☆〜AL〜☆

☆Hii this is my first time publishing anything so please bear with me, I am new to tumblr in general so I will take longer to update and upload anything in the beginning.

•WHAT THIS PAGE IS ABOUT

☆I will be writing fanfics long and shot I would greatly appreciate recommendations🙏🏼. My inbox is open!!, I will do one shots and full stories, but for now I will stick with one shots till I get a groove of everything. This page is also like a diary so I will repost a lot and answer questions if any are asked, and just post any thoughts I have to share and I like sharing a lot of my music with what I think matches with a certain person. my stories will be more on the opposite of fluff, so I will have a lot of toxic, sad and smut that’s not me saying I will never have fluff. I just think that we need more gut wrenching feelings😌.

• HOW I WRITE

All/most of my stories will be based off of songs, so the song that you see at the top of the story will mostly be the vibe of the story

•MASTERLIST

•WHAT I WILL AND WILL NOT WRITE ABOUT

☆will NOT have grape 🍇 that’s just out of my comfort zone.

☆will NOT have underage $ex I love me some age gap but it has to be legal!!!.

☆will NOT have anything with animal sexual abuse.

☆will NOT have M4F for the guy’s perspective/ for men’s enjoyment.

☆will HAVE WLW goes with the last one

☆will HAVE $mut

☆will HAVE mostly women’s basketball

☆will HAVE drinking/drugs toxic behavior

PSA-I will not tolerate hate or bullying in any format, if so you will be blocked

•WHO I WILL BE WRITING ABOUT

☆This is just who I will be writing about on the basis of course you can ask me to do anyone now if I don’t know them or like them I might not, simply because I don’t know their personality enough to write about it but these 6 people are just the regulars and I will have some additional people every so often.

☆Azzi Fudd

☆Paige Beuckers

☆KK Arnold

☆Juju Watkins

☆Young Miko

☆Diana Taurasi

•NEWLY ADDED

☆Bella Hines(posted March 7)

☆Grace Knox (posted March 7)

•THINGS ABOUT ME

☆I don’t have a schedule yet so post will be sporadic

☆I love music and I Sabrina carpenter even more💋

☆I do have hard classes so that will probably be the cause of lack of story’s 😬

☆I have been to a UConn game it was actually the first thing I posted about on tumbler 😌

☆I LOVEEE MEMES

☆mixed with Puerto Rican and black very loud and proud about it🇵🇷🤭😋💋

•ECT

Let me know if there’s something I should add or do I’m new to all of this so that would greatly be appreciated but stay respectful about it. I will have more in-depth post about the characters, but this was just an overall review. I should have my first story or a update posted in about a week but that’s all for now. XOXO💋

-AL

HAPPY JUNETEENTH TO MY LOVELY PEOPLE 😋🫶🏼

☆Warnings: fluff, slight August fem reader x soft dom Azzi Fudd, the song is actually important this time it will be quoted and a chunk of the story line so would recommend 

☆Description: you and Azzi spend all night trying to get “The” first dance that you two are going to share together down packed but the night is filled with laughter, tears and replays of the same song over and over again until soon it plays all the way through till the end.

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The night was dark and the lack of knowing how to do your own dance at your wedding was high

“Holy moly baby you suck at this really”

Azzi says as she’s barely able to speak from laughing

“Stopp really I’m trying I was just so busy with-”

but before you can keep apologizing Azzi realizes how much effort you put into the wedding with the dance just slipping your mind

“Wow slow down I was just joking I know how much you put into our wedding”

is the first thing she says grabbing your waist pulling you close in between our shared kitchen the two of you decide to learn the dance in.

“I’m so grateful for you truly I don’t know what I would do with you…”

there’s a long pose before Azzi pulls you closer connecting the two body’s now laying her head on your shoulder taking a second to breathe

“gosh would we even have a wedding with how busy I am all the time?”

“ I told you I was willing the take that responsibility up for the both of us remember”

Is what you tell Azzi reminding her that it’s okay to balance on someone else for once

“You helped with so much to it’s not like you didn’t do anything, your to picky to not have a say in anything”

And that right there is what reminds her just why she’s putting that ring on your hand in 48 hours, the trust, the way you both know exactly how each other work

Way would she want anything else?

“Okay! Let’s get back to it these feet aren’t gonna move on their own”

you say trying to pull back from her grip but not just yet

“Waitt just wait a second we still have all night, let me just get a kiss first.. please?”

