I feel like I've been trying to find a friend in this BJJ community—someone I can talk to about the techniques and the feelings that come with training. But I haven't found that yet.

I've met some people, and they’ve moved on. And I honestly don’t know how to deal with guy training mates. One is really friendly, but I overthink it—I’m afraid he might catch feelings for me. Another one, I genuinely enjoy the vibe we share, but he has a girlfriend.