Graham

went down from a size 13 to a 9

I need to smoke so fucking bad rn but it’s taking forever to get here (It’s gonna be here on Saturday)

I hate eating so fucking much, like it doesn’t even matter if I eat less than my cal deficit I just feel like a disappointment for even ingesting anything.

I can’t be around food because I can’t control myself. I barely even taste the only thing I can think of is how fast I can get it down. I can physically feel myself getting bigger and I’ve never felt so disgusting in my life.

Ngl looking at my old $h scars is making me want to relapse

New rule: If binging makes me go over 800 cals then I won’t eat for two days

Black coffee is so fucking disgusting but I’m trying my hardest to stick to my fast. I added like 1/2 of milk and it still tastes disgusting.

My friend invited me to her graduation party but I can’t bring myself to go because I know I’ll be the biggest on there. I look huge in everything and no one deserves to see that.

I’m terrified to get in the shower because I binged like crazy after dinner. It’s like the second I get a taste I have to eat everything. And I can physically feel my stomach getting bigger

I keep overeating by like 170 cals so I’m gonna do an apple mono for like a week

I miss seeing my hips bones and my ribcage. This summer all food will be 800 cals or less.