My healthcare team has officially decided i am a drain on the system & no longer care to look deeper and try to help me. They decided that i am not worthy of help. They would rather i die like this than ever ever help me. All i want was to get better. Get treatment . Have a life. But they don't care. They never have. I will be severely disabled the rest of my life with no treatment. And if they "missed something" then its my faulr. They decided its in my head now. that i'm not trying hard enough.
I am at a loss of what to do. I just have to go on living suffering everyday feeling like i'm dying from lack of treatment. I can't do anything. I already graduated and finished CBT&DBT therapy but apparently since its all in my head now it doesn't matter. All my therapists and psychiatrists have told them its not mental health related but they don't care. They don't want to look anymore.
There is nothing I can do anymore.
I'm not sure what to do anymore, my last resort was "medical tourism" -- AKA traveling to another country for better healthcare, but I don't even have money to live alone for a month, let alone travel or anything. It's not a viable option right now, so as of right now I am without help and care. I have been abused and neglected by the medical system so badly I have such bad trauma with doctors and hospitals now. I truly believe there is no doctor out there that didn't go into it for a selfish reason.
I would appreciate any help, even 1$ helps me save up for a better future. It's totally okay if you can't, I understand money is tight for everyone, so please don't feel obligated.
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