KALAMARIE

this is a trigger for @ambiguousamnesty

psychonauts has been engraved in my brain

and also whenever i see a really talented persons art i start screaming at myself cause ALL OF MY FOLLOWERS AND EVERY IDOL I HAVE ARE SO COOL YES and i feel like im a stupid. idiot little kid. its not their faults of course its just really hard

another thing is. i push myself really hard just to make other people happy and i dont really focus on myself and personally i think thats well deserved because i dont need any attention because as i said im a stupid naive ugly little kid

im still really only alive because of my girlfriend and my friends and my best friends and my moots

its a struggle to be honest and happy when lying and sadness is an option. one that really yells at you

love yall ❤️ im not taking a break this is just stuff thats been builiding up like plaque growing on teeth

p.s. im not that mentally great so expect me to be more active because whenever that happens i bedrot