ever since i finished my first playthrough of fe4 i've kind of wanted to get my thoughts about it off my chest, so i decided to do so by making a minute long animation that ended up being so heavy i had to delete almost every other app from my ipad to finish it (64gb prison)

but man i did not know they were making fe stories like this back in the day... every fe fan will eventually come across the jugdral glaze but it really is kinda crazy how ham they went on this story, considering all the hardware limitations and how early on this was for fe as a series. i truly did not expect for the story to be as dark as it was, a prime example of that being deirdre's character.

a woman forced to live in isolation in fear of passing on her cursed heritage, as her mother lived before her. a meeting, a choice— perhaps the very first one she'd had the courage to follow through (but not one she was allowed to keep making in the long run). to live in such paralyzing fear of losing what she now held so dear, to the point of not wanting to leave sigurd's side for any period of time at all, only to be taken from her family and be stripped of everything, even her own identity. all to further plots for revenge hungry cultists and a man too blinded by his own ambition to realize what a pitiful position he truly held.

i wanted to represent the feeling of having given so much of yourself already it's impossible not to see it in the mirror, even if you can't recognize it for what it once was. would she see their shadows out of the corner of her eye on certain days? how long would that feeling linger?

i was so bummed to see that she was just killed offscreen to further arvis' descent, and i mean i get it, it is an old ass japanese game so i wasn't actually expecting them to have all that much grace for their female cast but still:/ we need to stone arvis to death i'm so serious. i'm not even all that mad at him for tricking grannvale's houses into killing each other to get the throne since... well, it'd be strange to be mad at a character for being a war criminal in the War Criminal Game Series TM, but everything he does in regards to deirdre makes me want to curbstomp his ass. im not sure if it's ever stated that he knew of their.......relation to each other (i think he didn't????) but the way he tried to keep her like a possession (like bum father like bum son) and how he paraded her in front of sigurd at the end regardless of the harm or distress that might cause her (thats her ACTUAL HUSBAND you're KILLING in FRONT OF HER) and how he had the audacity to be sad for the death he very much led her to, albeit unintentionally, AND TO STILL HAVE THE GALL TO GET SNIPPY WITH SELIPH ONCE HE COMES KILL HIS ASS????? he pissed me off so fucking bad man i didn't even feel bad for him cause that's your own damn fault for being stupid enough to think you could outsmart the ALMOST THOUSAND YEAR OLD CULT that basically orchestrated your own rise to power with their continent wide network you stupid fucking moron😭😭😭😭and yes i know he has #traumas that made him that way but he pmo regardless. okay hate rant over i kinda had to make it clear how much arvis made me wanna chew my way through a brick wall