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Had another strange dream last night, I went through a door to find myself standing on a giant iced over lake, flat white snow in all directions. 3 black animals surrounded me, a panther, a bear, and a wolf, and I was told to choose one to follow far far away

I feel like I have already died, accepted that I am trapped, I am a ghost, I tiptoe around my room and avoid the creaky spots in the hardwood, move as slowly as i can. My hands are always trembling now. Heavy while empty.

There was a moment when escape was possible, through you, I left the key in your pocket but you didn’t notice. There will forever be a link between us that you won’t see, the way I begged for you each night and the morning I realized that you won’t hear me. I’m stiff now, I can’t turn my head to face you directly, I’m only allowed to watch you move through my peripheral vision.

I feel it in between sleeping and waking