This, too, Shall Be My Death

soooo good at self sabotage like there goes my potential #mywastedpotential

Any advice for those predisposed to becoming empty shells when alone?

Wasting your evening for nothing tonight queen?

de niña pensaba que las palomitas de maíz se nombraron porque saltan igual a las palomas en la calle cuando manejas el carro demasiado cerca. much 2 think about.

Hmmm I could be pretty I could be smart I could be sexy I could be charismatic I could be confident I could be exceptional I could be gracious I could be altruistic I could be handsome I could be strong I could be commanding I could be sweet I could be provocative BUT INSTEAD IM ME!! And I’ll never not be ME!!!!

People love romanticizing hypothetical cannibalism on this site when will we start romanticizing surgery. It’s like a stab wound it can be like a bite taken out of you it’s all of the raw, visceral self exposed but instead of consumption it’s about healing and fixing and you literally have a knife in your skin in areas that should never be exposed to air and yet it’s done with such precision and hundreds of years of knowledge that the body can heal that wound. Yes it will scar but it’s like what if you took off all your clothes and then you took off more of your skin and your muscle but it didn’t have to be violent it was about healing it was about exposing your deepest parts and then closing it back up. It’s about being known as an animal as muscle and fat and then you can close it up you don’t have to be left flayed open you can release and move on

I think I experienced true ego death when I was like 11 or 12 and it broke me and ever since I’ve been trying to piece everything back together I have to reconcile who I was before with who I was after and then somehow keep growing after as if I wasn’t building on a cracked foundation I truly believe that I lost part of who I was at that age and despite how much I try and fill that crack and build on top it never actually goes away

I love overthinking

Haven’t done paper mache since I was little but I remember it being so fun…maybe I should do that…I don’t know where to get lots of newspaper though.