Falling Back In Our Wildest Dreams
“Lift your feet on the left,” Instructor Macy showed us her last step in the routine for the ballet performance of Moon Lovers: Scarlet Heart. “Now it is your time to do the routine for the last time, before I let you all go.”
Rechecking the ribbon of my shoes if it is tightly tied up, I stand up and walk to the grip bars for me to hold on and to set my position. As the music starts, I let my body do the graceful work of the routine that Instructor Macy showed.
Absorbing the feelings of the main character, in every step I take, emphasizing how hurt she has been, makes me come to my unusual feelings. As I raised both of my hands in the left side, I start to slip my movement swiftly in a diagonal motion. As I reached the middle of the room, I started to twirl and jumped encompassing my long horizontal jump. And when I was about to do my last pose, I saw a mysterious guy looking at me, looking hurt because he was left behind, like he was left behind, by his first love.
“Maria! Darling, are you alright? You blacked out,” I heard a voice while I was opening my eyes. “Yes, Miss Macy! I’m sorry I did not support my last pose; I got distracted a while ago.” I helped myself up yet my head suddenly starts to throb from the pain, Miss Macy assisted me to stand and sat me down on the bench near the lockers room.
“It’s alright darling, just be careful next time.” She patted my shoulder and turned around to the dancers to tell them to get back to practice and they continued to dance.
After practice, I didn’t manage to do my routine since my instructor told me not to push myself after the incident that I suddenly blacked out after my horizontal jump. My driver fetched me at the Ballet Studio and drove me to my house. While we were still on the road, I still can’t get over to the mysterious guy that I saw earlier. It is just so strange, he was looking at me like I did broke his heart, but I don’t even know him.
“Miss Elyssa, we have arrived,” Our family driver spoke out of the blue as I came back to my senses; it was kind of fast though.
I walked out of the vehicle and came inside our house. Surprisingly no one was on the living room, but then I expected it since my parents are busy for the upcoming show which is what I have been practicing. I walked straight upstairs to my bedroom, put down my things, and sat down on the chair at my study table.
I opened my bag to get my journal. I always keep my thoughts to my journal, since it has been helping me to let my inner self to speak out rather than telling it to neither my family nor my friends. I wrote what happened to the Ballet Studio and what was the cause of it. And of course, I wrote down the mysterious guy.
I cannot actually describe him but he has green teary eyes, curly slicked back hair, and he was wearing a loose buttoned up white sleeves and teal twill pants. I wonder why was he looking at me, but why do I suddenly felt like I do really know him from somewhere.
A sudden knock from my bedroom door distracted me as I asked, “Who is it?” The door opened and it was the head maid, “Miss Elyssa, dinner is ready my dear. Your parents are waiting for you downstairs.” I nodded and gave my thanks to her as she closed the door. I closed my journal and went to the comfort room to take a bath and changed my dress.
After I changed, I hurriedly went downstairs and met my parents at the dining room. “Maria Elyssa Del Luna, our dearest baby,” My mother greeted me and I gave her a smile and a hug, same thing to my dad. “Good evening mom and good evening dad.”
I sat down and we started to pray. After that the maids started to give us our drinks and our table napkin. “Darling, how was your practice?” My dad started to talk, as we started to dine with our food. “I almost got the steps right, I just need to clean it a bit more that’s all.”
“But dear, we heard from your instructor that you got distracted from your last pose, are you alright?” Mom worriedly asked and my dad was confusingly looking at me, eyeing every part of my body if I got any bruises.
“Yes mom I’m alright. Miss Macy did not let me practice my last routine for the piece since my head started to throb from the pain, yet I’m good now I took some pain killers don’t worry.” I gave them a reassured smile but they still looked worried.
“Our lovely Elyssa, just be careful for your performance this coming February 14. It’s just 1 day left, make sure you would perfect those poses, alright sweetie?” Dad pleaded and I nodded as we went back to eating and talk other matters about their business.
“Here’s your pills sweetie, drink them now,” Dad gave me my prescription pills and drank them one by one with water.
“Goodnight darling, we love you very much.” My mom kissed my forehead and went out of my bedroom. I closed my night lamp and drifting myself to sleep.
I woke up, the sun was shining so bright but I was not on my bed, I was at a meadow. Sitting in a picnic mat while I saw a guy that was lying down on my lap, looking into my eyes and I started laughing at him as he was confused at my sudden laugh.
