life as poems

us human kinds are here to judge our kind and we’re the worst kind. human kind forces you to open up yourself for a temporary soul who demands to see every piece of you with no interest to feel it nor understand it. judged when a soul is not ready to lower their guards immediately only to be called broken, emotionally unavailable and waste of time. judged you when you’re not willing to go their length and surrender your physical soul to them. just and only for them to understand the possible connection. My deepest fear is that I open up myself to the wrong soul only to be left used and unwanted because I wasn’t suitable for them and then they making me feel bad about it that I wasn’t enough for them.

learn from the past relationships, to put yourself in the highest position of priority. allow not to feel unworthy. uncertainty appeared in you. denying your beauty, kindess, selfless, sacrifices. learn from the present relationship, to find yourself alone, allowing time to love your, mind, body, soul. allow your knowledge to grow, allow your goodness, allow your aching soul to grace of freed. learn from the future, to understand the passion and love. learn from past and presence. not to let another to hurt you, to lose you, to feel yourself unworthy. to let another, to desire you, to fight for you, to be worthy of you.

looking for a friend through bottle of wine. apart from full bodied wine, i have no sensation of feeling powerful. i can taste the bitterness, not sweetness. i don’t grave for sweet. life of sweetness is complex. i grave for greatness of abuse. you bring my emotions so high i can touch the skies. you bring my emotions so down, devil tells the greetings to up here. with you i see clearer. your sensational touch through glass, in my mouth, every mouthful, opens eyes, eyes of understanding. you make feel so sad, make me into pieces, i keep lifting up, bottle after bottle. even the sold souls to devil the life seems easier to bear.

undo your cast of spell. inhaling sorrows, when i should breathe heaven filled of sunflowers. walking in the inferno filled with great flames, lungs suffocated with devils whispers. when i could ask for help, my mouth will be filled with unspoken words. mistaken love for torment, i thought the beauty of love is tragic, when i preferred the devils hands in my little game. I will be flawless design of destruction, when i could be the best design of myself. the spell was cast by me, to me.

Distance between us, filled with silence. Room filled with desperation, tense by your untouched arms not around me. Teased by your clothes, not been dressed off. Only contact we have is eyes, I could gaze them eternity. What’s left of me, feeling of explosion full aroused and turnt on electricity. I could light up whole city, by the power you give me. Only you can turn me into this, so seduced, vulnerable. I know I do, too. We can call it love, we can call it nothing. Feel me and I'll lose it. So lay me down, turn me on, You’ll have my whole body, full of desires in your command. Let me be your submissive to your dominance. We can both play this our game. Just say the word baby, I won’t settle for passionless.

When you utter to say, it’s too devilish, nothing is until you've shaped into fool. Someone you trust has such control over you, can make you feel anything.

countless nights spent under starry sky listening to same song smoking cigarettes until there was nothing to smoke hoping to be one of them carrying purpose to bring hope and countless of happiness but I realised now I was already one of them and even more I was brighter all I needed was little love in me before anyone else time to heal endless source of stars and sun I fought for to be both.

You taught me, to touch your sweet spots you showed me the lust between two bodies can embrace. Truth of selfishness when you want to give Instead to have. You brought, the best of me I didn’t know I had to merge with the worse, to complete all of me. I just wish next time to be more open for someone who can’t replace you but at least I know between him tension won’t keep me away. You are all I want but not to have.

relationship, so sweet you can taste it so bitter you'd close your eyes to ignore it. Ignorance to arrogance, what makes it difference, when you can't even show what he truly means to you. You can promise the moon and the sun to him actions is what he awaits. In the end change is what only remains of you to him.

You don’t want him, you keep convincing but yet hoping to see message from him. To feel how you’ve felt, to make sure the spark hasn’t gone. Not to be loved, but to be needed. We all need little excitement, until it feels like home and there is no escape, because it is your new reality.

I have problems. When I’m with someone I try to show, I don’t care, I don’t show emotions as you should. Just all closed up. Keep telling I don’t even want it. When the other half decides to be low key and not to talk anymore. It’s a sign. He’s not interested anymore. Then it hits. What all you could have said or done. But basically you got what you wanted. All you need to do is live with it.

Hope you’re having a good day. Remember to treat yourself well. Have a shower, listen to good music and have a smoothie or play games what makes you happy or couple of episodes of your favorite serie. Keep yourself stimulated enough, so eventually end of the day you feel you’ve accomplished something.

When you are having a bad day, please don’t react to it negatively way. It’s almost like you’re giving what it wants. You to feel overwhelmed about everything. Instead of it try to make best of it. It almost got me. What I did, stopped for a second and breathe. It lasts only momentarily. There never can’t be whole day so messed up that you to feel angry. It is just the moment and you just let it pass.