HERE IN THE SUNSHINE.

# systemsred : as a heartless killing machine, i was a terrible failure.

a guy gets on the MTA here in LA and dies.

emmy's VINCENT of michael mann's 2004 film collateral.

that's an order. don't get yourself killed.

i don't know why, because it's one of those things i'm not contractually obligated to care about.

i didn't want to talk to them.

i wouldn't have wanted me either.

no, there's nothing you can do about it.

i'm out of practice at controlling my expression.

confession time: i don't actually know where we are.

also, you may have noticed, i don't care.

as the only one here with experience in these situations, i'm your best resource.

you may have noticed that when i do manage to care, i'm a pessimist.

it's a weird coincidence, isn't it?

if there's a chance we can save lives, we have to take it.

but i wanted to kill them.

you have to kill me.

i didn't want to kill myself, but it was going to have to be done.

and it makes a better story that way.

that was private.

there has to be someone else here.

not that i'm bitter, or anything.

and even to me, that sounded like a stupid thing to do.

because that's how i think of you.

we need to talk about our next move.

why are these people doing this? what is worth this to them?

i was indifferent, and vaguely annoyed. do you believe that?

wow, that was brave. and very, very stupid.

we have to stay together, use our heads.

i panic all the time, you just can't see it.

this doesn't have to end in violence.

i'd hate to be wrong about this. it would make me feel pretty stupid.

not that it matters. none of us had a choice.

this doesn't have to go badly for either of us.

you have no option except to trust us.

you shut the fuck up. we're not leaving you.

i think you can learn to do anything you want.

we'll talk about that when we get you home.

i don't know what i want.

it's that i don't want anyone to tell me what i want, or to make decisions for me.

i know, it was a surprise to me, too.

i'm sorry i frightened you.

it's not supposed to be realistic. it's a story, not a documentary.

i liked being right.

so we both have a secret.

we aren't friends. the first thing you did when we were underway was threaten me.

that's what i think happened. but i need to know for sure.

so you're bored? i'd be the best toy you've ever had?

i don't understand why this is a difficult choice.

you probably aren't surprised by that.

not that i'm bitter about that, or anything.

it was a bad idea to come here.

you just have to survive it and go on.

we'll start over. we did it once, we can do it again.

right now we need to find a place to get out of sight.

but it's not like i'm not afraid, so that's good.

but we all know that wasn't an accident, don't we.

you need to get better threats.