Abi’s Blog

Idk what I want.

Idk who my friends are.

Idk who likes me.

Idk who hates me.

Idk why I can’t keep friends.

I want to continue college.

But at Iowa State I feel alone.

I feel pressured and sad.

I want to go home.

I want to move to another state.

I want to go somewhere warm!

Yet I want to go somewhere that has a nice 70 degrees.

I’m so lost.

I’m so over marij.

It ruined my life.

However, I made the one friend that I’ll always have and ik he’ll have my back forever.

My babe.

The only person who gets me and supports me through everything.

We’ve had some rocky times but we always come out stronger.

I want to have my own place.

Where I can have my cat.

And my love.

And my family close by.

They always say you turn into your mother.

I love my mom.

I feel like I’m my moms best friend somedays and she’s mine.

I hate people.

There so mean.

I hate my job.

It’s sucks.

I don’t have the time to be there and here and pretend to know what I’m doing.

Somedays I just want to disappear because I already feel like no one loves me.

God somedays I hate myself.

Somedays I wonder how I made it this far.

Idk what I’m saying.

Idk where I’m going with this.

Idk why I can’t make friends.

Idk why I can’t keep friends.

People move on so quickly.

People think I’m weird.

I’m not weird.

People just don’t understand me.

Ik im a bitch.

I just want to be the innocent sweet girl again.

I’m ready to start my new major.

I don’t want to live on the same floor as her.

I can’t stand her.

She’s ruined my life.

She’s so rude and disrespectful to me.

She destroyed me.

Ik what’s good and bad for me.

Ik what’s toxic.

Idk why I’m still typing.

Idk why I’m like this.

Somedays I just feel like I don’t have anyone to talk to.

I’ll stop now.

Tonight the party was too much.

He called the police to help people

The ceiling was falling through

They arrested him

He had a warrant

I’m worried

I can’t help him

There’s nothing I can do but answer the phone when he calls

And that’s that scariest part

Fuck ya