isn't it lovely?

isn’t it lovely? all alone heart made of glass my mind of stone tear me to pieces skin and bone hello WELCOME HOME -

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✽  long post ahead bc i have no self control ! ✽  change pronouns / punctuation as needed . ✽  some lyrics are explicit. ✽  some themes are slightly darker. ✽  alteratively, send    ♫ 𝚏𝚘𝚕𝚔𝚕𝚘𝚛𝚎    to have a lyric automatically generated & said to your muse instead .

[ track 01 ]   the 1 ❛ I’m doing good! I’m on some new shit. ❜ ❛ I thought I saw you at the bus stop. ❜ ❛ I hit the ground running each night. ❜ ❛ You know, the greatest films of all time were never made. ❜ ❛ If you wanted me, you really should have showed. ❜ ❛ If you never bleed, you’re never gonna grow. ❜ ❛ It’s alright now. ❜ ❛ We were something, don’t you think so? ❜ ❛ If my wishes came true, it would have been you. ❜ ❛ In my defense — I have none for never leaving well enough alone. ❜ ❛ It would have been fun if you would have been the one. ❜ ❛ I had this dream you’re doing cool shit, having adventures on your own. ❜ ❛ We never painted by the numbers, baby. ❜ ❛ We were making it count. ❜ ❛ You know the greatest loves of all time are over now. ❜ ❛ I guess you never know. ❜ ❛ It’s another day of waking up alone. ❜ ❛ If one thing had been different, would everything be different today? ❜ ❛ It would have been sweet if it could’ve been me. ❜ ❛ In my defense, I have none for digging up the grave another time. ❜

[ track 02 ]   cardigan ❛ When you are young, they assume you know nothing. ❜ ❛ Baby, kiss it better. ❜ ❛ I was your favorite. ❜ ❛ A friend to all is a friend to none. ❜ ❛ Chase two girls, lose the one. ❜ ❛ To kiss in cars and downtown bars was all we needed. ❜ ❛ You drew stars around my scars and now I’m bleeding. ❜ ❛ I knew you tried to change the ending. ❜ ❛ I knew you’d linger like a tattoo kiss. ❜ ❛ I knew you’d haunt all of my what-ifs. ❜ ❛ I knew everything when I was young. ❜ ❛ I knew I’d curse you for the longest time. ❜ ❛ I knew you’d miss me once the thrill expired, and you’d be standing in my front porch light. ❜ ❛ I knew you’d come back to me. ❜

[ track 03 ]   the last great american dynasty ❛ How did a middle-class divorcee do it? ❜ ❛ The wedding was a charming, if a little gauche. ❜ ❛ There’s only so far new money goes. ❜ ❛ Their parties were tasteful, if a little loud. ❜ ❛ It must have been her fault his heart gave out. ❜ ❛ There goes the last great American dynasty. ❜ ❛ Who knows, if she never showed up, what could have been. ❜ ❛ There goes the maddest woman this town has ever seen. ❜ ❛ They say she was seen on occasion, pacing the rocks, staring out the sea. ❜ ❛ In a feud with her neighbor, she stole his dog and dyed it key lime green. ❜ ❛ Fifty years is a long time. ❜ ❛ Who knows, if I never showed up, what could’ve been. ❜ ❛ I had a marvelous time ruining everything. ❜ ❛ I had a marvelous time. ❜

[ track 04 ]   exile ❛ I can see you standing, honey, with his arms around your body. ❜ ❛ I think I’ve seen this film before, and I didn’t like the ending. ❜ ❛ You’re not my homeland anymore. ❜ ❛ What am I defending now? ❜ ❛ You were my town. Now I’m in exile, seeing you out. ❜ ❛ I can see you staring, honey, like he’s just your understudy, like you’d get your knuckles bloody for me. ❜ ❛ You’d get your knuckles bloody for me. ❜ ❛ Those eyes add insult to injury. ❜ ❛ I’m not your problem anymore. ❜ ❛ Who am I offending now? ❜ ❛ You were my crown. Now I’m in exile, seeing you out. ❜ ❛ I’m leaving out the side door. ❜ ❛ There is no amount of crying I can do for you. ❜ ❛ All this time, we always walked a very thin line. ❜ ❛ You didn’t even hear me out. ❜ ❛ You never gave a warning sign. ❜ ❛ I gave so many signs. ❜ ❛ All this time, I never learned to read your mind. ❜ ❛ I couldn’t turn things around. ❜ ❛ You never turned things around. ❜ ❛ You didn’t even see the signs. ❜

