A little poem I wrote after a rough night <3
A million thoughts race through my mind tonight
A million different unique categories for each and every one of them
Sitting here
Music whispering softly through my headphones
Paired with a light shade of a soothing purple to calm my racing thoughts
A hub and mix perfection, anxiety, hyperawareness, school, sleep, gymnastics, her
All of them hitting certain spots in my mind
Soft spots that still need repairing,
Probably won’t sleep all that well tonight
Considering the caffeine I just consumed to soother my shaking hands
As I stretch out my legs
I prepare for a long night of self distraction
From the pressures and many daunting aspects of my fucked up life
Except for one
One very special fragment just for me
Her.
Every Breath she takes in my mind
Is comparable to perfection
She is the sun that creeps out of the corner of my 2nd grade painting
Oh how I hate to disappoint her
How much I despise that I care very deeply for her opinions and thoughts
No one has mattered to me quite in the way she has
The vulnerability she coaxes out of me is baffling
And how she manages to put up with me?
I shall never know the full truth to this quaint query
3/12/21
A date I will treasure forever
A date I will never forget paired with a person I will never forget
Where my mind goes to on a stormy night
Who I think of when I am in desperate need of a savior
She is what gets me though nights where
A million thoughts perpetuate my mind.
I don’t expect anyone to see this just wanted to share :)
