Maan

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Grabe. Na-miss ko ulit mag-blog. Last year [2018], July na noong last ako mag-post ng blog dito sa Tumblr. This school year, hindi na talaga ako naging active dito. Unlike the past school year, palagi kasi ako noong nasa ICT center (on the third floor of the University library) kaya nakakapag-blog pa ako noon ‘pag may time. Ngayon, hindi na ako pala-punta doon due to some reasons na rin kasi most of the time, nasa college lang namin ako every school day. Hindi na ako lakwatsera sa campus katulad dati na nakakarating pa ako sa kadulu-dulan ng campus namin. By the way, I am now on my third school year under BSE Program pero ika-apat na school year ko na ito sa college dito sa CBSUA (‘yung batchmates mo noong high school na ‘graduating’ na ngayon pero ikaw, ‘gradwaiting’ pa awts). #5YEARSisREAL

Last Sunday, I visited my blog here on Tumblr after a long time of no visiting it. Natuwa ako sa mga post ko before kasi detailed talaga ‘yung pag-share ko ng mga naging class activities namin na medyo nakakalimutan ko na rin. I was like, “WOW! Parang hindi ako busy noong mga panahong ito at kinarir ang pagba-blog.” Excited ako noon kasi bago palang ‘yung blog ko, ngayon 15 months old na ‘to. Actually, ‘yun naman talaga ang purpose ng blog na ito kung bakit ito ginawa - to share my college life here since the day I created this blog in October 2017. Wala lang, trip ko lang. Hanggang ngayon, pasado pa rin naman sa akin ‘yung pag-ayos ko ng blog na ito kaya sa palagay ko, permanent na ‘yung ‘itsura ng blog ko kung ano ito ngayon. Napagod rin ako kaka-ayos ng blog na ‘to kaya tama na ‘to. Naku-cutean pa rin naman ako (oo, sariling compliment tutal ako naman ‘yung may kagagawan ng blog na ‘to).

About my college life this school year… Mas challenging na mas masaya. Mas challenging kasi mas mataas na rin ‘yung level of difficulty ng requirements, ‘yun bang parang teacher ka na sa mga paperwork na need gawin pero mas masaya kasi mas natututo ako at mas nakikilala ko pa ‘yung field ng pagtuturo, pero akala ko talaga noon, before this school year opened, mas madali na compared to the previous school years kasi ‘kako, walang PE na (kasi sa wakas, nakumpleto ka na ‘yung PE 1-4). Weakling ako sa PE, aminado naman ako doon na medyo mahina ako (medyo lang kasi malakas-lakas pa rin naman ako kahit papaano) sa physical activities lalo na noon sa PE 4 namin, volleyball. Grabe, medyo pumayat ako noon kaka-takbo at nagkaka-pasa kada praktis namin ng volleyball kasi ‘di naman nga ako palalaro ng volleyball. Medyo nakakamiss din ‘yun pero ayokong ulitin na. Hahahahaha. Pero ‘yun nga, mas mahirap pala ‘pag nasa 3rd year na. Uma-absent na nga ako noong finals last sem kapag kulang na talaga ako sa time na tapusin ‘yung mga requirements. #GalawangCarefreeCollegeStudent #GirlProcrastinationPaMore #SleepIsLove

Ngayon, we’re on our second semester for this school year pero unahin ko na munang i-kuwento ‘yung mga naging ganap noong first sem (mga panahong halos 100% akong walang paramdam dito sa Tumblr na feeling ko dahil na rin sa ‘aging’, yikes! 19 years old pa ako noong last time na nag-post ako dito, 20 years old na ako ngayon and this is my first post as an ADULT). Share ko lang *winks*. Mahaba-haba ‘to, all-in-one post na ito.