[ track 05 ]   my tears ricochet ❛ If I’m on fire, you’ll be made of ashes, too. ❜ ❛ Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe — all the hell you gave me? ❜ ❛ I loved you, I swear I loved you, until my dying day. ❜ ❛ I didn’t have it in myself to go with grace. ❜ ❛ You’re the hero flying around, saving face. ❜ ❛ If I’m dead to you, why were you at the wake? ❜ ❛ Look at how my tears ricochet. ❜ ❛ We gather stones, never knowing what they’ll mean. ❜ ❛ You know I didn’t want to have to haunt you. ❜ ❛ What a ghostly scene. ❜ ❛ You used to tell me I was brave. ❜ ❛ I can go anywhere I want. Anywhere I want, just not home. ❜ ❛ You can aim for my heart — go for blood. ❜ ❛ You would still miss me in your bones. ❜ ❛ I still talk to you when I’m screaming at the sky. ❜ ❛ You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same. ❜ ❛ You turned into your worst fears. ❜ ❛ You’re tossing out blame, drunk on this pain, crossing out the good years. ❜

[ track 06 ]   mirrorball ❛ I’ll show you every version of yourself tonight. ❜ ❛ When I break, it’s a million pieces. ❜ ❛ Hush. ❜ ❛ You’ll find me on my tallest tip-toes, spinning in my highest heels, love — shining just for you. ❜ ❛ I know they said the end is near. ❜ ❛ I can change everything about me to fit in. ❜ ❛ You’re not like the regulars. ❜ ❛ I’m still on that tightrope. ❜ ❛ I’m still trying everything to get you laughing at me. ❜ ❛ I’m still a believer, but I don’t know why. ❜ ❛ I’ve never been a natural. ❜ ❛ All I do is try, try, try. ❜ ❛ I’m still trying everything to keep you looking at me. ❜

[ track 07 ]   seven ❛ Please picture me in the trees. ❜ ❛ I hit my peak at seven, feet in the swing over the creek. ❜ ❛ I was too scared to jump in, but I was high in the sky. ❜ ❛ Are there still beautiful things? ❜ ❛ Cross your heart. ❜ ❛ Though I can’t recall your face, I still got love for you. ❜ ❛ Love you to the moon and to Saturn. ❜ ❛ The love lasts so long. ❜ ❛ I’ve been meaning to tell you, I think your house is haunted. ❜ ❛ Your dad is always mad. ❜ ❛ I think you should come live with me. ❜ ❛ We can be pirates! ❜ ❛ You won’t have to cry or hide in the closet. ❜ ❛ Our love will be passed on. ❜ ❛ I used to scream ferociously any time I wanted. ❜ ❛ Pack your dolls and a sweater. ❜

[ track 08 ]   august ❛ Salt air and the rust on your door — I never needed anything more. ❜ ❛ I can see us lost in the memory. ❜ ❛ August slipped away into a moment in time, because it was never mine. ❜ ❛ I was see us twisted in bedsheets. ❜ ❛ August sipped away like a bottle of wine, because you were never mine. ❜ ❛ Will you call me when you’re back at school? ❜ ❛ I remember thinking I had you. ❜ ❛ It was never mine. ❜ ❛ You were never mine. ❜ ❛ For me, it was enough to live for the hope of it all. ❜ ❛ I canceled plans just in case you’d call. ❜ ❛ Meet me behind the mall. ❜ ❛ So much for summer love and saying “us”. ❜ ❛ You weren’t mine to lose. ❜ ❛ Do you remember? ❜ ❛ Remember when I pulled up and said “Get in the car.” ❛ I was living for the hope of it all. ❜

[ track 09 ]   this is me trying ❛ I’ve been having a hard time adjusting. ❜ ❛ I didn’t know if you’d care if I came back. ❜ ❛ I have a lot of regrets about that. ❜ ❛ Maybe I don’t quite know what to say. ❜ ❛ I’m here in your doorway. ❜ ❛ I just wanted you to know this is me trying. ❜ ❛ I got wasted like all my potential. ❜ ❛ My words shoot to kill when I’m mad. I have a lot of regrets about that. ❜ ❛ I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere. ❜ ❛ I ended up here, pouring my heart out to a stranger. ❜ ❛ I didn’t pour the whiskey. ❜ ❛ At least I’m trying. ❜ ❛ It’s hard to be at a party when I feel like an open wound. ❜ ❛ It’s hard to be anywhere these days when all I want is you. ❜ ❛ You’re a flashback in a film reel on the one screen in my town. ❜

[ track 10 ]   illicit affairs ❛ Make sure nobody sees you leave. ❜ ❛ Tell your friends you’re out for a run. ❜ ❛ You’ll be flushed when you return. ❜ ❛ Take the road less traveled by. ❜ ❛ Tell yourself you can always stop. ❜ ❛ What started in beautiful rooms, ends with meeting in parking lots. ❜ ❛ That’s the thing about illicit affairs — and clandestine meetings and longing stares. ❜ ❛ It’s born from just one single glance, but it dies and it dies and it dies a million little times. ❜ ❛ You leave no trace behind. ❜ ❛ Take the words for what they are — a dwindling mercurial high, a drug that only worked the first few hundred times. ❜ ❛ They show their truth one single time, but they lie and they lie and they lie. A million little times. ❜ ❛ Don’t call me “kid”. ❜ ❛ Don’t call me “baby”. ❜ ❛ Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me. ❜ ❛ You showed me colors you know I can’t see with anyone else. ❜ ❛ Look at this idiotic fool that you made me. ❜ ❛ You taught me a secret language I can’t speak with anyone else. ❜ ❛ You know damn well, for you, I would ruin myself a million little times. ❜

