simulation swarm

"You're so lucky, you've done so many things." I've tried. "I'd love to be an author, but I've never written anything." Try. "I'd love to spend a year or two overseas." Try! "You worked in TV? That's so lucky." I tried! I tried really hard! I went to film school for years. My first on-set job was watering background extras. I've done a lot, yes, but I've also tried a lot, and failed a lot too.

I could paper a wall with my fuck ups, and that's okay.

I think some people are so afraid of leaving the spawn point they never play the game.

Come in! The water's fine! Mostly! Okay, I admit, there are dangers, but also, you won't learn how to fight off a shark until a shark attacks. (Is this metaphor working? I don't know, it doesn't matter, I'm not hitting backspace for no one, it's locked in now).

When you try you sometimes fail, but is that really the worst thing? There are plenty of things in life I have tried and failed at. I understand safety nets, taking the time to make sure you'll be okay in case you fumble something is smart, but eventually you do need to try.

Also, being real, some things (like writing) aren't all that dangerous. Sure, it hurts when something you've poured your heart and soul into flops... but some pain is actually just what life is. You have to stagger out there to find your voice, your people, and it will be awkward and weird, but it's okay.

It's okay.

Please.

Don't give up.

I believe in you.