As you can’t resist Azzi you give in. as much as you want to be prepared you also want to enjoy the last couple of moments with her before you two are separated tomorrow on two different bachelorette parties.

“We have to get back practicing, I mean it” you say warping your arms Azzi already looking into her eyes

“I promise, pinky promise”

You felt Azzi’s soft warm lips on yours before you can even put your pinky up,

“alright I’ll keep my promise let’s dance”

Azzi says as she gives you one last peck on the check before pulling away to start the song over

As the candles are still lit and the oven head light is on, the sun had been down for hours leaving only the two of you, you Azzi began walking back up to you holding your hand.

“You remember what my favorite part is?”

Azzi says as you to begin to dance rocking each back and forth in the beginning

“Of course it’s the part you made me learn first”

you say laughing as you spinning each other out of one another’s arms, now holding each others hand Azzis spins you back into her chest holding you with one arm

“You know I’m actually really happy we picked this song”

she says leaning her head down to your ear

“Why’s that?”

You say spinning out of her arms now facing her again

“Well.. when I first heard this this a long time ago I always thought it was really pretty song but I never really understood why until I realized I liked girls..”

“oh baby I didn’t- ”

“Waitt I’m not done yet it gets sadder”

She’s says letting out a little laugh but you can tell there’s something more, something that she’s willing to open up about

“sooo with that I realized that this song made me feel exactly how it felt to express healthy and true love but the sad thing about it, is that I told my self if that I would only get to play this song at my wedding if I married a woman which I thought wouldn’t be able to do so it was always a sad reminder that I wouldn’t be happy or be married to who I wanted to with and I thought a man wasn’t worthy of the song so I wasn’t gonna bring it up to him if I did marry one.”

Before she realized a tear drop fell from her face.

All you could do was keep your body one with hers to show her no amount of words could change what she had felt but it could remind her of what she feels right now

As the chorus of the song begins to plays you realize why it’s her favorite part

As Azzi began to softly hum the lyrics to you, you start to feel all the emotions of what you truly have in your life

“I’d give you the sun if you’d ask me, you’d could have all the time, you’d have the starts and the trees, when dividin’ up the universe, you could have mind”

As you both continue to dance doing the entire routine right without realizing this is the first time you’ve both done the dance completely right

As the song comes close to an end and the final spin comes to a close all you do is warp your arms around her neck pulling her in closer, leading her in for a kiss.

“I’m glad I was able to me your universe az”

-AL

i’m just here to say I don’t know if it’s noticeable yet but all my stories go with the song that I have on the top of the story, so I just wanted to make that a fact almost ALL my stories will be based of a song I just think that’s good way to come up with ideas so if anyone was confused on how my page ran or stories worked that’s how :)

☆Warnings: smut, explicit language,

☆Description: juju lost a game and it was all your fault, you finally decided you wanted to make a point but what if it was at the wrong time, now she’s making you endure every last bit of pain she wants you to feel

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Juju was pissed, that’s not something that’s new but what is new is the way she handled it.

You and juju Watkins had been off and on for years, not that’s something that you want but that’s just how it is.

Of course she loses games from time to time that comes with the sport, but not with the way she lost this game, not with the way she fucked up and missed the easy lay up’s or the steals that she left open from poor lack of guarding the ball it was from who wasn’t on the court side bench watching her.

You.

Juju and you both got into arguments all the time but you always new to come to her games the next day no matter what but something changed that night,

The night you decided to give her hell.

“Who do you think you are to tell me who I can and can’t hang out with?” Is all you hear as you turn your back to look at juju, all you can feel is the reminders of how much you too are not together and haven’t been in years

“Oh so we’re doing that now uh?” You say as you lean against the back of the couch now having your arms crossed

“What? I haven’t been yours in what 2 years” she says stepping closing now feeling more confident as your stuck between her and the back of the couch.

“And last I checked you haven’t been mine either so what’s the issue” you hear her say with that smug tone she uses when she’s know’s she’s right in the worst situations for you.

“then I should start acting like it again” is the last thing you say before pushing your way past her arm and leaving out of her apartment.

Now understanding where she’s thinking you know exactly what you need to do.

And for her next game you didn’t show, not a text, no pregame kisses nothing. everything that was a ritual for a good game to happen didn’t happen because you didn’t show and she sure as hell noticed.

As the game was coming to an end and she knew she was going to lose she still looked at your chair see if the last minutes could still count but they didn’t.

As she opens her door to her apartment she notices you.

On the couch sitting there like it’s belongs to you, not to your ex girlfriend who you still hook up with two years later.