[ track 11 ]   invisible string ❛ I used to think I would meet somebody there. ❜ ❛ Teal was the color of your shirt when you were sixteen at the yogurt shop. ❜ ❛ Time, curious time. ❜ ❛ Were there clues I didn’t see? ❜ ❛ Isn’t it just so pretty to think all along there was some invisible string tying you to me? ❜ ❛ You ate at my favorite spot for dinner. ❜ ❛ She said I looked like an American singer. ❜ ❛ Time, mystical time — cutting me open, then healing me fine. ❜ ❛ Something wrapped all of my past mistakes in barbed wire. ❜ ❛ One single thread of gold tied me to you. ❜ ❛ Gold was the color of the leaves when you around Centennial Park. ❜ ❛ Hell was the journey, but it brought me to heaven. ❜ ❛ Time, wondrous time, gave me the blues and then purple-pink skies. ❜ ❛ It’s cool, baby, with me. ❜

[ track 12 ]   mad woman ❛ What did you think I’d say to that? ❜ ❛ Does a scorpion sting when fighting back? ❜ ❛ They strike to kill, and you know I will. ❜ ❛ What do you sing on your drive home? ❜ ❛ Do you see my face in the neighbors lawn? ❜ ❛ Fuck you forever. ❜ ❛ Every time you call me crazy, I get more crazy. ❜ ❛ When you say I seem angry, I get more angry. ❜ ❛ There’s nothing like a mad woman. ❜ ❛ What a shame she went mad. ❜ ❛ No one likes a mad woman. You made her like that. ❜ ❛ You’ll poke that bear ‘till her claws come out and you find something to wrap your noose around. ❜ ❛ I breathe flames each time I talk. ❜ ❛ They say “Move On,” but you know I won’t. ❜ ❛ Women like hunting witches too, doing your dirtiest work for you. ❜ ❛ It’s obvious that wanting me dead has really brought you two together. ❜ ❛ I’m taking my time. ❜ ❛ You took everything from me. ❜ ❛ She should be mad, should be scathing like me. ❜

[ track 13 ]   epiphany ❛ I think he’s bleeding out. ❜ ❛ Some things you just can’t speak about. ❜ ❛ With you, I serve. With you, I fall down. ❜ ❛ I think she’s crashing out. ❜ ❛ Only twenty minutes to sleep. ❛ You dream of some epiphany — just one single glimpse of relief. ❜

[ track 14 ]   betty ❛ I won’t make assumptions. ❜ ❛ I think it’s because of me. ❜ ❛ One time, I was riding on my skateboard when I passed your house. ❜ ❛ It’s like I couldn’t breathe. ❜ ❛ You heard the rumors. ❜ ❛ You can’t believe a word she says most times. But this time, it was true. ❜ ❛ The worst thing that I ever did was what I did to you. ❜ ❛ If I just showed up at your party, would you have me? ❜ ❛ Would you want me? ❜ ❛ Would you tell me to go fuck myself? ❜ ❛ In the garden, would you trust me if I told you it was a just a summer thing? ❜ ❛ I’m only seventeen. I don’t know anything. ❜ ❛ I don’t know anything, but I know I miss you. ❜ ❛ I know where it all went wrong. ❜ ❛ I was nowhere to be found. ❜ ❛ I hate crowds. You know that. ❜ ❛ I saw you dance with him. ❜ ❛ I was walking home on broken cobblestones, just thinking of you. ❛ She pulled up like a figment of my worst intentions. ❜ ❛ Get in. Let’s drive. ❜ ❛ I dreamt of you all summer long. ❜ ❛ I planned it out for weeks now. ❜ ❛ It’s finally sinking in. ❜ ❛ Right now is the last time. ❜ ❛ I can dream about what happens when you can see my face again. ❜ ❛ The only thing I wanna do is make it up to you. ❜ ❛ Will you have me? ❜ ❛ Will you love me? ❜ ❛ Will you kiss me on the porch in front of all your stupid friends? ❜ ❛ If you kiss me, will it be just like I dreamed it? ❜ ❛ I don’t know anything. ❜

[ track 15 ]   peace ❛ Our coming-of-age has come and gone. ❜ ❛ I never had the courage of my convictions, as long as danger is near. ❜ ❛ It’s just around the corner, darlin. ❜ ❛ I could never give you peace. ❜ ❛ I’m a fire and I’ll keep your brittle heart warm. ❜ ❛ All these people think love’s for show, but I would die for you in secret. ❜ ❛ The devil’s in the details, but you got a friend in me. ❜ ❛ Would it be enough if I could never give you peace? ❜ ❛ Your integrity makes me seem small. ❜ ❛ I talk shit with my friends. It’s like I’m wasting your honor. ❜ ❛ Is it enough? ❜ ❛ I’d give you my sunshine, give you my best. ❜ ❛ The rain is always gonna come if you’re standing with me. ❜