Last sem, masaya. Mas nakaka-stress pero mas na-enjoy ko kasi sa sem na ito natutong mag-lesson plan at gumawa ng DLL. Ilang beses din kaming nagdemo-teaching pero tumatak talaga sa akin ‘yung nag-DT kami sa freshman classes. I had my DT in the class of BSFT frosh. Ang pangit ng aura ko noon, now ko lang na-realize. ‘Yung nagmumukha akong masungit pero toinks, yawkona ulitin. Ewan ko ba sa sarili kong “strategy”, palpak! Hahahaha. Hindi ko na uulitin, pramis. Imbes na magmukha kang demo-teacher, nagmukha ka tuloy matandalang dalaga na mayordoma. Hahaha. Tapos da best ‘tong sem na ‘to kasi since we’re BSE English studes, required kaming mag-’spoken in dollars’ sa klase. Noong una, medyo awkward kasi ‘di naman kami talaga mga Englishero’t Englishera sa klase pero noong tumatagal ka, kinarir na namin. Ang cute nga ng mga kaklase ko na G na G sa klase na mag-Englishan. Feeling ko nasa abroad ako ka hit nasa CBSUA kami. Hahahaha.

Sayang lang kasi hindi na nga ako masyado pala-blog. Naging silent ako-- hindi pala silent, absent nga pala ako dito sa Tumblr noon kaya ayun, hindi ko tuloy nai-post ‘yung mga nakakatuwang moments ko noong last sem. Sa Facebook account ko (‘yung given account dito sa blog), minsan lang ako mag-update. Mga 1-4 posts every month na lang pero lagi akong naka-FB, silent nga lang often.

We had ten subjects last sem. Normally, ten subjects naman talaga every sem sa BSE Program. Every subject, every class din ‘yan of course.

Sa Teaching of Literature namin, naalala ko ‘yung may kaklase kami na nag-demo siya tapos may group activity na gagawin. Naalala ko ‘yung scenario ng group namin na gaganap akong depressed na tao na tatalon mula sa pinakataas ng building (awkward akong tawaging rooftop ‘yung sa taas ng building hahahaha)… basta matino naman kaming nag-act, dun lang sa part na… ay, ewan. Hahahaha. Hindi ‘yung tema ang ewan, ‘yung acting lang namin sa last part ‘yung ewan, ‘yung kami na lang dalawa ng ka-grupo kong lalaki. Ewan din kasi ako nung mga time na ‘yun.  Advanced kasi ako mag-isip kaya nagmukha tuloy unrealistic ‘yung scenario. Fast forward kuno ‘yun (palusot!).

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TING! (‘ting’ talaga eh noh?)

*Maan’s mental bulb lights up*

Nakaka-alala ulit..

Ta’s ‘eto pa!

Sa klase namin, same classmate pa rin. S’ya nag-demo noong time na ‘to, about sa-- wait, ano ba topic niya? Ah, ‘yung Types of Sonnet. ‘Yung Shakespearean sonnet ‘yung isa ta’s ‘yung isa naman, nakalimutan ko na, Petrarchan ‘ata, ay ewan. Basta nag-uumpisa sa letter ‘P’, as in Papa ‘P’, Piolo Pascual. ‘Yung group namin, gumawa ata ng poem. “WRITERS” ‘yung grupo namin noon pero ituu talaga naalala ko, tawang-tawa ako noon sa kaklase ko na kasama sa “ACTORS” ‘ata (oo, puro ‘ata kasi medyo ‘di ko na maalala ‘yung buong ganaps). Pulubi ‘yung role niya noon, tawa kami lahat kasi kahit ‘di siya nagpapatawa pero wala eh, hagalpak kami ng tawa kasi bagay ‘yung role niya sa kanya. Ang galing niya, seryoso. Siya nagdala sa grupo nila. Wala, share ko lang kasi naalala ko. During mid-terms ata namin ito. 

