Somebody’s Something

Something that gets me every time is when I remember I’ll never get to spend time with the younger version of my kids ever again. Never? NEVER?? I think I understand why grandparents immediately jump to “they look just like mom/dad!” even if it’s obviously not true because imagine being in the same room as your babies baby and all you see is your baby. I’d fall to my knees!

All school supplies have been ordered and I will pick them up this afternoon Sunday we will take the kids to get their clothes and shoes since it’s tax free weekend here and then we will be all set. School starts in 3.5 weeks and we could have two possible big changes between now and then so fingers crossed everything works out. I’m feeling guilty because we haven’t done much this summer besides get our moneys worth out of the mortgage but it’s a million degrees outside and it costs a million dollars to go anywhere and do anything and ugh being a grown up + parent in this timeline is … something alright.

Long story short we got married August 2016 I was pregnant by December 2016 and my original wedding rings have not fit since then… I ordered one of those rubber rings that was so popular at the time wore it for a few months and then after carter was born we got each others initials tattooed on our ring fingers and I was ringless for… years? Idk. I have a round 2ct (lab created ofc!) ring but it was bought at my heaviest in between baby 2 and 3 and it’s honestly just not my style anymore… BUT our 10th wedding anniversary is next month and we just ordered my dream ring+band and im so excited!!!!

Idk guys I’ve been taking my ssri, working out daily, and switched from coffee to energy drinks (I know this seems like an even trade or maybe even worse but I was having between 500-600 mg of caffeine with my coffee and the energy drinks I’m capped out at 300 mg plus my coffee had a shit ton of sugar and cream so I was starting the day with a 300 cal drink where’s the energy drink is between 5-15 cal so a better choice for me atleast) and I feel better like life is worth living?? I’ve also been aggressively rerouting my thoughts i guess you’d say? I’ve always been a glass half empty kind of person and pessimistic as fuck but the government is trying to destroy our hope and resilience and good fucking luck because I am going to be the happiest version of myself if it’s the last thing I do!!

I was in my parents backyard yelling at one duck that was being mean to the other duck and biting it and I wasn’t watching the other birds and I walked directly into my dads mean ass rooster! I was wearing scrubs which helped but he still scrapped me up. Stupid territorial bird… we keep him because they’ve never lost any of them to predators despite being directly between two fields with woods surrounding so he’s doing his job but today I’m team chicken nugget for him. 😤

It’s like Murphy’s law that if you’re running late or just need to be somewhere at a certain time you will get stuck behind farm equipment driving down the road!

Just ran a diaper through the whole wash cycle. My days going great!

I love (loved? Who knows?) Taylor swift as much as the next person but that bullshit they pulled at msg was ridiculous (negative very negative connotation here guys) record breaking heat wave, and a holiday weekend… imagine having all the money and time in the world and deciding to do that? Left a bad taste in my mouth. 🥲👎🏽

Third children think they’re bigger than the program… we have created a tiny monster and now we must reap the consequences…a wonderful sassy three year old who uses her cuteness against us! Help!!!

“Not my first straight jacket and won’t be my last” ummm idk what’s going on at this here Walmart at 10:30 on a Friday but I’m going to mind my business! And also same girl. ☠️