hi

fuck fuck fuck how do you reassess your life

am i ever going to be genuinely happy? like i was in a stable relationship (which ended badly because of my poor choices, yup, bit me in the ass i admit, no regrets though) but had a shitty job so it was like 50/50 for me. and now im single and still have that shitty job so like uh 0/100. but then again im relatively young and i know i shouldn’t be worrying much because a lot can still happen in the forthcoming years. but sometimes, just sometimes, i cant help but wonder “will i ever find genuine happiness in love and career at the same fucking time, or u know, just life in general.” idk man everything just doesn’t make any sense and im just going with the flow. and that may seem to be working out for me thus far, but the thing is, i’ve been going with the flow for so long now and idk if i’ll ever stop going and actually make a fucking path for myself it’s just—

To feel lost, stuck, and helpless, all at the same time is a different kind of pain. To tell yourself over and over again that things are going to get better, and yet you can’t seem to truly believe in it. To breakdown in the middle of the night, all by yourself, and hope that tomorrow, what you’ve been waiting for will finally come, just to ignite that faint hope inside you...yet it never does.

You’re gonna disappoint a lot of people and that’s okay.

In the end, hindi pa rin ikaw ‘yung pinili. Ang lungkot.

Ang lungkot din magyosi mag-isa puta.