โยท๐๐๐๐๐๐ ยท โ ยท 30+ยทโ โฅ inactive. main blog, but i don't post here anymore (explanation here โ). prev writing blog: @zhongrin.
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HI IM SO SORRY IF I GOT THE WRONG PERSON BUT I JUST FINISHED THE MOON ROUTES FOR BOTH AKIRA AND AKECHI ON THE PERSONA 5 VISUAL NOVEL AND I LOVE LOVE LOVED IT SO MUCH that i went on a short cyberstalk on the people on the credits. That brought me to your twitter, which also featured the Genshin Impact Otome ( I played that ages ago and if memory serves me correct, I think that was you? If it was it was so so so so cute by the way I love how you write)
I really hope youโre the one who wrote the moon routes because i need to glaze this visual novel so bad i was abusing the screenshot function on renpy like the lines were absolute killer and i love how the routes went and how the dialogue diverged. you also made the phantom thieves use emoticons (renren in particular abusing the :) i love him so much)
my favorite thing is how endearing you made the moon mcs like the nervous introspection is so real. and where do i start on the plot oh my. my favorite part for renโs route was definitely when you could start bantering with him. you had the balance between charismatic and courteous and it was so cute I LOVED THE UMBRELLA SCENE LIKE PUT THESE TWO INTO SITUATIONS WITH EACH OTHER PLEASE. because of the lack of involvement with phantom thieves shenanigans this was such a fun light hearted playthrough (with the acception of yk. post saeโs palace) i do love the maruki mention in this route but boy do i have beef with maruki because oh โyou dont enjoy the burden of being, so in this ideal reality, you dont even get to existโ like dude?!??! honestly ren deserved a breakdown after that because that was insane. after messing around I realized that there were not one but TWO good endings with ren and i was so so excited heโs so cat coded to me i need to bundle him up. WAIT I LIED MY FAVORITE PART IS THE TADAIMA OKAIRI LITTLE TOOLTIP INFO LIKE HAVING THAT LITTLE CONTEXT WINDOW, AND THE SCENE BEING THEM IN THEIR OWN WORLD WHILE EVERYONES BEING LOUD AROUND THEM???? More than a chefโs kiss this is a chef messy makeout
But for me akechiโs route takes the cake because im so proud of the mcs development there like they go from someone who lurks in alleyways having to isolate themselves to stay safe to someone akechi himself can depend on??? i also love the mention of how susceptible akechi is to other peopleโs opinions and while i hate that he has to go through that, it humanizes him. i love how everyone clocked that something was happening between them when they were both adamantly refusing, and i absolutely love the drink dynamic that is now peak romance to me. and the fact he knows how mc takes their tea???? and mc was EXPERIMENTING SO THAT AKECHI COULD HAVE COFFEE HE ENJOYED??? i love the mention of crazy axe haru, and the individual moments mc gets with the phantom thieves, and not to forget AKECHI GETTING A NEW POWERFUL PERSONA DUE TO HIS MOON CONFIDANT LIKE AGDISHKAHA. this game hyped me so much and this is just story wise like you guys also nailed the aesthetic of it all. obviously ill replay when i have more time but please know the impact this game has on my psyche
I just read through one of your posts and Iโm so sorry how uncomfortable tumblr has been. I just recently got into p5r so im so so so thankful that you shared and continue to share these fan works that everyone can enjoy. youโre amazing i love how you did that in your free time you are so cool to me please dont go bald.
