βIβve loved you from the first time I saw you. I think I was twelve. It took me three years to pluck up the courage to speak to you. And I was so scared of the way I felt. You know, loving a girl. I learned how to become a sarcastic bitch to make it feel normal. I screwed guys to make it go away, but it didnβt work.
When we got together, it scared the shit out of me, because you were the one person who could ruin my life. I pushed you away. I made you think things were your fault. But. Really I was just terrified of the pain.
I screwed that girl Sophia, to kind of spite you for having that hold on me. And Iβm a total fucking coward becauseβ¦ (takes tickets out of bag) I got these. These tickets to go for us three months ago.
But I, I couldnβt standβ¦I didnβt want to be a slave to the way I feel about you. Can you understand?
You were trying to punish me back and itβs hard. Itβs so horrible. Because. Really. Iβd die for you. I love you. I love you so much itβs killing meβ
