moonchild

Wait for someone who says, “Holy crap, how did I get so lucky?” when you walk in the door, absolutely exhausted from work at 6pm after being married for 30 years. Wait for that, it’s more than worth it.

so I learned. to not call them your best friend unless they think of you the same way. to not try to pry a friendship that has faded too far. to not attempt to fit into a group that they love more than you. to not act like you care about them. because in reality, if they are not trying to sustain the loving and caring closeness that once existed 2 years ago, it’s time to let go. and so I learned. that it’s too late to try. that we once were the greatest of friends. but now I just stand back in loneliness. unnoticed. and unwanted.

I loved her not for the way she danced with my angels, but for the way the sound of her name could silence my demons.