"We look out for each other. It’s the way it’s always been. This will blow over. We just need to stand together.
i've seen miracles spring from the hands of grisha many times, but so often, they turned to horrors. The darkling will destroy everything if he is not stopped . He has ruined so much
Everything and everyone in my life has changed. promise me you won't change.
Ray pleass run away with me the darkling hes a evil man please we have to chose right now whether we're gonna throw in the towel or make a stand together.
And I know that you don't actually need my help. you haven't for a long time. But whether you like it or not, we're in this mess together as sisters. im glad to see you again . i'd feared i wouldn't have the chance to speak with you again. " genya took a deep breath, cutting herself off mid ramble
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"I'm... grateful for you too, more than you know... But I don't think we can run from this. I- You've said it yourself, a hundred times, he's a powerful man. He has eyes and ears everywhere. There must be something to do, something possible. But I don't think we'd get very far running or sneaking or-"
Raisa sighed, "I just... People don't get out of here. They don't just escape. You know him better than I do, there could be some sliver of a chance. But with our luck, I'm not sure we'd get there."
She clasped and unclasped her hands. An old, nervous habit.
"Don't get me wrong, I'm not giving up. There just- there has to be another thing to try. Some other way."
" Is there? Is another way then choosing to help alina help end this war if we can. rasia look at me look at my face look at what hes done to me . What hes done to everyone who has opposed him to alina , me , the grisha, he was supposed to protect what he will do to this country, he won't stop at ravka if he expands rhe fold , fiergda , novi zem , shu han and kerch if he gets what he wants all will fall to him we will have no where to run to I've betryaed him once and he set his monsters on me . Do you think he'll be mercifull . Mercy is not a word that man understands . He didn't spare his own mother . We have no choice ray alina wont ask us to fight but she desrves to know that i havent abaonded and betryaed her again, " she spotted rays hands, and her tone softened she took her sisters hands in her own like she used to when they were young and used to share a bed ." I helped him i did i made a horrible mistake and it eats me alive but then I tried to fix that mistake I tried i did, and look what it got me a face full of scars and nowhere to call my own but i wont make such a mistake again. I won't lose you again, and if I have to fight for this for us, I will, but not without you . I won't leave you again i will take every chance for you " the guilt was almost audible in her voice. The darkling had given her the thing he msot desried a kefta a place to belong with her fellow grisha a chance at revenge she didnt regeret her revenge she regreted what she did to get there .she felt like crying all of a sudden she felt stupid she has gotten older she shouldn't get so upset so easily, she fet tears slid down her face md she started crying " i can't belive your here again . You've gotten taller . Prettier, too . Oh, saints, I missed you so so much "
She hugged her sister and let herself cry for the girl she was for the girl she will be hopefully when and if she survives and for her sister. Woud ray hate her if she finds out what genya had done ? Would she push her sister away ? A traitorous monster is that what she was ?
Raisa tensed at the contact but wrapped her arms around Genya anyway. "I missed you too. I'm not sure I could express just how much."
She paused, blinking back tears. Now was not the time for her to cry. She could deal with her own things later. A sentence she had thought many times and a promise she had never made good on.
"We will find a way to help. There will be a way out of this. We'll figure something out. But I think we can allow ourselves a moment to breathe. Just- just one. With everything that's happened, everything to come... And then I'll- we'll figure something out, or we'll just run. We'll find some way to help the Sun Summoner take down the Darkling for everything he's done. But I'm sure it won't be easy, and I'm sure if we get caught-" she hesitated.
No part of her wanted to think about what would happen if they got caught. What the Darkling would no doubt do to them, the things he had already done to Genya. It crossed Raisa's mind that, more likely than not, if she was caught, the Darkling wouldn't spare a thought before slicing her clean in half, or worse. She wasn't entirely sure how she'd even survived this long. She didn't let the image stay long in her head but its echo lingered.
"We won't. But before it all, just in case, we deserve a moment - just a moment - of peace."
" When did you get so wise, huh ? " she said, pulling back little to look at her sister . She smiled." im not scaring you , I, with all this talk of doom, am I? Lftle sister , remember when you used to be scared of sleeping alone, " she said, trying to make a joke it probably fell flat, but she knew that if they didn't ,laugh they would cry and she suspected they where both tired of crying .
She wiped her eyes, managing a small melancholy smile.
Raisa smiled, not quite able to get herself to laugh.
"There's been a lot talk of doom recently."
There was more to the thought but she did not quite know where to take it. So she stopped, thought for a moment.
"This is the first talk of survival I've heard in a while."
She cleared her throat to keep herself from crying. She opened her mouth to speak again but could find nothing to say.
" I missed you . Remeber when we used to climb trees togther , God we would drive mother insane " she said smiling despite the fear thumping against her chest . She was glad to have her sister back she loved rasia no matter what they will always be two halves of one whole .
( OOC : AHHHHHH IM SO SORRY I FROGOT TO KEEP AN EYE ON THIS BLOG AND RHEN I GOT BUSY IM SORRY THIS IS SO SHORT I LOST INSPO FOR A BIT SORRY )
Raisa smiled fondly. It was a lovely memory. But it felt so very far away.
"She worries... Saints forbid she ever finds out what we're doing now. She'd lose it." Raisa's smile faded and her voice quieted, as if she was talking only to herself "She's already panicked, I imagine, now that I've stopped sending her letters."
" Oh yes, you joined the army," genya said no unkindly, but still, she didn't fancy the thought of her sister dying in the first Army in some ditch somewhere she looked away clearing her throat . " You have a scar ... I can fix it if you want, " she said, not looking at rasia." How is Mama, by the way? i haven't talked to her in so long, " she added wistfully .

















