Jan 23, 2023
Didn’t think I’d be back
It’s been a long time. I wish it would have stayed that way. I’m back to where I was the last time I used this thing. I feel so fucking alone, geez it’s rough. Can’t do this, the cycle that repeats over and over and over and over. Losing friends because I’m being used and trying to stand up for myself. I’ve never had a real best friend. I’ve never had someone who supported me no matter what. My life has always been to serve others, and I’ve never truly felt like I’m doing things for myself. I’m exhausted. No one even cares when I say that anymore. It’s like I could just disappear right now, and it wouldn't even matter. Sometimes I wish I mattered to someone.
