d_mamms

there's this person, who once had been my very best friend, my sister. She was supportive of me, compliments me and all. But then I noticed a sudden shift with her. She felt...distant? Yea, distant. Ever since she had her lover, she rarely talks to us, rarely bonding with us. Kung kailan na nandiyan na siya, it irritates me when she would shift the topic sa kanya, as if she own the spotlight. Magsasalita ako, she would cut me off, saying 'btw, perfect ako sa exam ko' when clearly they're asking me my whereabouts since it's been a few weeks na hindi ako nag paparamdam. Nung sinabi ko lang na I ghosted someone, bigla na lang siyang magsasabi ng 'ang redflag mo talaga, dinaig mo pa si santa claus, ang dami ng list' you don't know how I kept up with that person's bs na I'd want to leave them, ghost them but no, it hurts. Hearing that from your best friend, it hurts. So I snapped at ger, but she edge me on, akala niya kasi nakikipagbiruan na ako and shits but fuck, nagagalit ako. Pero pag pinakita ko galit ko, ako na naman magmumukhang may kasalanan? Tapos siya yung tatakbuhan? Wow ha. You know what, I want to leave.

Officially my rant page.

please, stop.

I want to erase the both of you, out of my life.

it would be better if we just never met.

i need to push them away. please go away, I don't need you

ever had that feeling when you just wanted to lock yourself away, push everyone away, delete all your contacts and turn your location off or even just deactivating all of your socials because you just had enough of everyone and just wanted to fucking breathe from the continuous breaking down?

I really fcking hate how you would bring one of my insecurities and sensitive topics when it comes on our fights.

I wished I'd never met you.

am I hurt? yes. Am I even trying to fix anything? no? if no, then why wouldn't you? oh idk, because I'm tired to be the only one trying lmao.

i hate how I'm the significant other yet i never knew what she was up to. Past or present, I should've known it by now. but no.

sarcasm or not, it's unfair.

Prolly gonna make a sakuatsu master list of the stories I've read and would recommend to some of ya