Thank god for Donald, who held me as I sobbed.

Like, sure, maybe I will be bored. But I will take being bored if it means getting my life outside of work together. And just give me a chance to be freakin’ excited about this change. Please. I am going to miss you, and I know you’re going to miss me, but….I’m not going to totally walk away from the ICU. I’ll still come visit. I’m in the same damn hospital for gods sake, just down a couple floors.

I interviewed for and accepted an outpatient nurse position for a gyne office that opened up at my current hospital. I’ll start beginning of July. Four days a week 7a-4p, no weekends, no holidays, no nights, no on-call. Literally go, do my job, and leave.

My best friend was honest with me and told me that she supports whatever will make me happy but that she thinks I’ll get bored there. I told her at this point in my life, I would rather be bored at work but happy outside of work. I would rather get to see my family, sleep a normal schedule, eating healthier and actually finding time to exercise… I will give up the excitement of the ICU for now if it means getting my mental, physical and emotional health back together. I’m allowed to pick up in the ICU if I want extra hours on top of the outpatient hours, so I probably will every once in a while - don’t wanna fully lose out on some excitement of the icu.