M A E

He came back. The one who held you with just one finger, the one who could get you on your knees just with one word. General Kirigan, your General. Hearing what happened in the Fold with the sun summoner and him, broke you. Hell, you didn't know if what happened between you two meant something to him, but you would do anything to make him feel at least something.

My little flower he called you, away from all curious glances. That was the nickname he gave to you, and you held it. You answered it, maybe he called you to have you by his side forever, only for his plans, maybe it was just all an act, but heck, you fell deeply. You fell so deep that nothing would ever make you betray him. You wanted to be with him until you'll be killed in the field, or even just died at his own hands. Whether it was love or a crazy obsession, seeing him alive made your heart much lighter than it was before. You clenched your fists, dangerously planting your nails in your own flesh to keep you from running to him.

His silhouette, his voice, his dark gaze, and his newfound scars, everything about him made your breath hitch. All you could think of right now while he was walking towards other grishas and you, were absolutely disgusting thoughts about how you would go under him to help him relieve himself. You unconsciously held your breath while he was walking towards you. He approached dangerously, all of your body was calling you to be at his service. You gasped for air when he spoke to you.

"My little flower." He whispered, really close to your face so no one could hear him talk. "I'm glad that my most precious Grisha is here." 

You didn't manage to form a proper sentence, you were just stuttering words, and Aleksander saw how you were so emotional. You could only whisper the words: "You're alive.", before bursting into tears. He gently took you into his arms and shushed you.

"It's okay, little flower. I am back, and I'll need you more than anything for what we'll accomplish. Come and join me after dinner please ?" You could only nod while letting your tears drop freely.

~

"I need the Little Saint, you need to locate her, quickly, I want every information you have on her or anyone who's with her, you hear me ?" The tension in the room was heavy, all you could do with your fellow Grishas was to answer "Yes, General." You all waited for him to dismiss every one of you, and with a flick of his hands, he did. They left the room, as you stayed and waited for anything that he could ask you to do. Anything. You heard him shift into his armchair, and when you let yourself stare at him, your mind raced.

She was the one that caused all of this, seeing your General in this state made your heart clench. If only she listened to him, or you had been her, your General wouldn't be suffering like that. A deep cough startled you and your gaze got on Aleksander again, he was sick. You rushed towards him, obviously worried. You kneeled before him, putting a hand on his back and the other one on his knee.

"My General, are you unwell? What happened there ?" The shakiness of your voice betrayed you. 

"Flower." He whispered. "I… It's my new power. The nichevo'ya, they're shadow creatures. They defend me when I'm in danger." He locked his eyes into yours, dark and full of fatigue. You felt him drifting off from you. An explosive wave of emotions passed through you when he looked at you. Was it worry? Hatred for the Sun Summoner? Jealousy? Or just everything that you felt for the General was crashing down deep into your being. You gulped, your mind going from one worry to another, then you asked him quietly.

"Is there anything I can do, my General ?" He lowered his head and waited a bit before answering. "I fear that I do not have a solution for my state right now, flower. I just need… The Sun Summoner, Alina…" He stopped himself, what for? You didn't know, but everything collapsed around you. He didn't need you, the nickname he gave you meant nothing. All you could do was make him feel a bit better about this. You'll bring him back Alina, you swore on your life that you'll do anything for him right? Then you'll do it, even though it will hurt more than you admitted. 

You stood up, he looked at you, confusion and worry in his eyes. You tried to compose yourself and explained.

"I swore on my life that I'll do anything for you, General, if you want the Sun Summoner, I'll bring her back to you, even if I have to die trying to." You waited for an answer, an approval, anything, he stayed silent. You finally turned to leave the room, the sound of your steps resonating on the walls. You didn't want to leave, you wanted to stay, but hell seeing him like that hurt. You were about to open the door and leave when he stopped you with his voice.