There was an assessment kasi sa klase namin that measured our level of competency in demo-teaching. Nakapag-demoteaching na ako noon (pero ‘di naman demo-teaching ‘yung ginawa ko). Siyempre, nung mga time na ‘to, parang bago pa lang kami as 3rd year BSE students and I admit na hindi ako ganun ka-competent sa demo-teaching kasi noong second year kami sa BSE, more on reporting pa talaga kami. Nangangapa pa ako kung paano ba mag-demoteach at gumawa ng lesson plan. Nafu-frustrate nga ako noon kasi hindi pa ako marunong mag-lesson plan kaya naman, I was so eager to learn the hows kasi ‘yun naman talaga ‘yung gusto kong matutuhan ‘pag 3rd year ko. Actually, I was the first one to do the demo-teaching during this assessment. Ang lakas ng loob kong mag-present kahit may mga mas magagaling pa sa akin. Wala eh. Para ba matapos na. Nininerbyos na ‘ko non sa upuan. Sabi ko, wakasan ko na ‘to, magpe-present na ako.

Sa ginawa ko at sa naging observation ng aming prof, doon ako mas natuto kung ano pa ba ‘yung dapat kong baguhin at i-improve. Masaya ako kahit nagmukhang reporting ‘yung presentation (kasi nga, ‘di pa ako marunong noon) pero marami akong na-realize. Ngayon, I demo-teach far better than how I did before. Nag-improve ako. ‘Yun naman talaga ang dapat kasi ayokong nagpo-proceed ako sa next level na hindi nag-iiprove. Mahirap ibagay ang sarili sa curriculum.

Basta maraming ganap. ‘Pag nasa gan’tong punto na mahaba na itina-type o ini-encode, tinatamad na ako. It was the time that I fully accepted the fact that I will become a teacher in the future that’s why I am willing to push myself to the limit, matuto lang talaga kahit minsan, nakaka-pressure.

Ngayon sa second sem, okay naman. Next week, midterm exam na namin and I am afraid na baka hindi ko maipasa lahat ng exam kasi sa ibang subjects, wala akong notes. I wish na matapos ko na lahat ng requirements this week para maka-review na ako. Hindi ako maka-review kapag may pending requirements pa.

I can’t promise this time that I will be active again dito. Sinadya ko rin talagang hindi maging active sa pagba-blog for the past six months kasi gusto ko lang mas mag-focus pa sa acads but I was trying before to be active but I decided to focus muna. I decided to allocate most of my time sa pag-aaral kasi the curriculum is not getting easier at kailangang bigyan ko talaga ng atensyon para naman maka-graduate din ako on time at hindi ako bumagsak. Nag-aaral ako sa kolehiyo na mayroong 1-year extension kaya inaayos ko talaga pag-aaral ko. I am not saying na nakaka-distract ang pagba-blog kaso ayoko namang magpost ng kung ano-ano lang dito kasi ayoko namang balahurain ‘to but I wish na may time ulit ako for blogging. Ngayon, naglaan ako ng time even though I could use this time to write reflections sa dalawang major subjects namin. Na-miss ko rin kasi mag-blog.

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Kagagaling ko lang d’yan this afternoon with a girl friend.

My girl friends, J and I. Reunited during barangay fiesta. Apat dapat pero nasa Manila ‘yung isa. It was good to be with them again. :)

Photos taken at J’s family house.

Thank God, it was a relief na nabawasan na rin ‘yung mga dapat asikasuhing requirements sa acads since nakagawa na at nakapasa on time.

HAHAHAHA. Hayy

I’ve been busy these past few weeks after the centennial celebration.

Last week, practice sa Volleyball for PE plus preparation for requirements to do and exam. 

I have a hard-time budgeting time properly and it’s a challenge to me to do a load of paperwork as an Education student.

‘Pag sophomore pala sa program na ‘to, there you’re gonna make a portfolio, term paper, bill proposal, LAP, info graphics and such.

Mahirap s’ya for me kasi I have no laptop or PC sa bahay and wala ding internet shop nearby. I have to go to the town to rent a computer during weekends or free day (time consuming and magastos kasi you have to prepare pa to travel tapos instead na magagawa mo na ‘yung outputs sa gabi, you have no choice but to wait for the next day para makagamit ng computer na ire-rent pa) plus ‘yung costs pa for printing stuff and contribution sa group projects.

Tough!

Kaya grabeng achievement para sa akin na makagawa at makapasa ako ng requirements on time at may quality na gawa.

Nakapasa na ako ng tatlong requirements at na-take up ang finals exam sa apat na subjects.

