âI donât spare you just for his sake. I spare you because whether I like it or not, I find myself realizing time and again that my life, long as itâll be, would not be so interesting without you in it.â About as nice as sheâs going to get from him. âIf I barely tolerated you, I wouldnât bother myself with these emotions. Wouldnât talk to you, and wouldnât try to sort myself out. Iâm trying to sort out what are my feelings, versus whatâs just a grudge I need to let go of.â
Rather than taken aback, heâs amused by her admission. âI canât imagine why. Iâm a right bastard.â Heâs grinning, though, in that terrible way he does. âIâm willing to move past neutrality, but youâre just making it harder by assuming things that arenât true, and working yourself up into a frenzy of anxiety and ambivalence. I think this is the year that we end this silly game, if only because Iâm fucking sick of playing it.âÂ
A dragon. Yes, heâd gathered that much. Itâs not that he hates dragons- rather the opposite- but they strike a very specific chord of respectful fear in him when theyâre large enough, and thatâs an emotion he could go without experiencing too often. âIâm not going to puff up at a dragon. Theyâre one of the few creatures Iâd consider above myself on the rungs. Iâd rather like not being eaten myself, if I can help it.â
[Heâs right. Heâd been trying to sort things out and sheâd overlooked his efforts until now. She had been so absorbed in her own emotions that she hadnât fully acknowledged that he had spent three months chewing on the shit feelings that she had caused. Would he have done the same for someone else so irritatingly persistent, so confusing, so fickle? Would she? No. Sheâd take that kind of grudge to the grave.]
[Her expression softens, prosthetic hand meeting its living counterpart behind her back to run a cool metal thumb over the scar that he had left. Despite everything she had thrown at him, heâd been patient with her.]
âŚthen Iâll wait for you to sort those feelings out. And my offer to talk about it is still there.
[Surprisingly, she doesnât chide him for wearing that terrible grin of his. In fact, she returns it with her own, nose crinkling gently as her tongue briefly dips out between her teeth.] As long as we donât have to make another deal.
[A small, but sure sign of moving forward.]
Youâd put yourself below a dragon? But youâre taller than - [that fuck-off massive reptile that scared the shit out of you and your dad?] - uh. I guess thatâs not all that counts. Anyway, Teddyâs sweeter than cherry pie, youâve got nothing to worry about.
[Her eyes move over past Bjornâs left and she nods pointedly in that direction.] See that path? Go down it for ten minutes and youâll see a sign for Princes Way on the left. Canât remember the number, but I think youâll know which house it is. Nicest garden on the street by far. Iâd take you myself, but-
[I canât bring myself to look dad in the eye right now.]
I donât want to intrude.
He, notably, has not, indeed, he has refused to draw attention to the fact her arm has been replaced. Itâs none of his business. He was the culprit for its loss in the first place, but itâs not his business how or why she had it replaced. He merely watches her, as he always has, with the distant interest of a well-fed cat.Â
âI suppose, then, youâll need your own time to decide what you want to do, if you arenât taking the opportunity now. Either youâre once again second-guessing your emotions, or you havenât figured out how best to start the conversation.â
And the smile he wears now is oddly...soft. Not any less toothy or dangerous, but rather than grim pleasure, it seems to be an alien smile of attempted understanding.Â
It doesn't fit on his face.Â
âI have no desire to take anything else from you.âÂ
Thatâs as much of an Iâm sorry as sheâs going to get, and he seems puzzled at her own befuddlement that yes, he would place a dragon above himself. âHeight isnât what matters, dear pup. Itâs ferocity. Conquest. Power. It could be a dragon the size of a horse and I would respect it. Itâs a dragon. They are the Kings and Queens of this world, Emperors and Empresses. No less.â And yet, this dragon is named Teddy. Itâs not exactly inspirational of any fear or respect, but he presumes, like any dragon, they have a presence.Â
âItâs of little consequence how sweet a dragon might be, Victoria, or how little I have to be worried about. Iâm still going into the den of something, should it choose too, is fully capable of and well within its right to eat me.âÂ
He holds a respect for predators higher than himself that seems effortless and common sense to him. No wonder Victoriaâs antics annoyed him so much.Â
â...Ah. Well, Iâll make my visit short.â No thank you, either, but thatâs less a Bjorn thing and more a Fae thing.Â