"Flower. Please." You heard him stand up, and slow steps coming towards you. "You're the only one that can help me right now. Are you rejecting me? Your General ?" You felt tears building up again, you didn't know how you could tell him how you feel, having him obsessing over his Little Saint was so painful. But did you really have your right to speak up about it? You were just a Grisha, like any other Grisha here, you weren't her, yet you wanted to be her. You faced him back, letting your tears drop freely over your cheeks.

"How could I reject you when I'm not even yours, General? I know you need her, and I know I'll never be her, I've accepted it. Let me accomplish this for you, my General." You sounded hurt, exhausted, and deeply in love. He was dangerously approaching you by now, and for the first time in months, or hell maybe even years, he spoke your name. Not calling you Flower, like he loved to, just your name. He whispered it, and it felt so good on his lips. He cupped your face with his hand softly making you look at him, he seemed hurt.

"You don't understand. Yes, she is the Sun Summoner, and yes, I need her for every reason I already told you. But, what she is not, and will never be, is my precious little Flower. And you know who this is right? You, you belong to me, and I belong to you. I'll never deny that I wished you were the Sun Summoner, so we could accomplish everything together." Even with this, you couldn't believe him, your mind repeated to you that you meant nothing to him and that you weren't her. Even with his hand on your cheek, you couldn't let yourself breathe for him.

"Please, General, don't make me hope for something that I'm unworthy of." Something seemed to snap inside him when he heard the word "unworthy". He abruptly put his arm around your waist and pushed your body towards him with his hand on your back. The hurt gaze he wore before turned into something different, into something frightening.

"Do not use this word to qualify yourself, my flower. You are way more than that. You're my most precious Grisha, my most precious ally, and my dear, dear, friend." His words were spilled like tasty poison, so dangerous but yet, so good. You couldn't help but whimper under his touch. You knew how Aleksander could be possessive, but you simply refused to let yourself believe you were in his catalog. 

Hearing you whimper satisfied him, he let a small smile creep on his face, and he slowly buried his face into your neck. "If you don't believe my words maybe I'll need to show you who you belong to, flower." He kissed your neck, making a path towards your jaw, then your lips. He made sure to dry your tears before kissing you, you sighed into him, your arms making their way to his shoulders. You felt helpless whenever he touched you like this, thinking of nothing more but to please him right now, in this room.

He broke the kiss that left you both breathless, he took a moment to look at you, your eyes, your face, lips, jaw, and neck, and he felt you burning for him. He loves the hold that he had on you. "To bed, without your clothes, please." Even if he would love ripping out your kefta from your body, to expose all of yourself to him, he couldn't, he already had to deal with the million layers of his outfit. So he just followed you to the bed, while you were removing your boots, then your kefta, and then everything that went under it. He was getting rid of his clothing too, but getting distracted by how beautiful you looked for him, his hands stopped doing what he originally wanted to do, and your voice interrupted the silence.

"Do you need help, General ?" You were almost fully naked in front of him, a wave of arousal went through his body, making wearing pants uncomfortable. He nodded at you first, then when you were getting rid of his first few layers of clothes he spoke again.

"Please flower, tonight, only call me by my name. Can you do that ?" You eagerly nodded while you were getting rid of his final upper layer, revealing his scarred torso to you. You let your fingers trail on some of them, wanting to kiss every bit of scars he had on his body. He smiled, loving your admiration and worship, he missed it. He took your wrists in his hand and smiled down at you. 

"I know how much you love to worship me, flower, but not yet, you'll do it when I pump my cock deep inside of you. Right now I want to have you at my mercy and show you who this beautiful body belongs to. You hear me ?" You nodded, unable to form more than one word because of his power over you.

"Words, flower." He removed the last bit of clothes that kept you from being naked, exposing you to him. You stuttered "Yes, I understand Aleksander.", that seemed to please him a lot. He pushed you onto the bed, making his way on top of you. He still had his pants on, enjoying the friction of the fabric when his cock was getting bigger with arousal.

