Life Of A Struggling Being

I'm realizing the reason I'm so sad is that I don't have anyone that's there with me to be excited for me when I'm doing what I love. I realize that even though I have kids and a husband I'm alone... I have friends, but that doesn't help cause none of them really know me or understand what I'm going through.

I am so scared to let anyone in because I've been hurt and betrayed over and over. I feel ruined... My body is constantly unhealthy cause of all my issues, which I can't get fixed cause I don't trust anyone to watch my kids. I never want to reach out or tell anyone anything because I don't want to be one more reason why they're upset.

I guess this is a last ditch effort to have someone hear me. I'm dying inside and I feel like I have no one I can tell, because I don't want to be a burden on anyone... I just want someone to help me for once. Drs don't help me, my family won't help me, my husband definitely won't help me, my friends can't help me and I have done so much to help myself. I just don't have a cure all for myself because obviously I'm no Dr.