Have you ever heard the world is your?

Surely without you

I did so good... 5 years I made it 5 years with out heroin, Ron, food.. I had endured the most possible trauma and felt with those feelings.. but a heartbreak where you just up and leave stop caring, just dont care no more... where you cut all times and change numbers... a heart break where your told you were used for years, a heart break where I involved my son and he suffers the sam heart break. how do you handle of those emotions, how do you cope, many can or could... I on the other hand couldn't.. it was too much, gut wrenching stomach turning, and for a few hours I wanted that feeling to just stop... to forget what such negative feelings, and I just want to feel on top of the world.. one person I knew that would give it too me.. also killed me in the progress, wanting to forget costed me my life and ways ill never understand cause why bring me back, why even bother other than im the only one acceptable to care for Alexander. the only purpose I know to care for him. make sure hes the happiest child. I seem to be doing a good job at it. I get kisses good night I get good morning hugs, he even tucks ME in ever once in a while. but this OD makes me feel like I took 8 steps backwards. cause damn dude what an accomplishment having 5 years clean and throw it all away because I didnt know how to feel.....

Poor mountain, Virginia