"This time it will be me who worships you. I'm going to taste you and make you scream." You whimpered, while he was kissing your neck, making his way painfully slowly toward your breasts. He kissed them softly before trailing down to your stomach, then your hips. He guided you to open your legs for him and found his hands gripping the back of your thighs. He kissed the inside of your thigh before finally making his way to your perfect already wet cunt. You were this wet since the intense kiss you shared earlier, and the more you felt his touch, the more you would be needy for him. 

He first lapped your pussy, to take a taste out of it, then completely buried his face into it. You weren't ready, it's been so long since you felt any kind of pleasure down there, you gasped and moaned, already on the verge of screaming. And he was just getting started? You knew you were about to break under him. The obscene noises of him tasting all of you made your head spin. He was eating you out like he wouldn't be able to do it after. The tip of his nose was making friction with your clit, and his tongue inside of you. He groaned under you, you were delicious, and he would not get over how delicious you tasted. 

Your moans and the noises he made by tasting you filled the entire room. He was almost tongue-fucking you as you felt your release build-up. You struggled to align proper sentences, just letting out the same words, "Saints, please, Aleksander". He loved how his name sounded on your lips when you were about to come for him, but he would be sure to make you scream it. 

"I'm going to make you cum for me, flower. I want you to scream my name when you do. I don't care if anyone hears, they'll just know who you belong to. You're mine, flower."

He then sucked on your clit and took two fingers to pump them inside of you. You screamed at the newfound sensation of his fingers, and your back arched while you were begging for a release. You were so desperate for him and it made his cock ache under the layer of his pants. He wanted to stop right here and bury himself inside of you just to feel you come around him. He sucked your clit even harder and teased your folds with his fingers. His other hand squeezed your thigh as he felt you crumble under his touch. He knew you were close, you were already losing your mind, and the moans you let out were incoherent at this point. 

“I know you’re close, flower, cum for me.” You screamed his name while hanging onto the bed sheets. The heat of your orgasm flew all over your body, your back arched and your legs were trembling. The delicious feeling of your release was overwhelming, you soaked Aleksander’s face. He pulled out his fingers slowly and kissed one last time your clit, then your cunt. He straightened up so you could see his face better, his hair was a mess and he was panting. He crushed his lips onto yours hungrily, making you taste the mix of your juices and his spit. You moaned against him, your hands finding their way to his groin. You stroked the length of his cock through the fabric. You wished he was fully naked right now, so you could feel him completely. He hummed into your lips and helped you get rid of his pants.

He broke the kiss to fully remove his clothes, which was a relief to both of you. He felt uncomfortable with the hard-on he had since he had first kissed you. And you, you wanted to please him, to have the taste of his cock on your tongue, to suck him so good so he could not think about anything else but you. But you knew it wasn't part of the plan today. You saw his cock already so hard and ready to be buried inside you. You bit your lip at the thought of it, you haven't had anyone since he left for the Fold with Alina, and god you missed him.

He went back once he was fully naked to kiss the corner of your lips. "I know what's on your mind, flower. You missed me, haven't you ?" He continued to kiss your cheek, your jaw, and your neck while placing himself between your legs. You felt him lightly stroke the tip of his cock on the opening of your pussy which made you moan. "Oh, Saints, yes I've missed you Aleksander." You felt him smile on your neck while caressing your body until his hands found your hips. He faced you once again and looked at you fondly with his dark eyes. 

He licked his lips, seeing you desperate for him, he knew you were about to beg for him to fuck you. He didn't even wait for you to say a word that he pumped into you. The feeling and the heat of his cock were oddly overwhelming, and you felt you could cum right here. "I'm gonna fuck you so good, my flower." You couldn't help but moan a please, to indicate that you needed him to move. He smiled and started to thrust into you painfully slowly. 