“Why are you laughing there, love?” He asked as he pokes my nose while laughing with me.
“You look so strange, looking so in love with me.” I said while locking eyes with him as I caress his hair.
“Is it bad to look like I am in love with you?” He asked as he sneaked his left hand to clasp with mine.
“It is hard to believe that you are in love with me, because it is impossible.” I respond but looking away from him.
He suddenly sits up facing me and touches my cheek, “It is impossible, but I will never deny that I am truly, madly, deeply, in love with you.” He was about to kiss me but suddenly I heard a voice that was saying I should wake up.
“Miss Elyssa, its 7:30 AM dear you need to wake up before you could practice your routine at the ballet room.” I heard the voice again and now I only see pitch black but as I opened my eyes it was so bright and I felt I’m on my bed.
“Thank goodness dear, you’re awake,” the Head Maid said as she motioned the two other maids to give me my breakfast, “Good morning Miss Elyssa!” The first maid cheerfully said as she puts down the bed tray above my legs and I started eating my breakfast.
I packed my things and headed towards the ballet room to start my practice. I needed to clean my steps before the night of the performance or I might fail again. I tied up my ballet shoes and started to do my stretching. While I was stretching, I suddenly remembered my dream. He was the guy that I saw from the studio, but why is he in love with me?
After I stretched out my legs, I headed towards the speaker and played the music piece that I zoned out yesterday. Once the music started, I began my position and gracefully gliding around the room. Recreating the emotions of the protagonist, I freely moved my hands in every Échappé I make, what we call slipping movement or the escaping, and suddenly I twirled around and around and as I felt my cue I swiftly move diagonally on the middle and did my long horizontal jump.
I wished it was true. I really wished it happened. Hoping you would say it, hoping you also love me. My mind tells me as I was about to fall, I felt hands grasping on my waist.
“But it was not only one of your wildest dreams, to be loved by me; it was also my wildest dreams to be loved by you, Maria.” I heard the same husky voice that I heard in my dream as that person puts me down with care and we created the Penché, which I bent forward my right leg with the other well above in 90 degrees, and as I faced the person who was assisting me, It was him, the mysterious guy I saw in the studio and in my dream.
“Who are you? And what do you mean about what you just said,” I asked full of curiosity since it bothers me to know why he was telling me that we have the same dreams about loving each other.
“I’m sorry, love. I showed early, but you will know tomorrow.” He reassures me as his hand went up to gently hold my cheek.
“I wanted to hug you and to kiss you, but I couldn’t do it. I don’t want to push you to remember everything and to risk your performance.” His green soft eyes darted to mine, so broken but hopeful without a doubt.
“But I do think you are familiar, I just could not process who you were,” I told the mysterious guy as I tucked his loose curly hair on his ear.
“I will be watching you tomorrow. Good luck on your performance, my love, my Maria, and my Luna.” He smiled and put his right hand on my eyes for me not to see what is exactly happening and unexpectedly I felt he kissed my forehead.
“HEY WHAT ARE YOU DOING YOU ARE SUDDENLY TRES—” Surprisingly he was not there anymore. To whoever is that guy, he left this innocent little woman dumbfounded at the ballet room.
I am currently at the venue of the show with the other dancers and our instructor to rehearse our piece and, to us, to avoid any future incidents since this show will be aired on television and people around the country even the world are anticipated to watch this since the drama was already a trend.
“Alright gather up the stage everyone and try to familiarize every sides and end of it so you could avoid any danger on the performance,” Miss Macy instructed us as we gathered up on the stage that is actually in the middle of a pool.
The stage setting was merely like the drama show of Scarlet Heart and since it started on the lake we created a pavilion pool-like stage for the performance, although the stage is quite big but in each side it is possible for any of us to fall.
“Hey Elyssa,” Someone called me and as I turned around it was my partner in the performance, Joshua Calum Scott. “You might forget your medicine otherwise you might be nauseous while performing again,” He gave me my medicine organizer and I smiled in returned.
“Thanks Joshua,” I drank up the pills with water and sighed. “I just don’t get it, why do I need to take these pills if I am constantly performing in the middle of the water.”
“It is to make you calm, since you feared to fall on water.” He answered and patted my back.
