Wish I May

goodbye my fantastic friends

"No, I’ll leave you alone now. Because you can handle everything on your own."

Good to know that I got my point across, that was easier than I thought it would be.

I seriously haven’t ridden on this in forever.

You could never tell...Well maybe a little, not going to lie.

"Don’t flatter yourself. I didn’t literally mean you were my child, though with recent events i wouldn’t be surprised if you were. Oh, so when you had your brothers, you were alone? You didn’t need anyone? not a single thing? Not an ounce of help? If you can honestly tell me yes that when you had people to love and rely on and protect in return, then I’ll leave you alone for good."

I loved my the twins, but I didn't always like them and they sure as hell didn't pull through for me nine time out of ten so yes for the most part I was on my own. Well I can tie my own shoes now so yes I can do everything on my own. I do have a cat for emotional support if that counts. So what are you going to do until than? Stand outside of my house until I get a friend? I do have friends.

Alright, enough with this mushy stuff I might cry.

"I can tell. You’re alone, you have no pack. I’ve been in that position and it was not a fun one. No I don’t. You, my child, do."

I'm not you child. I'm not anyones fucking child. Thats the whole point, that I've never had anyone and I've done perfectly well on my own. I don't need a pack, I'm fine with being alone and I don't need anyone despite what you may think. I have 18 years to prove that I don't need anyone fucking caring about me.

You weren’t dragging me into anything. There’s no need to be sorry, you were going through a lot at the time, and I know what you were going through.

"Call it care for a kindred spirit. I see a bit of myself in you. And doesn’t everyone need someone to care?"

And what exactly would that be? You hardly know anything about me. I don't. 

I just wanted to say sorry, I was really fucked up after I found Aiden and Ethan...And I mean I still am, the fact that I've barely even left my bed since I found them makes that obvious enough but I shouldn't have tried to drag you into my fucked upness. 

"I am a caring, concerned citizen and the door was always unlocked. you practically begged me to check in on you daily. The sass within you is almost overwhelming, but let’s be frank when I say that I do it better."

Are you now? Hmm, I think you remember it slightly different than I do. I don't remember even asking you to check in on me let alone beg. I don't expect people to check in on me. Overwhelming...Good thats what I was going for. Feel better that I'm out of the house? Why do you even care?

"Quite the opposite. You were starting to be a depressing display. Dare I say that it is nice to see you out and about."

Well I did find my brothers dead bodies so I think I had the right to be a little bit depressed if you ask me. It's amazing what a lot of caffeine can do to someones mood. Yeah must be nice not to have to break into my house.

You sure?

Yeah totally, I've missed you and I've should have talked to you about what happened after my brothers died a long time ago.

"Out, about, and smiling? Is the apocalypse coming?"

It was a upbeat song and I've had a lot of coffee today. What is it a bad thing?