ℌ𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐑𝐘.

the red on fingers & mouth long - since dried; he has watched lewis's lifeless body for the better part of the day, morning sun peeking carefully through worn curtains. waiting, praying. i am the resurrection & the life. whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live. [ 𝐉𝐎𝐇𝐍 𝟏𝟏:𝟐𝟓-𝟐𝟔 ] ( does the angel's blood work through you as it does me? will you tread the same journey? ) ❛❛ lewis — ❜❜ words fail where brain remains clouded, as lines blur & the angel's voice has gone silent. still, he tries: ❛❛ you'll — you'll be okay. . . i know it doesn't feel that way right now. are you awake? ❜❜

the sun past set, lowered behind water's expansive edge — & john paces the pews of st. patrick's, restless. fervent prayers spilling from lips, 'till the heavy church doors begin to squeak open. heart skips a beat, expecting another holy call. for the lamb in the midst of the throne will be their shepherd, & he will guide them to springs of living water. ❛❛ welcome — ❜❜ he musters, words plainly strained. sweat beaded on brow & hair out of place, barely a smile offered. ❛❛ to st. patrick's. i'm sorry, i — i wasn't expecting anyone this late. . . ❜❜ & god will wipe away every tear from their eyes. [ 𝐑𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝟕:𝟏𝟔-𝟏𝟕 ]

yes!!!!! i'm sorry for the ugly mobile post but yes!! millie Absolutely moved on first imo, especially because even at the end of the show — when everything is coming to a close and john realizes he's in the wrong — she still holds firm to the notion that they were in love, yes, but ultimately an ill-timed affair that never would've worked for either of them. even despite john's misguided beliefs otherwise (aka the i would've taken this collar off dialogue). i think it was less of her wanting more/him not giving that, but kind of the opposite: john wanted to be with her and was willing to give up everything to be a family, millie on the other hand knew that doing such a thing would ruin both of them (priest breaking his vows/wife cheating on her husband/etc). so i think she moved on, but john clung to the idea of what they could've been.