“Yeah I am aware of that but I clearly remembered I was on an accident but I couldn’t picture what kind of accident and what happened,” I sighed for the nth time and looked at my reflection on the pool.
“It is best if you would not try to remember the accident, it might trigger you more,” Joshua went beside me looking my reflection at the pool. “Besides we don’t want you to be rushed again to the hospital any minute now, aye. We are going to perform tomorrow as one of the biggest show in the country.”
“Yes I will not bother to remember it; I will focus on the show because it is our one biggest opportunity,” I smiled at him.
“That’s my Elyssa.” He smiled back and afterwards Instructor Macy called us to change our outfits and start rehearsing.
“Thanks for everything my wonderful dancers, see you all tomorrow,” Instructor Macy blew a kiss good bye to us all although she stopped in her tracks and faces us again, “Don’t forget your outfits, get it on our tailor at Poppy Sew and Tailors shop.”
“Yes Miss Macy, we won’t forget it, see you tomorrow!” I smiled at her and waved goodbye, as I was supposed to carry my gym bag then suddenly somebody cheekily snatched it away from me.
“Hey! Calum that’s not cool,” I playfully shouted at him and tried to grab the bag from him but he still won’t give it back.
“I insist, Elyssa. You will be going to the tailor’s shop today right?” He laughed and asked me directly as I replied him with a nod, “Yes I will be going why?”
“Then let’s go together,” He grabbed my hand and hurriedly went out of the venue. As my driver arrived, Joshua opened the door and I went inside first as he went in after, as I told the driver to go to the tailor shop.
“Welcome to Poppy Sew and Tailors! How may I help you both lovebirds?” The lady cashier asked as me and Joshua just went inside the shop. The shop is actually big since it displayed many dress and costumes for stage plays and can be used at a formal party as well.
“Oh no, we’re not a couple!” I blushed and shyly gestured her no as I saw Joshua was just laughing at the corner. “We are just here to get our costumes for our tomorrow’s performance.”
“Ah yes, for tomorrow’s show by Instructor Macy. Come this way Milady,” The lady from the cashier gestured me to follow her as I followed but she stopped Joshua before entering the dressing room.
“You will be heading to the other dressing room, assisted by the man over there.” I looked at Joshua, waved goodbye to him, and I went inside the dressing room.
“Here you go,” The lady helped me get on the ballet dress that was designed for the performance tomorrow.
“It fits you so perfectly, milady.” The lady said as I looked at the mirror, the dress is in an off-shoulder form as it hugs my top so perfectly. The bottom is a flowy dressed tutu in color red with gold stripes same goes with the top.
“You really do look like her, dear,” The lady whispered in my ear and looks me in the mirror with all seriousness.
“What do you mean?” I asked since I am confused as well.
“She was once a young girl who was hoping to be loved back by the man from her wildest dream,” The lady started as she was rummaging in the basket that was placed in a small coffee table beside from where I was standing at the mirror.
“And now her memories were vanished because of a sudden accident that left her a scar inside her most treasured memory.” The lady went to me and handed a rose necklace, “You might remember this necklace, dear.”
As I hold to looked at the necklace carefully, my head starts to ache. “Ahh my head hurts, can you please give me my pills!” I screamed as my head was still aching, I suddenly sat down on the ground, holding my head while crying out loud from the pain I was feeling.
“I won’t give it to you, you need to remember it my dear.” The lady said as she was fading in my vision until I suddenly lost conscious.
“Dance for me, love!” He pleaded with his puppy eyes as he dragged me in the middle of a pavilion, full of candle lights.
“Alright, I will. For your eyes only, curly boy,” I cheekily said and laughed as I slipped off from his grasp going through the middle of the made stage.
As I positioned, he played a song from his phone. I closed my eyes and started to feel the music. I started interpreting the song as I felt the hopeful emotions by swiftly moving from the left going mid towards him and stopped by creating an Arabasque, where my body is supported one leg with the other leg extended behind my body in a straight knee. Then I continued in gliding effortlessly backwards with my hand positioning at the front while I’m looking down. I was dancing freely with the uttermost emotional steps until I felt the cue of the song, I gracefully changed into the Attitude position, standing in one leg while the other is lifted and well turned out with the knee bent as my hands and my head are facing upward, not until I felt two sneaky hands grabbed my waist and unexpectedly lift me over, placing me on his other side for me to face him.
