karly, 25

on my first day of highschool i was so anxious about only having 4 years left of school until i was "on my own" that i threw up in the doorway of the nurse's office cause i couldn't make it to the cot to lie down or the trash can and then my mom picked me up and i went home and she was like "girl u gotta chill it's not a big deal jfc" and then i tried again the next day lol Every day of elementary and middle school i'd say the our father, hail mary, and act of contrition or some shit, and then i’d pray, "god, please let me make it through 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th, 9th, 10th, 11th, and 12th grade and get into a good college" i would list every grade, individually, every single night. i'd also stay up til 10pm even though my bedtime was 8pm cause i was too lazy to pray and just wanted to fall the fuck asleep without doing it, but also i felt very guilty if i didn't pray and felt like god would make me fail all of those grades and ruin my life if i didn’t. another BIG reason why being a kid sucks is because everyone always is making you very nervous and saying so many things matter and are trying to scare you into "being good" and you don't know any better !! also im not religious anymore haha

can u believe it's been 4 years already since I renewed my liscense and largely im still struggling with the same stupid issues I was when i took that pic and nothing has changed lol

my boyfriend is so cute i can’t believe that on october 27th we will be together 6 wholst years i wasn’t even 21 when we started dating !! he came to my 20th birthday party where koza and i drank a ton of high life in my college dorm and danced to new order all night lol

fuck i meant to do work but instead i spent my night drinking wine and learning the choreo to k-pop songs