Madison Meadows Poetry

the devilish smile behind your cracked lips reveals there are thorns in your mouth and a loaded gun in your hand. but sweetheart, you forget that my loaded gun is my pen, and if you wanted me to write nice things about you, you should of behaved better.

I cursed, screamed, and cried. I cursed, screamed, and cried some more.

Silence broke and shattered to a million pieces on the bathroom floor.

He loves me, he loves me not. My heart broken, tender, sore.

Today my nephew dropped in, not by accident, but by divine design. His work vehicle broke down on my street! (I live in Phoenix) He is a recovering heroin addict. I am going through a bad divorce. I offer him a beer (it is 104 outside). The beer my dad gave me. I don't drink, but my dad says, "Maybe you'll have company." I thought ya right no one comes to visit me (divorce scares off a lot of your friends and they disappear from your life). But here it was a year and a half has gone by since I last saw my nephew. He tells me he's been clean and I can tell that he is. He confides in me the daily stresses of his life. I listen. No judgement. For the first time in a long time I feel connected to another human being. I'm not thinking about my own suffering. When he left he said, "I've always felt a connection with you." I explained to him that in today's world we want our independence, but we have become emotionally cut off from others. We need to be dependant on each other. We need to feel connected. It's easy to say that's your shit and I don't want to deal with it. But how does that help anyone? #MHM2018

She lays there, Preserving the way of the living. Grief pounding at the door, She mourns no more. -MadisonMeadows

today there was no resolution. today while you sat on the stand, i really saw you for the monster you are. today i asked myself why did i marry him? i had no answer. today i felt sick to my stomach- one lie, after lie, after another lie. the only thing you were honest about was that i ran your business for all those years. sadly today, besides the beautiful children you gave me, i regretted ever marrying you.

the light in the house has changed since you left. speckles of sunlight dance on the ceilings and walls, across the floors. i never noticed before how the shape of light moves until i now have the time to stare at it.  i never noticed how little you did love me until you, without hesitation or remorse, suddenly left with her.

were spent writing

the sands of time

slipping through her fingers

etched in time

on white lined paper

I know you must be wondering what if I see her again? your worried you will feel the surge of the ocean and the burning of the sun. your worried what your friends and family will think. your worried that when you see her again, she will be able to read you like a book and you won't be able to lie to her. you won't be able to hide the fact, that like her, you have always loved her since the first time the both of you met.