The rhythm he gave was making you feel every inch of his heat inside of you, you were almost trembling. But you wanted more, you begged once again and put your arms around his shoulders. "Please, Aleksander, I need more." Hearing his name falling through your lips while you were begging felt so good. He let out a curse and started to move into you harder and faster. Both of you loved being in each other's arms so you were on the verge of losing your minds.

The room was filled with your moans, the sound of both your skin slapping on each other, Aleksander's light panting while he was thrusting into you, and the obscene wet sounds of his cock going in and out of your soaked cunt. You wanted this moment to last forever, to have Aleksander all for yourself. The sound he made while fucking you was pushing you closer and closer to your release, and he felt it too. "Flower come on my cock with me please ?" You could only nod, overwhelmed by these sensations.

"I want to fill you up, love, can I ?" It was the first time he called you that, you couldn't even process the name you just wanted the both of you to cum. You almost screamed "Yes, please Aleksander.", you were so loud for him, so good to him, you'd never let him go. 

The wave of your orgasm reached you when his thrusts became erratic. Your cunt clenched around him as he finally got the release you seek. You felt his hot seed splashing into you, while he reached to kiss you again while filling you completely. You moaned against his mouth, enjoying everything he gave you. 

"Caspian, please, let me go with you."

He sighed, crossing his arms.

"No, you have to take care of Narnia while i'll be sailing, I can't risk losing my sister."

"Narnia will be fine without us ! Please, I want to see the world Caspian, i'm sick of always being put aside. I want to sail with you, my brother." Once again, he sighed, losing his patience, he directed himself to the door.

"We'll see later Y/N." He then left the room, you sighed in frustration and sat on your bed.

A few months ago…

You were Caspian's younger sister. Princess Y/N of Narnia. Since young age you were overprotected, you hated it. During the war between Telmar and Narnia, you had to run away, leaving Caspian to his duties. You only got back after his coronation, not even being able to meet the Kings and Queens of Old. After these events, you were in need of adventure. Despite the disapproval of the Lords and your brother himself, you learnt how to fight with a sword, thanks to one of your friend.

You trained hard, hoping you could become useful. During a rainy day, you got back early from your training. When you passed close to the meeting hall, you heard your brother and the Lords speaking. You overheard the conversation and froze when you heard your brother speaking again.

"I'll sail to the Lone Islands, I have to find what happened to the friends of my father. I'll let Y/N rule during my absence."

"King Caspian ! She has no experience for ruling a kingdom, you can not just take this decision like this…" One of the Lords interfered. Everything went silent for a short moment.

"She grew up a lot, I trust her." Caspian sighed before continuing.

"Fine we will see later. You can go."

You heard footsteps, meaning that all of the Lords were leaving the room. You were shaken up by the new informations you learnt. You ? Ruling ? You shook your head. No, you needed adventure. You'll be sailing with Caspian, even if it will be hard to convince him.

***

You watched the Dawn Treader from afar, hand on your sword. Caspian will be leaving in a few days. He was busy, so you couldn't talk to him again. You didn't want to give up yet, you wanted to go with him. Either you could try to speak to your brother again, or you could just make your way into the ship. 

"Are you thinking of doing something that could embarrass me, sister ?"

You jumped and immediately turned around. You saw Caspian smiling a bit, next to your horse.

"Caspian… I-"

"You don't need to explain yourself Y/N. I've been thinking a lot of what you told me this day." He made his way next to you.

"I didn't know how you'd feel about everything that happened to us. I've only been thinking about myself, for that i'm sorry." You frowned.

"What are you saying Caspian ?"

"I'm saying that it would be a pleasure to see you being part of the crew."

You froze, without knowing what to say. You stayed silent for a while, then let out a loud "Thank you !", and gave a hug to your brother. He hugged you back before saying.

"You just have to promise me to be careful."

"Of course I will."

***

It’s already been a few weeks since the Dawn Treader left Narnia for the Lone Islands. Everything went well, the crew was nice to you, and you learned a lot of things from everyone. You’ve never felt so free in your life, and you loved this feeling. You were admiring the infinite beauties of the sea, smiling. A loud yell cut you out of your contemplating.

