𝔐𝔬𝔯𝔟𝔦𝔡𝔩𝔶 𝔜𝔬𝔲𝔯𝔰

i miss my moots but i keep forgetting my pw for this account to log in regularly

just so anyone who follows me and cares ive moved primarily to my second blog (it is mostly a vent blog) so ill be mostly active there. their are tags to block if you dont wanna see certain topics but you wanna interact. you can dm for the user if u want

i have so much cleaning to do before i leave here. not gonna be fun in this heatwave

someone kill me. chronic illness sucks. i hope they legalise assisted death here soon

having bad health episodes. have had 4 seizures today and food is making me sick so im just gonna lie on the sofa until the room stops spinning

is searching for your forever name difficult for anyone else? i feel like ive been living as placeholder names since i realised i wasnt cis.

been offline for a while cause ive been through some stuff so my activity will be very scattered

just gonna say it now that if you get triggered by my posts im very sorry but you can block or unfollow me cause atp im constantly in an episode or dissociated and forget tw alot i will try but i also dont wanna get my acc flagged and taken down again.

i could grab my switch dock and play minecraft downstairs till morning (so i can stay up late and sleep through the day to fast for longer) or i can try sleep at a normal time and hope my mum actually goes to work tmr and i can get drunk and smoke tmr in the day (with the risk i binge again).

need to redo my intro at some point cause im lowkey bored of the current one and feel like i could do better

i dont wanna leave the house anymore. i just wanna stay here and rot until i die. im just making problems.

i wish i blacked out that night so i wouldnt have to keep reliving it. i feel guilty and ashamed. i know that i wasnt in my right mind being drunk and in a bad episode but i also feel like i made everything so much worse

finally awake. shits gone so wrong. im covered in bruises and scraps. the police manhandled me into their van. the hospital was so slow that i just walked out. my mum is forcing me to go to the doctors with her and called the therapist place. my family probably know too much about it all now. im actually so fuckin miserable now.

i walked out of the er and my mum eventually drove m home. everythings out npw. may bw fucked.