Whatever.... Whenever

I quit my job to protect my mental health without another job lined up and I'm holding onto a man who I'm unclear how he feels about me. It honestly feels safe, even though it hurts me at the same time, chasing after him. I really struggle with building romantic connection so this space I'm in is comfortable tbh, it protects me from vulnerability and rejection...

Anyway, I'm proud that I'm now able to tell people that my mum passed away without this wave of sad emotions ending up in me avoiding talking about it all together. It only took 3 years haha.

There's so much uncertainty in my future and I might never get the "family" that I wanted but I have to keep living and not just feel sorry for myself. I have friends and family that love me and I'm healthy and for that, I'm grateful.