Angry Bat

im kidding, but it got me thinking about how obscure my language actually is, and maybe i should be a little more proud of it

so! here's seven words for you, love, a word for every month ive loved you.

“għagħa” (common noun – pronounced, literally, 'aaaaaa'): mob/crowd/a lot of noise [very fitting, it's the noise i make whenever i see a crowd].

“iħirsa” (common noun, plural – pronounced 'ee-hir-sah'): ghosts, spectre, phantom watchers.

“bewsa” (common noun – pronounced 'beh-wsa'): kiss.

“ħabib” (common noun – pronounced 'ha-beeb'): friend, companion.

“jiddispra” (verb – pronounced 'yid-diss-prah'): conjugated, means to despair. [i often find myself doing this].

“Ġaħan” (proper noun – pronounced 'jah-hahn'): a word derived from a popular character in maltese storytelling. potentially taken from arabic stories. used to refer to a stupid or gullible person, as ġaħan was in stories. the most popular one is called 'ġaħan u l-bieb', meaning 'ġaħan and the door'. i can elaborate on that in a later post if i ever feel like it lol.

“żejża” (common noun – pronounced 'zey-zah'): boobie :))

Do I miss some foods I can't eat anymore without getting sick? Sure, but that's not what really bothers me. What bothers me is being excluded from a huge portion of human social life of which food is a crucial component. What bothers me is the stress and social stigma of trying to figure out what I can safely eat. What bothers me is the amount of extra work and cost that is required of me to identify, obtain, and prepare safe foods. What bothers me is people treating my needs like a nuisance, as though I chose to be like this - as though their brief inconvenience to check an ingredients list is unreasonable, when I deal with this every day of my life forever.

I don't miss the food that much. I miss not having to worry about what I eat. I miss freedom. I miss when trying new foods and new restaurants was fun instead of a minefield. I miss not having to plan my entire life around the need for safe foods.

“It’s tempting to assume”: someone’s assumption is about to be criticized

The first photo is a brown horse galloping fast with a slight blur to indicate the speed. There is a mountain in the background and the whole image has a bright lens flare to give it an energetic glow. At the top of the image is text saying “How I feel when I wake up with less symptoms than normal”

The second photo is an exhausted white horse collapsed on the ground in front of a barn. In the horse’s mouth there is a sign that reads “I am NOT dead just tired & ugly. Please let me sleep” The word “not” is underlined for emphasis.

how about this: when i was 9 and my stepdad beat me until i passed out and i told my friends at school, my teacher over heard and i was interviewed by cps. they also went to my house when i was at school. when i got home, my step father was waiting on the couch, and told me who visited him that day. he told me if i ever snitched again he would beat me to within an inch of my life.

how about this: my mother locked me out of the house when i was 14 and when i cried so loud the neighbors called the cops, the cop told me i should have been respectful of my mother who was trying to sleep.

how about this. the demon you know is less scary than the demon you don’t.

children in abused households are raised to fear the idea of being taken away. children in abusive households see that help makes things worse.