𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞.

i   don't   want   to   beg.        i   know   you   can   feel   it,        my   longing,        the   aching,        my   need   for   love.        i   don't   want   to   beg.        but   oh   god-oh   god,        please,        please.        please.        love   me.        love   me.

over a year ago, i made this meme & since then, it’s blown up. so, over a year later — i thought i would make a new one. so here it is, after several requests & a pile of brains,  THE PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME 0.2 send me a  ✿  and i’ll fill out the template below. bold for things i could definitely see or want, italics for things i could see or am unsure of and striked out for things i don’t want or cannot see.

FRIENDSHIP.     childhood friends  /  work buddies or coworkers  /  family friends  /  friends with benefits  /  smoking buddies  /  adventure buddies  /  fake friends  /  recently friends  /  party buddies  /  friendship of need  /  dying friendship  /  circumstantial friendship  /  partners in crime  /  old friendship  /  [ your muse ] is the good influence  /  [ your muse ] is the bad influence  /  [ my muse ] is the good influence  /  [ my muse ] is the bad influence  /  opposites attract  /  ride or die  /  frenemies  /  roommates or flatmates  /  penpals  /  exes to friends  /  enemies to friends  /  other

ROMANCE.     childhood sweethearts  /  [ your muse is mines ] childhood crush  /  [ my muse is yours ] childhood crush  /  exes  /  exes to lovers  /  forbidden lovers  /  highschool sweethearts  /  secret relationship  /  opposites attract  /  long distance  /  unrequited [ from your muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from my muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from both sides ]  /  skinny love  /  friends to lovers  /  enemies to lovers  /  spurious relationship  /  power couple  /  newly entered  /  soulmates [ metaphorical ]  /  soulmates  [ literal ]  /  awkward  /  turning toxic  /  toxic love  /  cheating [ on your muse ]  /  cheating [ with your muse ]  /  other 

FAMILIAL.     siblings [ half ]  /  siblings [ step ]  /  [ my muse ] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure  /  [ my muse ] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse  /  [ my muse ] is a parental figure to yours  /  [ my muse ] is a child figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal guardian  /  adoptive child  /  foster child  /  [ your muse ] is taken under mines wing  /  [ my muse ] is taken under yours wing  /  other

“   you’re not alone,  not anymore .   ”

“   i didn’t really have anyone before you guys .   ”

“   thank you for everything you’ve done for me .   ”

“   you’re my family .   ”

“   you’re my family,  screw what everyone else says .   ”

“   i now have a life i like living because of your support .   ”

“   you’re the best thing that ever happened to me .   ”

“   hey, i got you .   ”

“   let us take care of you .   ”

“   a fight doesn’t change anything between us .   ”

“   we still care about you .   ”

“   you know you can talk to me about anything, right ?   ”

“   if you need anything i’ll be there for you .   ”

“   you’ll always have a place with us .   ”

“   i’ve got your back .   ”

“   i love you .   ”

“   do you want a hug ?   ”

“   i’m here,  i promise .   ”

“   i’m not going anywhere .   ”

“   are you okay ?   ”

“   hey, [name].  tell me what’s wrong .   ”

“   i’m going to prank [name],  do you want to help me ?   ”

“   you’re one of us now .   ”

actions.

( hug )  -  for the sender’s muse to hug the receiver’s muse after an emotional moment .

( kiss )  -  for the sender’s muse to kiss the receiver’s muse on the forehead, head, cheek, [insert where you want ] .

( bed )  -  for the sender’s muse to join the receiver’s muse on their bed and cuddle after a long day .

( food )  -  for our muses to cook together .

( tears ) - for the sender’s muse to wipe the receiver’s muse tears .

( blanket )  -  for the sender’s muse to place a blanket on top of the receiver’s muse after a hard day / after they’ve fallen asleep somewhere .

( help )  -  for the sender’s muse to patch the receiver’s muse up .

( reconciliation )  -  for our muse to make up after a fight .

( fun )  -  for our muses to spent the day doing fun activities together .

im really really sorry to make this post. i know it's not the first time. im embarrassed im even having to resort to this again, but i've exhausted all my other options right now and im at a loss for what to do.

i've been struggling to find reliable work for the last few months. if any of you remember, i had been getting work experience at my local paper through the workforce center's vocational rehab program, which basically offers two three-month periods of paid work through whatever company you want to be hired at. the paper had been telling me for months they planned to hire me full time, they even told me my job was secure and i didn't need to look elsewhere because they really needed me. but when it came down to it, the day my program ended, they said they couldn't hire me. to say this devastated me in multiple ways is an understatement. not only did they lie to me, they used me for what was basically free work on their part, and then didn't even give me the courtesy of telling me their plans so i could be be prepared with a backup. the point is, i've been out of work since the beginning of july and scrambling to find something to replace it. they've allowed me to continue getting paid per article, but that's not nearly enough to sustain me. i need reliable work with hours.

i've applied everywhere. i've called places multiple times with no follow-up. either no one's hiring or students are still holding the jobs that would otherwise be available. i live in a small, rural town, so my options are honestly pretty limited and while im happy to look for work in a bigger city, the gas for the commute would end up costing more than the pay i would receive. but im still trying every job opening that pops up in my area.

all that to say, i have $13 in my account and my rent is due, which is $185 USD. i live in government housing so it's income-based, but even having no income, this is as low as my rent goes. i'm already in a payment plan to repay what i couldn't from december of last year, so unfortunately i don't qualify for another. my rent is due by monday, august 11th. after that, a $50 late fee is incurred. and if i still can't pay it, i will be served a termination letter. after 30 days, if i am unable to come up with the money, i will be evicted.

i have nowhere else to go. my family has exhausted themselves trying to help me and keep me afloat until i find steady work, and im eternally grateful for that, but i can't ask them anymore. they can't help me out financially anymore. i know this is a lot. and i wouldn't ask if i had other options, but even if i were to start somewhere today, i still wouldn't get my first check for a couple of weeks.

right now i've been low-key taking commissions from friends for blog starter packages to try and get some money in, and im expecting a call from starbucks sometime next week to discuss hopefully coming in for an interview, but other than that, im scrambling and im desperate.

i don't want to blatantly ask for money, so instead i am asking you to check out my ko-fi and purchase some of my things — and please spread this if you can.

if, and only if, you really want to donate with nothing in return, my personal paypal is below; but otherwise i'd feel much better if people spent their money on things they could use from my shop.

my kofi: https://ko-fi.com/faegfx

my personal paypal: https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/etherealfae

my plate is pretty full with starter package commissions right now, but if you're interested, send me an IM or a message to my inbox and we can discuss the wait time.

im genuinely so sorry im making this post. i hate having to resort to the internet for this sort of thing, but i just don't know what else to do at this point. if any of you have any advice for quick work, please let me know.