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So woke my sister was giving me her boyfriend’s old records but said he wouldnt let her give me one bc the singer is a rapist and he ‘doesnt need the lecture’
If i were to post a poll about which of my books you’d prefer for me to next read and do my ‘100-page reviews’ about (or 200-page reviews for longer books), would you answer it?
I just… need a little guidance. I always decide what book to read next and change my mind
I find it so funny when person from [group] makes a comedic post about the things [group] is into and an asshole rbs it like ‘omg this is literally what people from [group] sound like!!’ Like yeah. Person from [group] said it?
I find it so funny when person from [group] makes a comedic post about the things [group] is into and an asshole rbs it like ‘omg this is literally what people from [group] sound like!!’ Like yeah. Person from [group] said it?
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Im 200 pages into Hannibal and Thomas Harris continues to make me incredibly uncomfortable when reading his books
The books are not ones i would recommend lightly, for sure. But i do love his prose so so deeply. Chapter 21 is written so beautifully. He is taking the reader by the hand and going ‘let me show you something’ and is giving you a proper guided tour.
Its a lot more of a visceral moment to me than any of the violence has been because it is really intimate yet detached, less like an omnipotent god looking from overhead and more like Thomas Harris is an observer in the room itself who’s recounting it to you in incredible detail. Especially since he writes Hannibal Lecter’s dialogue in a very similar manner to how he writes in prose.
My friend is currently reading Red Dragon and describes his writing as if he actually knows these people and is talking about them with the intimacy of a friend.
Tw for racism, csa, and gore.
Cw for me bitching.
I wish i could speak as kindly about the violence in this book, and its presentation of racial minorities. Had it been left at Mason Verger victimising black children, i could perhaps stomach it as a point on Mason going after the most vulnerable people he possibly can, using his age, social standing and race as means to be superior and hold power over another person. However as the book continues with less than favourable representations of people of colour, that dampens the implications of Mason’s behaviour because it becomes muddled in the author’s overall brutalising of his non-white cast.
Pazzi’s sacrificing of Rromani thieves without seemingly any willingness of the text to acknowledge the implications of this is very uncomfortable and prevalent as well. I can accept depiction ≠ endorsement, and i can accept characters will, as a result, behave in ways that are unsavoury or bigoted. But i do not think it’s ever really expressed that the author understands that Pazzi is behaving with bigotry, or that the race of Romula and Gnocci do play a role in how interactions — such as pretending to pickpocket someone — might play out.
No, people will likely not assume a mother with a baby is a pickpocket, but that changes when said mother and baby are Rromani, especially in europe.
Even the non-racialised violence is incredibly uncomfortable, and though i do enjoy uncomfortable gore, there has to be some perception of purpose to it. A lot of the gore in this book so far just feels like it’s built to make you want to put the book down. I don’t find that compelling. Which sucks because Thomas Harris has done very good, and does do very good in other parts of this book, when it comes to making you feel the real discomfort and threat of physical violence. But… nah. Here’s a guy preparing a meal for pigs. Just animal meat, some fruit, a little bread. Written in a way to yuck you out but it doesnt contribute jack until the very end, and the horror doesn’t come in human-shaped meat feasts, or anything really physical.
The same impact of that scene, bar the vomit induction, could have been achieved by them being fed anything. In fact i might find it more ominous if they were having a normal meal to the soundtrack of human screams. Y’know the whole concept of forcing people to find familiarity in a scene of horror.
I just think… shock and horror are two different sensations to draw out of someone. And poorly-done shock can feel very very cheap. So far it has been feeling a little too cheap for my impossibly high standards.
In another universe Taylor is still a freak but he never got the balls to actually kill anyone so he’s just some scrawny 4chan loser who posts kink textposts on tumblr.
Lwk can’t STAND when people say “oh moose are evil” or “orcas are evil” or basically any animal is evil because just no?? They are animals following their instincts and you can’t hold animals to our moral standards as humans
Human morality only applies to humans, not only because its a social concept but because its a social concept born out of our own survival instincts.
We deem killing or mistreating one another as immoral because we are social creatures who benefit from living in large, happy and healthy groups. Our survival instincts drive us to keep our groups as large, happy and healthy as possible, and so we are put off by the concept of hurting one another. It then becomes socially discouraged, and then becomes seen as immoral.
Animals do not have the same instincts as us or even understand the concept of widely-enforced social behaviour like we do. Because they’re animals. Even when they’re acting out of ‘malice’ ( harming other animals for their own amusement and not some need more tangible like hunger - though amusement is still a need ) they DO NOT have a frame of reference why hurting other animals is bad, just the positives they themselves gain from it. We have empathy because it benefits us to have empathy, they do not.
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