"But will that make you happy?" Hehehe >:)
philosophical ruminations of jedi teachings are thoughts all but lost amid a sea of bright white. a raw sense of pleasure felt from head to toe, every cell tingling from sensitivity ā and the waves began to crash ashore, swallowing him whole. ocean eyes awash with lust, noting the sweat donning bronzed flesh of the body āneath him, the body of a war - weary bounty hunter reaping his rewards for his latest task. his payment is simply in the form of the desecration of holy grounds. the jediās body, a temple in itself, revered in ways deemed both sacred and profane with one hand wrapped āround his neck and the other clutching a tender thigh that moves of its own accord. thereās a vague warning from forces beyond his control, but the voices lose the battle to a pair of lips that promise him sweet release of a tension rooted deep in his bones, coaxing him to completion of their rituals in the dark shade of night. said lips allow a voice, one no longer muffled by beskar armor, to guide him toward the warmth of light. blunt nails digging into supple flesh surely to bruise both neck and hip, scratching and scraping as his silhouette moves gracefully atop the mandalorianās lap. Ā he wanted only to be closer. and he was already so close. Ā so very close to the edge. he braces himself as hips stutter in their pace, ritual coming to an end with an exclamation, a name pulled from heaving lungs with a force unknown to even the jedi himself. Ā ( Ā din.Ā Ā din.Ā Ā din. Ā ) Ā mind focusing only on him.
their momentum slows, and heās left nearly gasping for air. hands brace his body on broad shoulders that lay beneath him. though they shift when his anchor to the planet rises, if only to meet him halfway, meet in the middle for lips to crash hazardously. the tight hold to his neck releases and an arm wraps itself possessively āround thin waist. tongue tracing the fine line of plush lips before teeth tug them in the most obscene way. he whimpers when they begin to swell. his heart following suit. in the heat of the moment, he forgot how he began to shamelessly take part in this blasphemy. initially, it was naught but a result of tension and adrenaline; they simply fell into step thereafter.Ā was this no coincidence, but a product of the force and unnatural fates?Ā they were meant to be here. together. or so he liked to believe.
each time they trained, saber to saber, luke could feel more than just the pull of attraction. he could feel ā and has certainly felt ā ( Ā daresay Ā ) Ā attachment rooting itself a home, a shelter in the heart of a jedi. a place where it truly held no right to exist. the jedi must serve all, not a select few Ā :Ā a lesson he intended to pass on to his students, for the future of the jedi, if only to preserve balance in the galaxy. and though, he dare not shun away from embracing emotions, love ā Ā not as his masters did ā it was still very dangerous of him to toy with the idea of loving another so deeply. and it earned him a sinking feeling of regret, as the jedi of old berated him endlessly in the nights when the mandalorian paid no visit to the temple. his thoughts fester ā until din djarin offered him relief, release. Ā
admittedly, unbeknownst to the mandalorian, he offered luke a distraction from the weight of a prophecy, treating him with a rare sense ofĀ roughness he was unaccustomed. everyone treated him like glass, so precious he might break, but when din fisted through golden locks, bruised his hipsĀ /Ā his neck with his hands and teeth, it was a new feeling ā one he welcomed, relished.Ā so much so, it became desired, thus routine.
when they finally break apart, bare form collapses beside the other, hallowed grounds burning his flesh. ( Ā oh, how you might wish to repent. repent for your sins, skywalker. Ā ) Ā the grass tickling his backside when he pulls himself up, looking for the robes tossed aside in the heat of pleasure. his thoughts floating in the haze of post - pleasure, and he mumbles something aloud in between exhales meant to help catch his breath,Ā Ā āĀ Ā this was the last time. we should probably ⦠stop this. it might ...Ā Ā āĀ Ā his mouth twisting, attempting to right himself, his ways.Ā āĀ Ā it might complicate things.Ā Ā ā Ā he vaguely gestures with hands, brows furrowing. to his displeasure, however, the mandalorian props himself on his elbows, smugly looking him over in disbelief, muttering his own responseĀ :Ā Ā āĀ but will that make you happy?Ā Ā ā
happy? no,Ā perhaps not. as he can feel his heart sink at the thought of not seeing the mandalorian, feeling his weight either beneath or on top of him in twilight hours when slumber has claimed all its possible victims and they were left to their own devices. the heat between them is a fire he could never extinguish, nor would he wish to. he stills, briefly.Ā eyes close, seeking solace in the form of momentary meditation. if only for a second, heād need to center himself āā to consult the force.Ā they would need to put an end to their nightly ... routine, it would be best, of courseĀ āā and selfless, as it was expected of him to hold no ties to love.
love. did he love ā¦? the thought hinders his thoughts, he swallows thick. brows furrowing further upon the realization. Ā love?Ā the word crosses his mind once, twice, thrice. Ā he can hear the other shifting closer towards him, to pull him back. but with his mind racing, he canāt seem to move. heās frozen.Ā the warmth of din djarin moving ever nearer, tempting him. he thinks, no this is just passion. he couldnāt possibly ⦠(Ā Ā oh, but he does. doesnāt he?Ā Ā ) Ā āĀ i ā¦Ā ā Ā instinctively, then, he recedes.Ā growing colder without the presence of another. urgently, he picks up his clothes, throws on sacred robes that feel dirty against his skin. Ā hands begin to defensively waving in font of him,Ā āĀ this was ⦠good. very good.Ā but i have to ā- uh ⦠lessons ā---- my students ⦠i forgot about their lesson.Ā Ā āĀ and heās frantically parting ways, embarrassed, rambling.
and as his pace hurriedly brings him back towards the temple, he can hear the voices resurface to the forefront of his mind, jumbled words of various masters of old Ā : Ā you love him donāt you, young skywalker? Ā / Ā love is the path to the dark side. Ā / Ā love leads to fear. / Ā fear leads to anger. Ā / Ā anger leads to hate. Ā