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𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘢𝘵 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘭𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘰𝘸𝘯

𝘎𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘨𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯, 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘰𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴

𝘉𝘳𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯, 𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩

𝘐𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦, 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘪𝘵

𝘈𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘴𝘢𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐'𝘮 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶

𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘰 𝘪𝘯𝘷𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥, 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘵𝘩

𝘐'𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘵, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘳𝘺

𝘉𝘳𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯, 𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩

𝘐𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦, 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘪𝘵

Can't see the bottom but I'm floating here, supported

I know that it can take me even deeper if I let it

But my limbs are trying to swim away

And it's pulling me back to earth to let me know

I am not a slave, can't be contained

So pick me from the dark and pull me from the grave

And even blood couldn't find who you are at the center

Could it be that you're more than the scars on the surface

As the heat is beneath all the ash of the embers

I'm seeing every empty page

But I find that everything I am is everything I should be

But I don't need to run away

This hidden gold in dried up streams

I'll grow in this discovery

And rest in what it'll bring

For now, I will stay alive

But I'm still not sure if fear's a rival or close relative to truth

Either way it helps to hear these words bounce off of you

The softest echo could be enough for me to make it through

Know I’ll keep moving

I feel my heart pounding

Why haven't you found me yet?

I hold you so proudly

Traumas, they surround me

I wish you'd just love me back

You look so misunderstood

And I wish I could help

But it's hard when I hate myself

Pray to God with my arms open

If this is it then I feel hopeless

And I wish I could help

But it's hard when I hate myself

And I know it hurts knowing that I carry this weight on my chest

Making it difficult for me to open up and connect

Lot of regrets, I apologize for all of the stress

That's not what I meant to do, you know I love you to death

This year I might do something different like talking to God

I lost a friend