hi dear nonnie! you found the right person, don't worry! yes, genshin otome and p5vn are both my (project) babies, and i did write for akechi and akiren's moon routes ๐ hahah
(this got kind of long so i'll put it under a readme)
i'm ngl, reading this almost made me cry (in a /pos way!!). i don't really have that good of a memory of that project towards its ending, unfortunately. however, reading this and the kind comments people have been leaving on the project page made me so happy. i actually swallowed my fear today and joined the new server and i'm just.... so glad that people seem to have enjoyed akiren and akechi's moon routes sobsob ;;;
ironically despite being a writer, i don't think i can clearly put these feelings into words properly.... but the point isใผ i'm so glad you enjoyed the game. that project was something i wholeheartedly put my whole love into and dev+writer brain worked 'round the clock for when covid struck & things were rough irl. to see it being loved even until now (4 years!! that's so crazy to me!) is so very heartwarming and encouraging, and it makes me want to delve back into game-making again one of these days.
thank you so, so much for taking the precious time in your day to send this to me. please know that your kind words will stay with me for my whole life ahead, and you've made someone really happy today เงป๊ชย
pps. actually yk what nonnie? i'll do my best to go back and reorganise some of the unreleased contents i've made for the game so i can post it to the itch.io page later (bc i do have quite a lot of them...). i hope this signifies how grateful i am เงป๊ชย
nonnie who dropped the sweet message about my p5 fan visual novel game, i see your ask and i want to answer it so badly but tumblr is just not letting me to do it on mobile.... so if by chance you're still around and you can see this, please know that i will try to answer it when i get to my laptop!!! thank you so much เงป๊ช
I apologise if it comes off as insensitive, but I don't understand. Why does fame (aka how many people will see or interact with your work) matters to you so much? It's not like nobody read or interacted or loved the things you did over the years.
So when I saw you deactivate your blog, it felt like years of so-called love for Zhongli didn't matter mattered. Listen, I can't imagine how frustrated you felt, for the reasons you mentioned when you did what you did, but honestly I felt pretty frustrated too. Not about not being able to re-read work on your tea shop themed blog has genuinely moved me to tears;;
you missed the point. it's not about fame. it's about interaction and communication and sharing and building a community.
if a hobby doesn't feel rewarding to me in some way after all my effort and energy, then i will either quit or naturally just do it lesser and lesser until i stop. i think someone can only give and give and give to a certain point, until they decide it's not worth it anymore.
i'm sorry you feel frustrated. i too, have cried many times while running the blog. and it isn't that my love for zhongli didn't matter anymore in the end. i mean, i poured glasses upon glassesใผ buckets of my love into that blog. events, ebg, chatrooms, voicelines, teyvatweets, selfship events, tea adventures, coffee adventures, sharing my gameplay. staying up late and using my free time to code and write instead of hanging out with friends or learning a new skill or reading a book.... and then? i get a few spoonfuls of love to barely fill the bottom of the bucket back.
it's not that i don't appreciate those who did try to give back to me. it's that the blog became something that made me feel trapped in, made me wonder about whether it's worth it dedicating my actual time and effort when in the end it would just feel like i'm shouting into a bottomless pit. instead of being my cozy teahouse where i can share the love about zhongli, hear the stories of my patrons, and discuss over the latest development in genshin's story, it turned into a black hole that consumes.
well, i wasn't going to let it consume me.
so i appreciate the few people who did support me. but after pondering for a few months, i decided to quit and start anew with different expectations. i don't regret my decision.
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Hi! ..apologies for the random msg alskkd but I just wanted to say tysm for all your works from your previous blog @zhongrin !!
Iโve always admired and been fascinated in the way you write, in both your portrayal of characters and your way of wording a story/scenario. I may not be able to speak for everyone else, but the comfort your creations bring is really incomparable :)
I do feel some sense of accountability for not having done my part and being a passive reader and Iโm sorry we didnโt do better. I hope this doesnโt deter how you feel about writing and continue to create in your own ways, even if it means moving past this platform and doing it for your own eyes only.
Again, I hope this doesnโt come off weird and in a bad way!! This is by no means meant to be bearing any negative intentions whatsoever. Iโm glad to know youโre doing alright and living out your life, wishing you all the best and to continue creating at your own pace! ๐๐ปโโ๏ธโจ
Hi hello! I hope you're doing great, just a quick question...