“What the hell are you doing here” she says as she drops her bag on the counter not moving a muscle

“Oh I was just waiting to see you after you game so we could hookup” you say as you turn you head looking back at her as you still sit on her couch not making yourself feel bad at all

“So your just not gonna come to my game and fuck it up and then except me to sleep with you?” She says letting out a chuckle of sarcasm not expecting this from you, not the girl who would tolerate anything Watkins gave her.

“ I thought that’s what hook up’s did? Only girlfriends would be there to support you at a game why would I be there Judea” you say, saying her real name

“That’s funny how you wanna act like that but call me my first name knowing I don’t let hookups do that”

That, that right there is when she realized you weren’t serious, just wanting to fuck her head up for the game and that made her more pissed.

“I-”

“Shut the hell up” is all you hear her say in her cold tone no longer trying to understand anything you say anymore.

As she crosses the room In front of the couch now towering over you, you start to realize she doesn’t want to argue anymore, she wants you endure the same amount of feelings she had waiting for you to give her that satisfaction.

“If I hear one word from you I’m not stopping until I’m tired” is all you hear juju say as she throws you over her shoulder not giving you time to even think about walking on your own.

“Your just mad” you say already knowing where this is going she’s mad and is gonna fuck you for a little and tell you to get out the next morning

“Oh so you thinking I’m joking” as she continues walking to the bedroom she throws you onto the bed now talking off her shirt, no foreplay or teasing

She remember ever ball that was missed because you weren’t in that courtside chair watching her now no way in hell was she gonna make you think you could pull something like that again

all she had under was her back sport bar, she began taking off her sweatpants now standing in front of you as you watch and only watch

“Take off your shorts” she says as she gets on the bed now by the end of the bed as your facing her, as you start to do as she said you start to feel how much more aggressive she’s speaking

She doesn’t say a word as she moves your body making you face the headboard pushing your body down 

“This isn’t somet-”

“You really don’t know when to shut the hell up”

Juju says as she lays her back down in between your legs her face, facing your pussy as it gets hotter by the second she lays there without doing anything

“ if I feel you sit on my face your not cuming so you better hold onto something”

Is the last thing you hear her say before you feel her tongue go into your core as her lips wrap around your clit not giving you time to warm up to anything. She lets go of your clit and pushes her tongue all the way in with no warning making you clingy around her within only the first 5 minutes.

“You know damn well your different from the rest” she say as she let’s go a little from you to speak against you sending the vibrations all the way down your legs

As you start the need to hold onto the headboard she moves her mouth up to your clit and starts sucking like it’s the sweetest flavor she’s ever had but while your distract by that she moves her middle finger closer to your core and starts to circle right in your intestines going back and forth as she doesn’t move from either sport

“Fuck ju-” is all you can say as your breath catches in your throat

“tell me what you what you want mama” she says now switching her entire tone knowing that right now you would rather her be mad at you then her playing into your delusion

But before you can say anything she sticks her middle finger all the way in curling it as she goes painfully slow as she continues sucking on your clit.

“Mhm just like that keep making those noises for me” is the only thing you hear not realizing you were moaning like crazy arching your back into her face daring not to sit but continuing to hold onto the headboard.

As you get close to your orgasm she doesn’t stop, if anything she goes the fastest she ever gone before making you a wreak of just moans and shakes.

“Ju I’m close, fuck I’m so close” as she hears that she puts another finger in now making it impossible to balance staying up

“Then cum” is the last thing you hear as you let out a mixture of different sounds of pleasure

But for some reason you start to fell overstimulated and that’s because juju never stopped, she is still going while you chase your high and is still going after you finished but she hasn’t yet.

“We’re not stopping until I cum”

☆Warnings: August, religious guilt, heavy topics, inner homophobia, (not proofread)

☆Description: religion is something that you’ve always struggled with especially the night that you meet Bella.

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You never really understand why you felt different has a kid, but you did and you prayed and tried to keep it down, and you did for most of your life until that night.

It’s June 6th and you and your friend group decides that it’s summer why not live it up while you can, you are single, no school, and no responsibilities.

The night is young the air is hot and the drinks start coming, you feel the breeze of the summer night going through your dress, no care in the world as you hear songs you can’t stop dancing to. Until you see her.

She not loud, she not even in the spot light to notice but you do.

You don’t think on it for long as some guy comes up behinds you and starts to dance, and of course you go with the flow because why would anything be stopping you in the first place?

You make your way to the middle of the dance floor seeing the lights change from all colors against your skin, with your favorite drink in hand and seeing the guy you’re dancing with in front of you.