“You are such an art, Maria.” He was taking breaths as he caresses his left hand on my cheek, looking me deeply in the eyes with admiration.
I cupped his cheeks and without hesitation I kissed him under the night sky. I was expecting for him to push me away but he didn’t, he reciprocated it. We pulled away after a minute and just looking at each other, smiling.
“I have a surprise for you and you ruined it for me again,” He acted angrily as he placed his arms in his biceps in a cross position and pouted as I laughed at him.
“I’m sorry, love. I didn’t know. You just let me dance and I just really wanted to kiss you since I was carried away from my dancing,” I placed my arms on his neck and tip-toed to kiss his nose.
“Okay, I forgive you but close your eyes first,” He smiled a little and I gave him a what-is-that-look and he insisted as I obliged to do his request. I felt a cold thin metal made contact with my skin as I heard he had locked it already at the back of my neck.
“Now open your eyes, love.” He said excitedly as I opened my eyes I saw him smiling and I immediately looked down to my neck and saw a red rose pendant.
“Harry, you’re such a sweetie plum! I — I don’t know what to say.” I began to tear up as he immediately hugged me.
“Remembered what I told you the last time,” He started as I felt his tears began to fall. “I truly, madly, deeply, am in love with you Maria and this necklace will prove the countless years I have been waiting for you.”
“Maria…” I heard a voice that was calling my name until I opened my eyes and saw I was on my bed.
“Elyssa, our darling,” I was suddenly hugged by my mother and I tried to process where I am until I realized that I’m back on our house.
“Are you alright? Are you hurt? I don’t want you to forget us, dear. Please speak,” My mother cracked up worriedly as she inspects my arms and my face.
“Yes mom, I’m alright. It’s just that my head hurts a while ago.” I was about to scratch my head but I felt my hand was holding onto something metal.
“Good to know, you need to take some rest dear. Tomorrow is the performance and you must be feeling fine,” My mom sighed in relief as she rubs my right arm as a sign of comfort.
“Yes mom, thank you. Goodnight! Send my greetings to daddy,” I told her as she kissed my cheek and told me goodnight as well and left my room.
I opened the lamp on my nightstand and looked at the thin metal that I was holding on my hand. I was surprise because I still have the golden necklace with the rose pendant that I saw on the tailor’s shop and on my dream.
“Maria…” I heard a voice at the balcony then suddenly the wind opened the doors towards the balcony. I began to go to towards the balcony until I felt something in my foot, it was a letter. I picked it up and it was in a white envelope, my first name written in gold ink as I opened it beside my nightstand.
I know you were confused and hurt a while ago, but that is a part of your memory that you have forgotten. If you want to know me and why I’ve been showing up to you in your dreams and in reality. Meet me before the performance at the pavilion where you danced on your latest dream. I will be lighting up candles so you would recognize it easily. Stay safe and see you there, my Luna.
To whoever you are, I hope you could answer these unwanted questions that I wanted to know. I wanted to know why you are connected to me and why are you in love with me.
Today is the day of the performance; everyone was busy prepping up for the costumes and makeup as I am nervously waiting for my hair to be finished so I could sneak out and go to the pavilion. The pavilion that was stated on the letter was located here at the show’s venue.
“Here you go, sweetie. You are good to go,” My hairstylist told me as I smiled and told her my thanks. I stand up and went out the dressing room and out of the stage. I searched for the pavilion that I saw on my dream until I bumped into someone.
“Oops, I’m sorry I didn’t loo— Joshua?” I asked and he looked at me surprisingly.
“Oh hey uhm Elyssa, It’s alright I can pick it up but where are you going?” Joshua asked confused why I am out of the dressing room as I helped him picked up all the props that will be used in the performance.
“I…forgot my other accessories for the performance at the car, I’ll be back don’t worry,” I nervously laughed and waved at him, “See you later.”
I scurried off to the path that looks familiar to me until I spotted some willow trees that are serving as a landmark to the pathway of the pavilion. It almost looks like an entrance to another world. I entered the pathway and to my surprise I saw steps of tiles going through the pavilion. In each step there are candles lighted up and as I reached the pavilion, I saw the mysterious guy who I met in my dreams.
“Hi Harry,” I greeted the mysterious guy as he was startled; he turned around to face my direction.
