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The saxophones are loud but the tune is something I can get with

It’s been so long but it’s happening again except this time I know my power to walk away and not chase and I’m stronger

Coming back is always nice but leaving never gets easier I can see the age on everything clearly now even on myself life’s never gonna stop and nothing stands the test of time but it’s hard to see it take place truly devastating

It’s always the same every time

I’m a fucking god unlike any other

I hate the time line I’ve created right now but I can make it better it’s hard

In the last year I’ve learned more about the things I don’t want than the things I do want and I don’t think that’s a negative thing it’s just shown that there’s more to life than I was letting myself experience hiding behind glorified connections and relationships w people that only wanted the energy I had but couldn’t respect boundaries and my peace this year is a time of peace the war is over

This gives me the same feeling you did and idk if that’s a good feeling anymore cuz my mind can’t see it as anything other than a red flag

I must be able to refill myself before I can refill another person no body can pour into me the way I can pour out as much as I wish they could

I am not for the weak minded

Dude it’s crazy I’m living in Colorado now on a new chapter of life full of growth happiness and self love I’m so excited for life lately it’s strange the last time I was here was not a good time but we’ve come around stay up loves you’re all so beautiful and deserving of everything

I’ve had a lot of moments that felt like passing under an overpass in the rain but I’ve only had 1 moment it was like the sky’s cleared and the sun came out but who holds the ability for that can I make those moments myself or does it only come from the temporary bliss of other people

I used to think you took my ability to calm the sea then I realized I was just making waves

It’s not my place to ask if they want keep the betrayal in the dark let them I won’t pretend to not see in the shadows

I’m isolating myself once this over

I can’t be around you anymore I’m sorry it’s painful and you constantly remind me how I’m not good enough