Not until she appears again, right behind him but farther away having the shadows of light go across her face, she doesn’t break eye contact with you.

All at once you hear your heart in your ears, palms sweating, heart racing, self panic is what you feel.

“Please not again” you whisper to yourself backing up from the guy in front of you, “are you okay?” The guy says not realizing there was a mood change but you quickly stop him form thinking it was him “no no it’s not you it’s just a little crowded” you say looking up to meet eye contact, but still seeing over his shoulder the girl. “Um what was your name again?” Right just something to get you mind of Her “oh it’s Dwayne”

And somehow after 15 minutes of talking to a guy you had little interest it was gone the feeling of guilt every time you looked forward, but she wasn’t.

You got Dwayne’s number and told yourself that would make up for your actions as you start walking towards Her, soon hoping to find out her name.

As you try and make it look not noticeable it very much is, you walk over and grabbing a cup and pouring who now’s whatever liquor is in there and standing by the counter that’s not even 5 feet away from her, yeah not noticeable at all.

But she doesn’t care and neither do you,

“So are you just gonna stand there sweating or are you gonna say something” she says has you hear her call for you to hear but not loud.

“Well maybe if you stopped eye fucking me I would” you say not thinking before saying that to a stranger

“Oh so you can speak up?” She says standing up not moving but just letting you know that this will lead somewhere if you let it.

“Yeah actually I can when it’s a conversation and not you steering me down” you say as you take a few steps now meeting her, after a pause she lets out a chuckle, you take that as a sign to ask her the question “so what’s your name?”

“Bella” she says with her hands in her hoodie pockets now holding eye contact again, “and you? Or are you a mysterious person who doesn’t give out names at parties”

You laugh, actually laugh before talking but before you can you see a look on her face, not really sure of what it is but it doesn’t make scare you if anything it feels like she seen you just for a second.

“It’s Y/N actually” you say zoning back into the conversation

“Nice to meet you Y/N..” and from that point of the air changes, now standing in front of a girl finally letting you feel your inner self even if it’s only for tonight.

“Well Y/N how are you enjoying the party?” She says stepping a little closer than she was before.

“It’s not bad but a little more crowded then my liking” you say putting both hands on your cup now holding it like it’s a lifeline

You notice the wheels turning in her head before she says it, “do you wanna get outta here?” She say lowering her head down to meet your ear

And before you can even think about the inner guilt growing you say yes like you never had a second thought about yourself before.

Before she lets you over think Bella pulls your hand, causing it to leave from her hoodie she holds you close behind her wavering through the house to the front door.

Bella gets you to the door now placing you infant of her making sure you get out first as she doesn’t look back

“Where are we going anyway?” You say letting out a chuckle at how ridiculous you too look running away from a party as if you two aren’t grown adults.

“Don’t think to much on it just walk with me” she keeps walking in front of you leaving her hand out for you to take.

The night is filled with laughter and questions that no one had thought to ask someone they just met but for some reason that wasn’t a worry for you or Bella. The thoughts of others, religions, or perspectives never even once came up in thought nor conversation that night.

But not for long.

As the night comes close to a end and Bella makes her way walking you up to your dorm room from getting slushy from the nearby gas station, all you can feel is the cold breeze against your face along with her hand that traces your face.

“Thank you” is all you hear Bella say but you don’t stop yourself being questioning.

“For what?” And right as your hear her speak, it all starts

“For understanding me in just enough time”

And in the moment you ask yourself “how could this be a sin?”

But just as you realize what would be on the other side of the door, you feel it.

The cross necklace on your neck weighing down on heart as it lays on the chest. The same chest that is daring the love “Her”

“I- I’m so sorry Bella you don’t deserve this” is the holy thing that dares to come out of your unholy mouth the same mouth that was dare to kiss bel-

3 years later..

That’s the last thought you have of that night.

Every night goes by with the ceiling fan going fast in a dark room with a fresh glass of water at the bed side of the table along with Dwayne…

Dwayne from the party at your right bed side holding you to sleep the night before graduation, the last night before you never see Bella again not that you’ve talked to her but the thought of her always being on campus will officially be gone forever and out of your reach not because of Dwayne but because that means you would have to admit you would go out of your religion for her and that’s something no amount of time before walking on the stage can change.

As you drift off to sleep one last time you realize what you asked that night was only a question.

This was supposed to be out MONTHSS ago but I was just off and on with writing, so sorry about that and low key feel bad doing this during pride month 😭-AL