Medyo relax-relax na ako nang konti neto. 

Maybe, a week or two pa na magiging busy ako. Kailangan talaga. No time for procrastination. Mahirap na at baka magka-incomplete kaya dapat kilos-kilos na.

So that’s all for now.

16 March 2018. CBSUA’s 100th year of existence. We are celebrating its centennial anniversary with the theme “Celebrate the Farmer, Celebrate Life”. 

Program of activities on the day of centennial anniversary.

This was the cutest thing I saw in the university during the centennial week. I never expected to see this in real life. Akala ko, sa monitor ko lang ‘to makikita. Nakakatuwa. Super cute!

3 DAYS TO 100 YEARS.

13 March 2018, Tuesday.

I and a close friend who’s a Soil Science major enjoyed the afternoon as we took photos in the campus.

In front of CBSUA Auditorium.

Would like to share here my photos of the booths during the event.

Booth of Organic Agriculture Development Program (OADP)

I like the big stuffed eggplant there. So adorable!

Booth of Environmental Management Office (EMO)

I love these arts. Gawa ang mga ito sa recycled materials that became beautiful products.

Booth of the Department of Agricultural Engineering (DAEn)

The Guyabano Pulper, beside IG, was invented by Engr. C, a graduate of CBSUA and the 2015 AELE Topnotcher - my idol when I was still studying agricultural engineering.

This booth was managed also by my former classmates in engineering.

Wedding Booth by the Bachelor of Agricultural Technology students.

On my three academic years in the univ, I was so excited seeing a wedding booth finally. Sabado pa lang (two days before the centennial week started), nakita ko silang nag-aayos na ng booth na ito. 

Maganda. Ang daming nagpi-picture dito kasi ang ganda ng arrangement.

BOOTHS.

Mini-version ng Bulkang Mayon by the students of BS Agriculture major in Soil Science students. 

Makikita ito sa booth nila. Nawili ako masyado sa mini-bulkan nila kaya ‘di ko na napicturan ‘yung booth nila. 

[HI, KUYA E! Patawarin mo ako pero like na like ko ang picture na ito. HAHAHAHAHA. Ang ganda na sana, eh. Pero mas gumanda pa lalo. HAHAHAHA]

(Natatawa talaga ako, eh. LOL for real)

I asked him about this volcano kasi may twist, eh. 

May usok ‘yung bulkan. Ta’s naamoy ko. Amoy-kalboro.

ME: (tinanong ko s’ya for confirmation) Ano ‘to? *turo sa usok na paubos na HAHAHAHAHA*

Him: Calcium carbide.

(I was like “naku naman, ginamitan na naman tayo ng scientific terms ng koya n’yo)

ME: ‘Yung common name. HAHAHA (para madaling ma-gets)

Him: Kalburo. HAHAHAHA

(Ayun naman pala. Edi tama nga ako)

Sabi ko pa, “Ba’t itim? ‘Di ba, dapat blue or green ang bulkan?”

Sagot n’ya, “Sumabog kasi”. So lava yung nasa paligid. Naku, pati pala ‘yung mini-version, hindi din kalmado. Gayang-gaya nga ‘yung bulkan sa Albay.

Ang ganda ng nakaisip ng gan’yang ideya. Hindi ko na naitanong kung sino nakaisip. Ang galing sa totoo lang.

‘Yung iba namang booths, nagsasara na since pagabi na rin kasi noon.

Her turn naman to have a pic with this cutie thing. Captured by yours truly.

Inside the CBSUA Auditorium, first floor. Taking photos with the university logo - the most beautiful thing in the university.

Lights.

This is beautiful. A figure of a woman made by agriculture students.

Closing of the booths. Gabi na kasi.

Nice.

Creativity at its finest. Took photos of these before we leave the univ.

Happy 100 years, my dear CBSUA! ♥♥♥

By the way, I also saw this one that time. Malakas talaga paniniwala ko na may billboard version ng list of centennial activities. I love this!