“Man overboard !” You gasped when you noticed three young people swimming close to the ship. Caspian and other men jumped into the water quickly to bring them back. You went into the quarters to pick up some towels. When you got back you saw Caspian who was brightly speaking with the newcomers. You approached them and gave them a towel and handed the last one to your brother.

“Welcome on board !” You smiled. You figured out that they were around your age, the boy maybe a bit older. You looked at the girl next to him, you almost froze at how pretty she was. You almost got yourself lost in your thoughts until you felt a hand on your shoulders. “Edmund, Lucy, here is my younger sister, Y/N.”

You realized while hearing their names, they were King and Queen of Old. You bowed awkwardly and stuttered.

"I-it's a real pleasure to meet you, your majesties." You heard chuckles.

"It's okay Y/N, there's no need for this kind of formalities. Just call us by our names." Lucy smiled brightly while you raised your head. You smiled back, a little flustered. You heard Caspian moving a bit, as he addressed himself to the crew.

"Everyone ! Welcome the newcomers, Edmund the Just, and Lucy the Valiant. High King and Queen of Narnia." Everyone clapped their hands, including you. You never thought you'll have the chance to meet the Kings and Queens of Old, you were happy. 

"Hum, your majes- uh I mean, Lucy, let's get you clean clothes."

She nodded.

"Sure ! Lead the way."

***

Days passed, you and Lucy spent a lot of time together. You didn't know if it was admiration, or anything else, but you sometimes felt flustered when she was close to you. If not, you could say you felt comfortable, safe with her. She told you how she ruled once, in Narnia, how she lived when she was in her world. You didn't know how to name the feeling you had everytime she was around, but it felt right. 

When you both almost got sold as slaves, you were more scared for her than for yourself. You felt even worse when she almost got abducted. You were furious, and afraid something else could happen to her. During Coriakin’s speech you wouldn’t let go Lucy’s hand, still shaken up by the recent events. 

The entire crew got back on the Dawn Treader, the next step was Ramandu’s Island. You had troubles sleeping this night, the sea was agitated, and you were constantly worried for Lucy. You decided to get up, and you noticed Lucy’s bed empty. Your eyes scanned the room, and you finally saw Lucy close the fire, staring at it. You slowly approached her.

“Lucy, are you okay ?” You murmured.

She jumped and looked at you with sad eyes. “Yes… I’m sorry, I couldn’t sleep.” You put your hand on her shoulder.

“You know you can tell me Lucy, if you want to I mean…” She slowly raised her head and looked at you.

“Y/N… Do you think i’m pretty ?” You felt yourself blushing, but she couldn’t see it in the dark. You smiled to her before answering.

“Lucy… Of course you are pretty. You shouldn’t doubt yourself. You’re a Queen, you’re incredible, strong and inspiring. That’s why I lo- like you.” 

She smiled back, and whispered a “Thank you.” before hugging you tight. 

“We should go back to sleep, whatever is happening will drive us crazy, I can feel it.” She broke the hug and you nodded. “I’ll just go see the boys, I’ll be back in a bit.” She left the quarters, leaving you alone. You can not believe you almost told her how you felt. What if she freaked out ? You got back in your bed, with the thought of Lucy smiling to you, and hugging you. You eventually fell asleep a few minutes after, not even thinking of what the future could look like.

And you didn’t expect the future to be that cruel. You were so happy to spend all of your time with Lucy, that you hadn’t thought of her leaving. And here you are, with Caspian, Edmund, Lucy, their cousin, Reepicheep and Aslan. You couldn’t stop the tears while Aslan was speaking. You felt your heart sink shen Lucy came close to you, without saying a word. She opened her mouth but you cut her off by hugging her tight. 

“I don’t want you to go.” Was the only thing you could say between cries. 

“I don’t want to go either Y/N, but I have to.” She broke the hug and caressed your cheek gently.