MC Fixer

“Have you ever felt like you don’t know what’s going on anymore. Like you don’t care about anything anymore. You’ve lost motivation to do anything. Your mind is set on too many things that you’re confused about your feelings, and you can’t explain how you feel either. The feeling of emptiness, and feeling that barely anyone is there for you. Feeling that no one understands you anymore. And it seems like there is nothing to look forward to anymore.”

“Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure but no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends but hate socializing. It’s wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely. It’s caring about everything then caring about nothing. It’s feeling everything at once then feeling paralyzingly nothing.””

“Sometimes I go to bed early to avoid being sad for the night, but I always end up waking up feeling empty. I go to use the bathroom, and as I walk there I’m having a panic attack for no absolute reason. Something is jittering around in my chest. I’m making myself freak out. Laying back down, I wanna have a mental break down again. It’s not that anything bad has happened. But… I think my body and mind knows that I need the world to stop for a second, for a minute, for an hour, for a couple of days. I need a break from life.”

“There will be days when you’ll stay in bed until 2pm because your sadness will hold you hostage in your room, and that’s okay. There will be sleepless nights because you’re too busy crying so hard in your knees, and that’s okay. There will be “friends” who leave because they didn’t like seeing you sad, and that’s okay. There will be teachers who don’t understand why sometimes you don’t show up to class, and that’s okay. There will be times when you’ll relapse and hate your life a little more, and that’s okay. There will be people who just don’t understand exactly what you’re going through, and that’s okay. In the end you’re still here and you’re still fighting, and that’s all that matters.”