 2 DAYS TO 100 YEARS.

14 March 2018, Wednesday.

It was a normal day for me. I was waiting for my father to fetch me that time when I took this photo. Katatapos lang ng second subject for that morning. I was one of the last reporters na nagpresent sa klase namin.

ONE DAY TO 100 YEARS

Nawala sa isip ko na kunan ko ulit ng picture yung countdown. Wala na kaming mga pasok noon. That morning, may inasikaso lang ako kaya tanghali na rin noong nakarating ako ng school at ‘di ko nadaanan ‘to.

But I saw these before I entered the univ. Nakakatuwa lang. Marami ‘yan. ‘Yung part lang kinuhanan ko ng pic kasi mahabang-mahaba yung fence ng univ, ‘di kasya sa digicam ta’s nakatawid na kasi ako nood ng hi-way. Haha

That afternoon, may parade sa univ. I was with block mate AA when we watched. Nagparade yung mga majorettes and bands from the different campuses of CBSUA.

Then afternoon, we went to Freedom Sports Complex (600 meters away from the univ according to Google Maps) at doon nagpractice/naglaro kami ng Volleyball with my classmates, former classmates and a friend of friend. 

After noon, umuwi na rin ako when I reached the trike stop nearby the univ.

As a student of CBSUA, masaya ako na I was given this opportunity to experience this kind of once-in-a-century celebration. I’m happy and proud for CBSUA.

It was 2015, the year I graduated in high school, when I started studying here for college education and masasabi ko na I have the best college and best course because of this university.

HAPPY CENTENNIAL ANNIVERSARY, Central Bicol State University of Agriculture!

12 March 2018 at CBSUA CDE Reading Center. Attended the Book Launching with my blockmates.

GAPO is a Bicol term that when translated in Tagalog, it means “bato”.

We met the Bicolano writers and I took a photo of Mr. Elbert O. Baeta, the author of the book. He was a former instructor in the univ and in present, he’s pursuing his Master’s degree at University of Santo Tomas in Manila.

I decided to buy a book of him to have his signature on its first page. This is my simple way to show my appreciation and support on Bicolano works. 

Then, I got this message:

3/12/18

Para ki Maan

Magsurat, mamoot!

Padagos sana

- Bert

[ Para kay Maan

Magsulat, magmahal!

Patuloy lang

- Bert ]

ISAW. 

Pagkarahay Arts Camp and Festval 2018 on February 24-35, 2018

Ganda ng mga ginawa nila. Nabigyan ng buhay ang dating walang kulay. Naks!

I get hurt, too. I don’t know if people who hurt me were aware of it. Worse, others of them hurt me the way a special person did to me that makes me cry when I get home because of the same pain that’s hurting my heart again.

At this age, somehow I become more mature than before and I’m convinced with this fact already. In spite of the pain they caused me, I still get to understand them. Puwede na ba ‘kong maging santa? (biro lang)

If I would message people that are insensitive with other’s feelings, I want you to know (in case you didn’t know yet) that being nice won’t make your life shorter. Every individual has their own pain secretly being felt inside everyday, don’t let them suffer more. Be more understanding. Not all people can reach your expectations, not all of them could please you. They are different, too. I hope everyone of us could be more understanding with each other’s beliefs, opinions, and principles.

Remember that you have also your flaws. You don’t have the right to hurt others especially just because of your misunderstanding and selfishness and insensitivity.

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I want to say sorry if I didn’t reach your expectations on me. I really do. I’m also sad knowing that I made people in my life disappointed. I’m tired. I’m tired pleasing and living my life on your expectations. I have my own, too, on myself. I am still working on progress so please bear with me. I am not as great as Dr. Jose Rizal. I’m still an average and simple individual with her own dreams.

I am not depressed, ha. I thank God for that. It’s just that I am sad right now and I have no person to talk about this but thanks to my blog. 

I got touched just awhile ago. I was about to use a GIFs when I read this (sg below) first before the appearance of the results. Tumblr made me feel lighter because of it. Thank you. ♥

Everything’s okay. Nothing to worry about. I’m a woman, right? A strong and independent woman, too, like them.