MadseyRoodles

My brother is 13 years old. He doenst know how to properly use a toilet. Now I know you’re probably thinking that he just leaves pee on the toilet and that’s what all boys do. But no. He leaves poop. Not just on the toilet either. My brother poops about 15 times a day (don’t ask me how) and every time he does he leaves a new surprise for me to find. I commonly find poop smeared across the toilet seat and lid, and have even found it all over the walls multiple times too. He also leaves toilet paper with loads of poop smeared on it all over the floor around the toilet like he just forgets that toilet paper goes in the toilet. And that’s not all. More times that I would like to have experienced he has left FULL ASS TURDS on the bathroom rug across the entire room from the toilet. It’s like just to mess with me he squats over the fucking rug instead of the toilet. And the worst part of all of this is that my mom (who I live with) doesn’t believe me at all. It’s been going on for years and just getting worse becuase she doenst do anything. Whenever I call him in to clean it up becuase I’m not cleaning my teenage brothers poop, my mom yells that I’m a bitch to my brother and a horirble perosn for making him clean up things that aren’t there. She on the tiger hand has never seen any of it becuase either I clean it up or when I call my brother on to clean it she can’t be bothered to come look at it herself to see the facts. Anyways. Thanks for reading all that for me. I needed to write it down somewhere since no one believes me in my life.

I have TMJ. That stands for temporomandibular joint dysfunction. Basically the the joint where my jaw bone meets my cheek is inflamed. Becuase of it I have horrible pain in my ears, jaw, teeth, and sometimes even my entire face.

I was 11 when I got my first period. It lasted only a few days like normal.

The next one I had was 6 months later and it lasted 9 days.

Years went by and my periods came every month, slowly adding days until I got up to two weeks straight of being on my period every time I had one. But I never said anything becuase I thought it was normal for this to happen and that I was one of the people who just had longer periods

Then my periods started becoming irregular. I never knew when my period would come because it could be either a month after I finished my period or it could be two days after I just consumed my period. All through middle and high school if I felt a pain in my stomach my anxiety would shoot through the roof and I would try to rush to the bathroom becuase I was afraid my period had just started

I started wearing pads at all times ‘just in case

It was my sophomore year of high school when I was on the bathroom and decided to check my period tracker on my phone (I used it to see how long my period lasted each time) and that’s when I realized I had been a full month straight of being on my period. That’s the second I knew something was wrong.

I texted my mom right then and there and she immediately made a doctor appontment with me. At age 15 I was finally diagnosed with PCOS. Luckily my doctor knew immediately what was wrong with me and put my on birth control to balance out my hormones and get my body to fix itself.

A couple years later at 18 my blood test shows I have a very high amount of insulin in my body, meaning my pancreas is working over time and producing insulin my body doenst need, and becuase it’s working so hard right now if we don’t find a way to fix it my pancreas will crap out on a few years and I will have diabetes. I now take Metformin. Diabetics take it to help their body create more insulin and get their pancreas to work. I take it to try to stop my pancreas from making insulin.

I am 5’4 and weigh 277 pounds. I work out almost everyday for at least 20 minutes if not more. Last year I walked two miles every single day. I even started trying to eat less than I did and I even eat a bit healthier now. But I never lose weight. I’ve been in the 270s for 3 years now, never going up to 280 but never going down to 260 either. My PCOS makes it hard for me to lose weight no matter what I do. The only time I’ve ever lost weight in my whole life is when I have the flu and can’t eat for a week straight. The diets the doctors recommend me are very expansive and as a broke college student, I can’t afford any of it.

My body gets made fun of by people I know everyday. Whether it’s about my weight or my acne that I can’t stop from forming, or if it’s becuase of the hair I have growing on my stomach and back where it’s not suppose to grow