MARQUESS OF HEXHAM.

daddy was dumb, said that i’d be something special. brought up tough but i was a gentle human. said that he loved each of my two million freckles. i sit in the car and i listen to static. you were clearly meant for more than a life lost in the war. i know you’ll feel the ghost of the memory so warm. my body’s in tatters, in an ordinary fashion. maybe, i wish i could remold you to vertical and golden. it hurts to say it’s hopeless and we ain’t gonna make it. sometimes it makes me laugh, sometimes it makes me sad. why can’t we laugh now like we did then? how come i see you and ache instead? how come you only look pleased in bed? i want you for the world, i want you all the time. i won’t forget how you looked at me then. why don’t i say it then? i want you all the time. my heart strings broke and it was me, i pull they stretch infinitely. in the summer silence i was getting violent. i’ll be dreaming in my paper pale skin. burn through my love just like your drugs. everything you didn’t know you were looking for. i wish you could see the wicked truth, caught up in a rush it’s killing you. i settle for a ghost i never knew. i miss him, don’t you blame me. i feel so fucking numb. gonna fuck my way through college. i’m gonna sleep ‘cos you live in my daydreams. i am a true romantic, free falling love addict. pulled me through the door and stuck her teeth in deep. all your days are gone, sitting on the floor in your underwear, begging me for more. why don’t you light that cigarette and calm down, now stop and breathe a second. go back to the very beginning. can’t you see what was different then? your head is so numb. that nervous breath you try to hide, between the motions that trembling tender little sigh. i want to hold you like you’re mine. you’re gone but you’re on my mind. i’m lost but i don’t know why.