semi hiatus

There are no words to describe how much it still hurts that Jonghyun is not around anymore. Even after two years I still have the hope that it was all just a sick joke and that he'll just appear again like it all never happened. There's not a single sentence that could ever put into words how much I miss him.

here’s a lil update for ya 1. i have a ‘new’ job - i work at a gasstation and every 15 years the gasstations are put up for auction so that other firms can get a chance to grow and expand (and as employees we’re sold as well lmao). my place was sold this year so the past few weeks we’ve been emptying the place and they’re currently in the middle of turning the old into the new. last week i worked at a different location for the new company, this week will be the same and starting next week our own location should be done and we’ll be open again. this all has been quite taking some energy from me because the location we’re working now is like-- an hour away from home (and given that we don’t really have breaks and that i also work at a stable my days are extremely long). 2. as much as i hate it when other people do it, i will be moving blogs soon. purely because my tags are a mess and i just want to reorganize everything, make it all clear again for myself--- it just feels like something i needa do.  with these 2 things going on i’ll be sorta busy for a little while as i am already getting the new blog set up, but with everything else going on it might take some time. i will obviously still be available here and on discord and once the new blog is all set up i’ll make a new post with a link to it and everyone i have a thread with will receive a message in their ims.

not entirely sure why baek is trying to make me test out sextoys