“Hi Maria, I didn’t expect you would come,” He started and looked at the necklace that I was holding, “I know you are confused right now but you need to know it right now.”
“I am and I have so many questions about who you really are and—“I was interrupted as he placed his finger onto my lips.
“I know, Maria. Just trust me on this one. Wear the necklace that I gave you and hold on to my hand,” He instructed me as I obliged by wearing the necklace and holding his hand.
“Do you trust me?” He asked with hopes in his eyes as I nod in approval. He took me to the part of the pavilion where there is no grip bars and to my surprise it’s a waterfall.
“Okay, don’t let go of my hand. In 3, 2, 1,” As our hands intertwined, he pulled me in a back hug as we fell onto the lake of the pavilion. I saw my necklace began to glow as I suddenly lost conscious.
“Love, wake up.” I heard a mumbled sound as I opened my eyes, I saw Harry in front of me.
“Where are we?” I asked as I lift myself up to stand. I looked at our surroundings and realized that we are at the entrance of a cave.
“This is where we met,” Harry assisted me to stand while looking at me with all sincerity. I started to walk and feel the sea breeze of the cave as I stepped out of it and saw a beautiful white sand beach.
“What did we do here?” I asked as I forgot that we were still holding hands. We stopped in our tracks as he faced me and put his other hand on my shoulder.
“This is what we do,” Unexpectedly Harry kissed my forehead and my head started to throb from the pain.
I started running from the cave until I went out on a beautiful white sand beach.
“Where am I? But this place looks so breathtaking!” I run towards the water and started to feel the cold salty breeze of this place.
“It looks so serene and relaxing,” I walked at the shore and started to wander around the beach until I spotted a person which I presumed it was a guy, who was suddenly running towards me.
“Get out of the way!” He shouted as I put a brow up and shouted back, “Why would I?!”
“It’s the jellyfish hour already. You might want to get out of there,” He smiled and walked away as I looked at the water there are many jellyfishes.
And the memory fades as I looked at Harry, “Seriously, we met because I was just wandering around and walking at the shore at a jellyfish hour?” I asked and Harry started to laugh and nod.
“Yes, love. And if it wasn’t for me, you might get sting by the jellyfishes. In other words, I saved your life.” Harry proudly told me and I just playfully slapped his shoulder with my other hand.
“Hey what was that for?” He complained and I just laughed.
“Nothing you arrogant cheeky bastard!” I continued to laugh as he just smirked beside me.
“But what happened, how do we become close?” I curiously asked the guy beside me as we stopped in front of a little stage.
“It was a complicated story but you went to the past,” He told me as I was shocked from his reply.
“What?! So in short I went to the past by accident?” I asked and he nodded.
“I’m Christian Harry Smith, one of the famous painter and a poet. This place is where I usually get my inspiration and it also serves as my breather until you came,” He looked at me lowering his height so we could be in the same level. “Close your eyes,” He continued.
I followed him as I suddenly felt he kissed both my left and right eye then unexpectedly my head did not start to throb but as I opened my eyes, I saw outline fragments of me and Harry laughing, chasing around, and just sitting looking at the scenery of the beach.
“You told me every little detail about your life like how you love dancing, you have been living alone and your parents doesn’t know how it affects you, and…” He stopped and I looked at him.
“And what?” I asked as we sat on a huge rock.
“And that you liked someone but you got rejected. That explains you are guarding your walls up from the start,” He said and just looked away focusing his attention in front of us.
“Elyssa,” Harry called as he sat beside me and I looked at him.
“Yes curly?” I asked and laughed while he just rolled his eyes at me.
“I’ve been meaning to ask you this question since you have been avoiding this topic when we attended the ball,” He said as I gave him a nod to continue. “What do you think of love?”
“Love is meaningless? I mean it is affection where you would feel onto someone who had changed you,” I told Harry as I looked away from him.
“Have you been in love?” Surprisingly Harry asked me as I sighed.
“Yes I had. I was in love but it was not reciprocated,” I said with all bravery but I need to hide the truth. I am actually in love with Harry but if I will tell him, something will happen as what the lady told me at the ball.
“I’m sorry for that though.”
“No its no biggie. It’s just hard to accept a new love for me again since that happened,” I nervously laughed and looked at him.
