. “Is that a no?”
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i just feel like “what if the trauma we go through is usually not noble but purposeless and terrible and the things we develop to keep us alive often change us for the worse” is one of the most important realizations you can come to in terms of like. empathizing with your fellow man and yet whenever that theme shows up in fiction so many people are immediately like its either PERFECT VICTIM OR IRREDEEMABLY EVIL. open the door and walk out of the dichotomy
i want netrunners who look physically SICK and FUCKED UP. i want netrunners who spend hours plugged into the net and forget to eat/exist as a human being and have trouble regulating their own body temperatures without the netrunning jumpsuit and i want that to be EVIDENT.
i want cyberpunk to be GROTESQUE!!!!! NO MORE CLEANLINESS!!!! NO MORE SCRUBBED CLEAN AGONIES!!!!!!!!!!
Sometimes I wonder what weird archaic stuff is still rattling around Arasaka’s corporate structure given it’s been a zaibatsu for like 100 years or so. Mostly I wonder what network ghosts and other haunted technical infrastructure they have because lemme tell you, hypercapitalist sprawling tech companies have some Shit going on in the background and it never gets fixed until the people thanklessly duct taping it back into place give up or die. Imagine the technical debt going on in like the HR system while R&D gets all the shiny new toys, and then someone has to make all these systems talk to each other.
my next V is a consultant tasked with overhauling the legacy system arasaka uses for managing inventory for its hotel kitchens. it's a rails app with 100k lines of code and a mysql database stuck on a major version that hasn't been supported since 2013
HR finally gets enough money to upgrade their systems and they launch a six month study of two different programs. After six months, they file for a six month extension. Finally they decide that they want neither, then spend six months going back and forth with IT asking why can't they just upgrade Microsoft Access.
FUNNY YOU SHOULD ASK, a silverVdyne fic (chapter 1/4, 3k words, rated E)
summary: It’s been months since V brought Johnny back from beyond the Blackwall into his own new, cloned body. Physically, Johnny’s recovered. He goes out and does the odd gig with V. Everything’s going relatively fine for a former dead man.
It’s just, now that he’s in his own body, Kerry doesn’t want to see him anymore.
tags: silverdyne, johnny/v, silverVdyne, post-canon, hurt/comfort, false memories, multiple POVs
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