i love feeling comfortable in solitude. not only does it give me more time to better myself, but i am emancipated from empty validation and vapid relationships. i am aware that life can still be good, if not much better, when i am self-oriented. facing the truth that i am always complete & enough, regardless of how much community i have, is true liberation. it is also somewhat alarming, as it reminds me how much i used to aimlessly blame myself for other people's actions, or moreso, inaction to be there for me the way i am there for others. in the end, sometimes it really has nothing to do with me. this has been a disturbing truth to me for years because i was so used to finding a fault within myself any time someone was not there for me. at this point in my life, i no longer find comfort in codependency and self blame. i no longer choose to live in cognitive dissonance. i just want to be myself and relish in the realization that i was and always will be worthy. i choose to liberate myself from the desire to hear that from an outside source to believe it to be true. the banality of it all is not my burden to carry anymore. the hard truth is that i allowed the wrong people in my life, and there was nothing wrong with me.
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