“Why? Does curly have somebody in mind?” I annoyingly asked him as I saw him blushed then sighed.
“Let’s just say, if that person is ready, then I will be.” He gave me a hopeful smile.
“Who was that person you were pertaining to?” I asked Harry as we were still sitting at the huge rock and the scenery in front of us is the sun is setting.
“Obviously it was you,” Harry told me as I looked to his eyes broken like a glass.
“But do you know the true reason why I don’t want to talk about love?” I asked him as he confusingly looked at me.
“It was because of there was this lady who told me that once each of us confesses our feelings there’s something bad that will happen,” I looked down on my knee.
“I was actually going to confess that day but I didn’t want something to happen but we still manage to tell that we love each other, right?” And I looked at him with hope in my teary eyes.
“And those were the best days of my life, even if you took the first move!” He pouted and did that crossing arms again when he’s being grouchy.
“I love you curly,” I surprisingly gave him a quick peck on his lips and his eyes was turned happy.
“You are full of surprises, love.” He smiled as I smirked at him and I was given a quick peck by the cheeky bastard himself.
“Thank you for letting me remember but there is still one last thing,” I was about to ask him about how did I forget my memories with him until somebody grabbed my neck.
“Enough with this nonsense, Smith!” Joshua angrily said to Harry as I was struggling from the straggle of his arms.
“Joshua what are you doing here?!” I asked furiously and trying to remove his grip from my neck.
“I was saving you from this leech! You should not be here, Elyssa,” Joshua said as we are going closer to the bridge beside the rock that me and Harry was sitting a while ago.
As me and Joshua reached the end of the bridge, I saw a deep black hole. We faced to Harry as Joshua tightens his grip towards my neck.
“Joshua let Maria go,” Harry calmly told Joshua as Harry placed his left hand in front us pertaining he is harmless and doesn’t want to fight.
“What if I don’t?” Joshua evilly smirked and looked at me. “Do you know what happened to your memories and how it vanished?” He asked me and I shake my head.
“Then see it for yourself,” Joshua smirked and blew my eyes as I started to see a fragment memory.
Harry was in front of me as I was walking backwards through the bridge.
“Harry what are you doing?!” I shouted as I continue to walk backwards until I felt that I almost fell at the end of the bridge so I halt into a stop.
“I had enough of your delusions. I didn’t love you, I was just using you. Didn’t you notice that,” Harry was walking in front of me as he was already half a meter distance towards me.
“No that’s not true, you told me you are! What is happening to you Harry?” I fought back as he suddenly holds my right arm until he pushed. I fell from the bridge and suddenly lost conscious.
I teared up and looked at Harry as he was shouting to me, “Don’t believe him, Maria! He was only brainwashing you!”
“Would you believe this guy, telling you that you shouldn’t believe me but I was there since then to take care of you,” He stops straggling me as I kept tearing up.
“Maria, the truth is I do really love you. Why would I cross worlds, why would I be reincarnating again if it wasn’t for my love for you? I would not search for you in your world just to be with you again,” Harry kneeled down crying in front of us as I looked at him.
“The truth is, I and Joshua were fighting at the bridge because he wanted you, and he wanted us to be separated. But as you went to us here in this bridge, Joshua suddenly pushed you through the end of the bridge as you fell down the deep rocky waters.” Harry looked at me with all sincerity. I looked back at Joshua as I hugged him.
“Thank you for telling me the truth, Joshua.” Joshua was startled as I hugged him but suddenly I looked up at him and said, “But then again, I’m not someone who could believe you so easily.”
I pushed him at the end of the bridge and he fell through the black hole as I run through Harry and hugged him.
“I almost lost you,” He was so scared while hugging me and I hugged him tighter.
“You thought I would believe him, huh?” I laughed while I’m still in tears as he nodded and smiled.
“I almost lost you too, I’m sorry love.” I looked at him tearing up again as he cupped my face and said, “I love you.” And he passionately kissed me.
“Let’s run back together, you need to finish your performance.” He said as he stands up and lends me a hand. We run back together to the cave but I told him to stop first.
“What is it?” Harry asked as I pushed him to the wall of the cave.
“Since this is where we met then let’s make this our unforgettable moment,” I kissed him under the night sky for the last time I’m here at his world. Fate really is crazy but I am glad that I met this guy in an unexpected way, in our wildest dreams.