If I have saved a post from the privated acc in my drafts, can I still reblog/publish it? Or would you prefer that I publish it privately?
For context, I'm one of those users who uses my drafts as a tbr list, and my drafts are....a lot (I'm having trouble chewing through them haha,,,) so there are a lot of your stuff from that account in my tbr list
Also also, posting doesn't affect the private blog. It shows your acc but no one can access the profile/username, it just shows 'missing page' when you click it
....Or do you prefer I don't post them at all? I'm sorry if I'm being weird/rude, I just wanted to come in and make sure
Anyway I hope you have a nice day!
yeah, you can reblog them, i don't mind at all!
if i want to be honest, half of the reason i made it private instead of deleting the blog entirely is because i still wanted to appreciate people who reblogged. big, and i mean big thank you for yall who show proper support to writers and artists. you keep the fandom and community alive.
and don't worry, you're not being weird/rude + i understand how it feels to not have the energy to chip away at the 'to be read' lists. you're good, nonnie. thank you for checking!
still on tumblr break, but since i just logged in and saw several asks, i thought i'd clarify a few things here.
regarding me and @/zhongrin
in summary:
zhongrin is privated and archived permanently.
for the two people who asked, yeah, i'm alright.
more utc, but you can skip.
to expand more on the 'sudden' archiving/privating:
i've been debating to archive the blog since last year. to tell the truth, the new theme that appeared in zhongrin since september last year was actually the theme of a new writing sideblog i made. honestly, i had contemplated archiving it since july ใผ and i've lost count over how many times i created a 'blog archived' post only to delete it, over and over again. i just held on like an idiot and kept telling myself to just post and dip out.
don't look at the activity bar, it's just going to be full of likes. don't look at the notes, i'll just be full of more empty likes. don't look at the reblogs, it won't have any feedback anyway. don't look into your inbox, you won't find any feedback whatsoever anyway. don't look at your dash, lest you'll see other people getting interactions and start wondering if you're the weirdo for not getting any. don't look. don't look. don't look.
i'm just so tired of being disappointed.
it's like writing out a play and 10k people reserved seats to your free performance, yet all you see are thousands of absent seats. all you receive are silent smiles. a few applauses. and less than ten people commenting on the play, most of which are your own friends.
every time i post, i start questioning why did i even bother sharing this. or if i'm even actually good enough at writing. or if that comment was just there out of pity. or if i should have used the time i spent writing, proofreading, and editing to do something else. something that would have brought more joy. something that would result in more than a few strung words on a digital screen that no one thinks is worth sharing.
every time i post, it just feels like i just did something meaningless. every time i do events or bring my ocs to the spotlight, every time i'm having so much fun, people leave and it gets even more silent. my thoughts? my expectations? my joy? my sadness? meaningless. they're all meaningless to these ten thousand people.
why should i keep sharing and doing something that feels meaningless and hopeless?
so i stopped caring and archived. that's all there is to it.
i do have that new writing blog set up. way back since last year. because as much as i loathe the silence, i still love writing. sometimes.
as of today, that blog is still devoid of original posts. i don't know when or if i'll feel comfortable posting my own 'content' again. or maybe i never will. who knows. but if i do, this time, i'm setting things up so i can just be the 'content creator' that readers expect me to be and distance myself from everything.
call me childish. call me jaded. call me a bitch. i don't care. i don't want to try connecting with my readers anymore because tumblr as a community has stopped being a system that can do this. i'm just going to give myself the option of making content and dipping out whenever i want. i'm going to spend my energy having fun with my friends who does care - on a separate, more controlled environment altogether.
this will still be my main since i don't want to bother setting up a new account and re-following people again. but i won't be active here. i foresee i'll be more 'present' in my private blog. for those who does have the url ใผ please keep it a secret. thanks.
bye, zhongrin. it started out fun. it's a shame it ended on a bitter note. i truly wish it hadn't turned out this way.
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