transcendent and miraculous.

anyway. i feel like i want to punch something again. this kind of emotional frustration just increases my aggression. i want to punch someone, i want to commit multiple atrocities in the name of my anger. i don't even know what to say anymore. i'm just genuinely so angry and frustrated with everything that i just want to give it back tenfolds to the world.

this cycle of violence will never stop. it's part of our nature. might as well embrace it, yeah? who am i to deny my id such a thing.

i've been on cloud 9 for the past weeks because of the concert. it was truly a healing experience.

now it all comes crashing down. all of that progress to lift myself up was just gone because i failed in something i tried so hard to do. i was finally able to do some of it but apparently it wasn't enough. it pisses me off. i don't even know if i could point fingers. all i know is i failed and i'm not sure if i should try again.

how ironic that it was their music that's keeping me afloat right now. i'm currently listening to thursday's child has far to go and i just want to run. to where? to who? for what? aren't you tired? i don't want to answer those questions. i just want to run. '