Well Fuck

So i’ve got two really good friends, one male one female. I had this crush on her for a long long time, have talked to my other friend about it alot. I’ve have had an issue about being jealous of him, thinking they’ll eventually hook up.  He’s animatedly denied anything ever happening between them, and i’ve never really believed him and this caused a rift between us.  Things kinda came to a boil and all three of us talked it out.  He feels hurt that i think he would do something like that, and she feels like she’s being objectified and uncomfortable with my possessiveness. and they’re both right, those are things that i did and need to fix with my behavior. I’ve been working really hard to squash down those thoughts and feelings, using their promise nothing like that is happening to solidify me. But my male friend told me that since they have talked together about the problem in our group(me and my feelings) they’ve been hanging out without me fairly frequently.  I’m having a hard time not reading into it further or taking it personally. Putting my feelings for her aside, the three of us were best friends, the three amigos. now i feel like im losing them and left out.

Me: *Has feelings